I adore you. - Jung Jaehyun (Part III)
genre: fluff, angst(?)
word count: 1.6k
warnings: i honestly don’t remember anymore :(
a/n: i’ve been recently dabbling again with writing so this is just me filling in a few bits, please enjoyy and hold on a little longer! their story is only beginning hehehe
with all my love, summer x
It’s been a long day for Jaehyun, too long for it to just be called one day.
His mom was constantly at him during the morning, asking how college had been and what it’s been like living alone without them. The usual stuff mom’s normally ask when they haven’t spoken with their child for too long. Even though all she wanted to do was make sure that he was eating and getting on fine on his own she couldn’t help but be worried. He was her child, her baby after all.
Jaehyun answered all her questions with patience but the longer it went on, the longer he felt as if he was being dragged over the floor. Don’t get it twisted, he loves his mom so much but some days when he felt more down than usual talking to her seemed more like a chore. He didn’t want to sound ungrateful either, she always made sure he had enough side dishes in his fridge to keep him going for the next two weeks until his next visit home or her next visit to his apartment. Jaehyun wanted the phone call to end quicker than usual but it seemed as if she had so many questions to ask him, as if they haven’t talked in a while. It was unusual to say the least, he always sent her a text in between the days or if he’s reminded of her or their family.
He asked her if there was anything happening in the family but it seemed as though she dodged the question, almost pretending as if the question was never asked. As soon as his mom did that, he just knew he had to visit the coming weekend. It cannot be delayed if his mom was behaving this way. Something was going on, he was just out of the loop. He finally had enough and ended the phone call informing her that he was visiting this weekend. She was caught off guard but she agreed nonetheless.
He didn’t know whether or not to be worried about the phone call. It was quite unusual of her to behave in that way. Despite his insides bothering him, he tried his best to distract himself. So that’s where y/n came in. He sends a text your way, “are you busy?” he asked.
“Not really, just mindlessly scrolling through tiktok, nothing new,” you text. “What’s up?”
“Just not in the mood to be at home, wanna go for a picnic?” he suggested.
He knew you wouldn’t say no, you couldn’t resist the thought of just being outside with nature. You would probably bring a book and your speakers. Jaehyun would take care of the rest.
“You got me at ‘not wanting to be at home’, I’ll be ready in two hours? Is that enough time for you?” y/n replied.
“That’s perfect, you don’t need to bring anything okay? I’ll have everything sorted. Text you if I finish earlier than expected.” Jaehyun answered.
“Okie dokie, I’ll be here.”
His heart skipped. With those mere words, you’d already made him a fumbling mess. Can you imagine what you would do to him if you were his?
If only that was the case.
Jaehyun quickly shook his head, as if he could get rid of his thoughts that quickly. A loud sigh escaped his lips as he got up from his comfortable seat. He should get ready before the sun sets. You both loved to watch it. The sun setting was one of those things that could help you think you can start over again, like if you failed an exam or when small things build up into a big, disgusting pile that you don’t even want to go near at, it helps you gather those thoughts and make you realize that you can do it. Just don’t procrastinate.
While he created a mental list in his head, he repeated the things he needed on a loop. From the basic things like blankets, to snacks and little post-its and pens- you know, just in case you were inspired to write something. You always had a knack for coming up with things on your spontaneous adventures, even just as simple as a picnic. Jaehyun knew you, but every time he thought he did, you always did something unexpected. As if you suddenly convince yourself “oh, I’ve been wanting to do that, fuck it”.
Before his head went into a spiral, he physically shook his head and gathered the items in question and packed them in the car. He smiled slightly at the thought of spending this time with you. Who knew he would end up falling for his best friend?
Apparently, he was the one who was convinced he would never fall in love with you. Well because, you were you and Jaehyun was Jaehyun.
What a great reason for not to fall in love with someone right? Just because they’re them, you couldn’t or- you wouldn’t. Funny how life comes around in a full circle.
Jaehyun sent you a message to say that he was on his way before driving towards your apartment.
You came out of the front door just as soon as he arrived by your complex. He peeked his head slightly, you were wearing those favourite joggers he loved on you. The simple black one with the white strip on the side plastered with the brand name. They hugged your legs so well, he knew you were comfortable in them and it made you that bit extra ‘quirky’.
Jaehyun unlocked the door, not saying a word. He smiled at you as you sat by the passenger side. You nodded in acknowledgement and smiled in return.
The silence remained but the atmosphere was comforting. He drove you both to your spot.
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Y/n helped Jaehyun take stuff out from the back. You were surprised how much he prepared in such a short amount of time. It really made you think about things a little. Here was your best friend doing these things a boyfriend normally would. Could your boyfriend do the same thing? The same things as Jaehyun does. Or say the things he knows would comfort your uneasy heart.
With a sigh, you settled yourself on the blanket, placing another around your shoulders.
“You okay?” he asked.
“Just thinking, you know.” you replied.
“Like what?” curious.
“Like just how I feel. The things I’m doing, are they the right thing? Could I be doing something else right now that would make me feel like it’s worthwhile?”
He laughed slightly.
“Same,” he began and paused.
“Is that really all you could tell me, Jung Jaehyun? Same?” you exclaimed.
This time he heartily laughed at your reaction.
“Can you chill for a sec,” he giggled, “you didn’t give me enough time to say the rest of it.”
You made a guilty face and gestured for him to go on.
“I guess it’s a normal thing to think about when you come to this point though, no? We’re still young, we still have time to make some mistakes. Of course we won’t get everything right but that’s part of life.”
“I guess so. It’s hard to follow that kind of advice. I tell myself the same thing but no matter how much I try and drill it in my head, it doesn’t stick.” you said.
“It’s as if I just refuse to listen even though I know it’ll ease my worries. Maybe I need someone to calm me down in person too, rather than being said all the time to me- or texted.”
He nodded, urging you to continue.
“Things like this, you know? A simple sunset picnic. It doesn’t even have to be this prepared. Some blankets and a pack of crisps and water would do. Just knowing that you’re here with me and going through the motions with me is enough. It helps things make sense again.”
Jaehyun was speechless.
So he was doing the right things, why couldn’t you see it? He would never do this for anyone else but you. There are many girls who give him their number, or people telling him that one lady from another course is interested in getting to know him. But no, his eyes were on you and only you. It was one of the few things that made sense in his world.
“You’re more of an acts of service type of person then. Right?” he questioned, trying to keep the atmosphere a little light.
“Probably- oh and quality time. It makes sense if it was those two.” you attempted to do the math, and after a few seconds, you nodded, answering your own question.
From then, the conversation continued until the sky was pink. From then, you and Jaehyun knew it was time for silence. Time and space to think deeply.
You quickly settle your head on his lap. He didn’t seem to mind, you thought.
Your eyes focused on the pastel colours in the sky. You attempted to make shapes of the clouds, then moved on to count how many birds flew by until your eyes became tired.
Jaehyun saw you close your eyes gently. He sighed again for the nth time that day.
“How can someone be as beautiful as you and not see it?” he asked, looking at you.
“How is your mind as complicated as it is when things clearly work out in the end if you just be a little more patient with yourself?” thinking aloud again.
“How are you not able to see that things like this,” he looked around the vicinity and then you, “are for you. I do them for you because-” he hesitated, “I love you.”
He whispered the last three words. Afraid he’ll wake you up.
Little did he know, you were awake from the very first question he asked out loud.
