lovesastateofmind

Lexy. 30. She/Her. AO3  

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie to Me

Rated: Explicit

“You’re more than just a sum of your worst parts, Lena.” He tells her, not even bothering to keep the quake from his voice. “I just want you to take that with you when you go.”

The dam breaks then. And Lena promptly throws her arms around his neck and sobs.

Lena Luthor has been many things to him. A hero being the top contender for most of the past few years. But he doesn’t like to put anyone on a pedestal that way. It can make things messy, put undue pressure on shoulders already weary. She’s done heroic things. She’s saved many lives. But at the end of it all, she’s just a person. Just a wiry frame underneath a well-loved sweater. She’s his friend. And the crux of it all is - he’s just going to miss his friend.

Chapter 40 HERE.

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Go check out her work HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Come read the FINAL CHAPTER

[lovesastateofmind1]

Two years ago, you asked me to be your beta. Signing up was a bit of a last minute decision and I was a bit nervous. But as soon as I read your message, I smiled. We knew nothing about each other aside from our obsession with the same fictional gays, but even from that first message I knew there was something special about you. I knew you were someone important.

One year ago, I came through one of the most difficult situations I have ever dealt with. And you were right there with me, giving me everything I needed without question. You treated me normally because I asked. Because you respected me enough to hear what I needed. Because love is expressed in action, not just in words.

With you I have learned that 'ready' isn't a feeling, but a choice. You never made me feel pressured. You never asked me for things that I wasn't prepared to give. But it was so easy to love you. Despite being afraid, I chose to commit. I chose to become a better version of myself because you were exactly what I wanted. I could have easily hidden behind 'I'm not ready.' Because I certainly had a valid reason. But I never wanted to hide with you. And I never will.

I always thought that I would need to learn to love what was good for me. That someday after my greatest heartbreak, I would learn to exist again and accept love, I just always thought it would be dim around the edges. I never thought it could be consuming. That it could make me feel whole. But you are the brightest part of my life. You fill my heart with so much joy. You bring so much love into my world. You are the only person I would truly do anything for.

Five days ago, you asked me to marry you. And in doing so, you have given me the home I have been searching for my whole life. You are my greatest gift. My biggest supporter. And the absolute love of my life.

So here's how it started versus how it's going. This isn't where I thought we would end up when I met you two years ago, but I wouldn't change a single thing. I will forever be your number one fan. I can't wait to call you my wife. Thank you for choosing me. I love you, always ❤️

@someoneyouloved93

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie to Me

Rated: Explicit

“You’re more than just a sum of your worst parts, Lena.” He tells her, not even bothering to keep the quake from his voice. “I just want you to take that with you when you go.”

The dam breaks then. And Lena promptly throws her arms around his neck and sobs.

Lena Luthor has been many things to him. A hero being the top contender for most of the past few years. But he doesn’t like to put anyone on a pedestal that way. It can make things messy, put undue pressure on shoulders already weary. She’s done heroic things. She’s saved many lives. But at the end of it all, she’s just a person. Just a wiry frame underneath a well-loved sweater. She’s his friend. And the crux of it all is - he’s just going to miss his friend.

Chapter 40 HERE.

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Go check out her work HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

42 is up!!

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie to Me

Rated: Explicit

“You’re more than just a sum of your worst parts, Lena.” He tells her, not even bothering to keep the quake from his voice. “I just want you to take that with you when you go.”

The dam breaks then. And Lena promptly throws her arms around his neck and sobs.

Lena Luthor has been many things to him. A hero being the top contender for most of the past few years. But he doesn’t like to put anyone on a pedestal that way. It can make things messy, put undue pressure on shoulders already weary. She’s done heroic things. She’s saved many lives. But at the end of it all, she’s just a person. Just a wiry frame underneath a well-loved sweater. She’s his friend. And the crux of it all is - he’s just going to miss his friend.

Chapter 40 HERE.

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Go check out her work HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Chapter 41 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie to Me

Rated: Explicit

“You’re more than just a sum of your worst parts, Lena.” He tells her, not even bothering to keep the quake from his voice. “I just want you to take that with you when you go.”

The dam breaks then. And Lena promptly throws her arms around his neck and sobs.

Lena Luthor has been many things to him. A hero being the top contender for most of the past few years. But he doesn’t like to put anyone on a pedestal that way. It can make things messy, put undue pressure on shoulders already weary. She’s done heroic things. She’s saved many lives. But at the end of it all, she’s just a person. Just a wiry frame underneath a well-loved sweater. She’s his friend. And the crux of it all is - he’s just going to miss his friend.

Chapter 40 HERE.

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Go check out her work HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie To Me

It’s quiet apart from the whirring monitors and the click of a lock behind her. It’s quiet apart from the blood rushing to her head and her breath rattling in her chest and the press of a button underneath the desk when Lena moves her left hand back, so familiar with the placement that she doesn’t even need to look.  Kara doesn’t know what she looks like in this moment. She doesn’t know if it’s the fear or desperation or disbelief that plays across her face first. She doesn’t know anything past the voice in her head that’s still in denial and battling with the knowledge that she should have considered this. Lena takes one step forward, then another, crowding into her space. A delicate hand comes to rest on her cheek and Kara looks into her eyes, piercing and emerald green. And she listens closely when she tuts, when her lips curl into a devilish smirk and she says, “Come now, darling, did you truly never see this coming?”

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Thank you so much for bringing it to life for me. Go check out her work HERE.

Chapter 32 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

38 HERE

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie To Me

It’s quiet apart from the whirring monitors and the click of a lock behind her. It’s quiet apart from the blood rushing to her head and her breath rattling in her chest and the press of a button underneath the desk when Lena moves her left hand back, so familiar with the placement that she doesn’t even need to look.  Kara doesn’t know what she looks like in this moment. She doesn’t know if it’s the fear or desperation or disbelief that plays across her face first. She doesn’t know anything past the voice in her head that’s still in denial and battling with the knowledge that she should have considered this. Lena takes one step forward, then another, crowding into her space. A delicate hand comes to rest on her cheek and Kara looks into her eyes, piercing and emerald green. And she listens closely when she tuts, when her lips curl into a devilish smirk and she says, “Come now, darling, did you truly never see this coming?”

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Thank you so much for bringing it to life for me. Go check out her work HERE.

Chapter 32 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

37 HERE

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie To Me

It’s quiet apart from the whirring monitors and the click of a lock behind her. It’s quiet apart from the blood rushing to her head and her breath rattling in her chest and the press of a button underneath the desk when Lena moves her left hand back, so familiar with the placement that she doesn’t even need to look.  Kara doesn’t know what she looks like in this moment. She doesn’t know if it’s the fear or desperation or disbelief that plays across her face first. She doesn’t know anything past the voice in her head that’s still in denial and battling with the knowledge that she should have considered this. Lena takes one step forward, then another, crowding into her space. A delicate hand comes to rest on her cheek and Kara looks into her eyes, piercing and emerald green. And she listens closely when she tuts, when her lips curl into a devilish smirk and she says, “Come now, darling, did you truly never see this coming?”

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Thank you so much for bringing it to life for me. Go check out her work HERE.

Chapter 32 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

36 is now up!

[isabeauwolf]

I have found the meme that fits fanfic writers everywhere!

I know I do. XD

[shed-some-light]

reminders for today:

if you or someone you know might need it in the next few years, purchase plan b. the shelf life of plan b is 4 years, and we might not be able to access it as easily as we can now in the days ahead.

if you are larger/plus size: go online and purchase ella instead of plan b. plan b is less effective if you aren’t under 160 pounds.

if you can, purchase books that project 2025 is looking to ban.

mass deportations are starting. if you see ice vehicles or agents, yell ice raid and la migra as loud as you can.

if someone asks who you voted for, keep your mouth shut. they’re fishing for traitors.

if anyone, anyone at all asks about your neighbors or their legal status in the us, you know nothing. don’t be the reason that their family is separated.

if anyone asks about your religion or lack thereof, keep it vague. this administration will look for any excuse to persecute you.

your friends are trans or queer? for the next four years they’re not. don’t expose anyone’s status as a trans or queer person to anyone else, even if you think you can trust them.

did someone you know get an abortion? no, they didn’t. they were never pregnant.

in short, don’t be a snitch, and keep to yourself these next four years. we’ll make it through this even if it seems hopeless at times.

we can survive this. we’ve survived before, and we’ll survive again.

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie To Me

It’s quiet apart from the whirring monitors and the click of a lock behind her. It’s quiet apart from the blood rushing to her head and her breath rattling in her chest and the press of a button underneath the desk when Lena moves her left hand back, so familiar with the placement that she doesn’t even need to look.  Kara doesn’t know what she looks like in this moment. She doesn’t know if it’s the fear or desperation or disbelief that plays across her face first. She doesn’t know anything past the voice in her head that’s still in denial and battling with the knowledge that she should have considered this. Lena takes one step forward, then another, crowding into her space. A delicate hand comes to rest on her cheek and Kara looks into her eyes, piercing and emerald green. And she listens closely when she tuts, when her lips curl into a devilish smirk and she says, “Come now, darling, did you truly never see this coming?”

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Thank you so much for bringing it to life for me. Go check out her work HERE.

Chapter 32 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Chapter 35 HERE

[lovesastateofmind1]

Lie To Me

It’s quiet apart from the whirring monitors and the click of a lock behind her. It’s quiet apart from the blood rushing to her head and her breath rattling in her chest and the press of a button underneath the desk when Lena moves her left hand back, so familiar with the placement that she doesn’t even need to look.  Kara doesn’t know what she looks like in this moment. She doesn’t know if it’s the fear or desperation or disbelief that plays across her face first. She doesn’t know anything past the voice in her head that’s still in denial and battling with the knowledge that she should have considered this. Lena takes one step forward, then another, crowding into her space. A delicate hand comes to rest on her cheek and Kara looks into her eyes, piercing and emerald green. And she listens closely when she tuts, when her lips curl into a devilish smirk and she says, “Come now, darling, did you truly never see this coming?”

Imagery by @chaotic-super. Thank you so much for bringing it to life for me. Go check out her work HERE.

Chapter 32 HERE.

[lovesastateofmind1]

Chapter 34 HERE.

[put-a-keep-are-you-foo-dell]

[fridayenights]

I'm editing my draft. Here's a meme about how I'm doing right now.

[appalachiananarchist]

I have an end-of-life patient to whom I spoke today. She burst out laughing and said, "It was all such fun. I just had so much fun." I wish this for everyone. I wish that we each would meet death laughing, with little regret and even less fear.

[abouquetofdaylillies-deactivate]

Pre-menstrual depression is always depicted as like "He He! I had a box of icecream bars and cried while watching the Titanic!" But in reality, it's more like, "I'm standing the edge of an abyss. There is nothing good inside of me, I'm filled with rage and desperation."

It's crazy that being told how to deal with that is never a part of anyone's menstrual sex education.

[headspace-hotel]

This has already been said in the notes, but if PMS causes extreme depression and even suicidal ideation, that is in fact something that most people do not experience and it can be treated

Like for the majority it really is "oh i'm hungrier and moodier than usual"

^this should be a part of sex education so the point still stands

[godesssiri]

I went to my doctor after I was walking to work one morning and saw a bus coming and actually took a step to throw myself in front of it before I pulled myself together. Later that day I started bleeding and was literally like someone flipped a switch and I didn't feel suicidal anymore. Which made me feel like I was loosing my mind because who goes from 'I want to throw myself in front of a bus' to 'I'm perfectly fine' just like that? I did some research, I went to the doctor and described my feelings, he looked me in the eye and gently asked what I thought it was, I said I'd read about PMDD and I thought it might be that, he said 'I think so too' and wrote a prescription.

If, before you get your period, you feel furiously angry, suicidal, irritated by every tiny thing to the point you want to murder someone, stuck in a black hole you'll never escape from. If you are experiencing extreme emotions for what seems like no good reason, especially if you get your period and those extreme emotions just go away. You're probably not just PMSing , you may have PMS's feral big sister PMDD and it's treatable.

Also this is something that can develop as you get older. So if you used to get normal PMS but what I wrote above sounds more like your norm now then don't just write it off as regular PMS.