a collection of random thoughts

All poems are mine unless titled differently. Please be kind, however constructive criticism is welcome.

[lrvth]

Break Up

It doesn't matter how long you knew each other. It doesn't matter how long you've been separated.

If you loved than you loved it doesn't matter if you only knew each other two months . If the memory pains you it doesn't matter if you have been separated for over a year. And you don't have to feel guilty if you start orientating anew after 2 weeks.

Its upon you which emotions rule your mind. There are no periods of time to be hold until you can or cannot do something. The only thing that matters is your happiness.

[lrvth]

I realised now that you were my anchor.

You kept me from floating away into the abyss I fear.

Now, there are only the remnants of your presence

Holding me like an old rope that slowly rips under my weight.

I cannot bare it any longer.

I think I might just break it myself.

At least then, I might be able to forget you and myself perhaps.

—lrvth

[itlowbc]

Mama I’m no kid

I can’t live in treehouses,

Can’t run through the woods

Like I did.

Me and my brother

Haven’t felt like wild in so long.

Mama I’m sorry,

But I’m growing up again.

It’s lonesome and hopeful,

But deeper than I think I can swim.

Mama please help me,

I wanna be that kid again,

The girl I locked in a box

And buried in the sand.

Mama I’m forgetting who I am again.

[itlowbc]

I wanna see the lights

When it’s dark outside.

I want to see the world

When it’s quiet, and I

Want to feel my heart

When it’s racing.

Be patient with me,

My head is dizzy

And I can’t see

Where I’m looking.

I just want to feel clearly,

I want to see my friends

And tell them don’t worry

Tell them I love them,

But we’re in no hurry.

[lrvth]

Sweet youth

Moonlight shines bright on their sleepy eyes.

Sitting outside on a bench, three girls and a boy,

dreaming about what could be.

A bottle filled with stars picked from the canopy,

sparkling in the milky light.

Filling the youngsters bodies' with warmth.

As the night progressed, the magical potion

sparked their imagination.

They told tales and stories and the night seemed infinite.

They cried and tears dropped from laughter and sadness.

Their bond grew stronger by each second.

Oh, what night that was.

Strangers would assume they were drunk on

that mysterious potion they took in turns.

But that sparkling wine had nothing much in it for that consequence.

So, what made them behave like that?

It was pure lust for joy. Eternal youth, a never ending night.

They were high on life.

For that limited time of the night,

We were alive.

—lrvth

[lrvth]

There are people who are with someone

They are not really in love with

But it's too frightening

The thought to be alone

So they stay and lie to themselves

Then there are people who never give there full heart to someone

For it's been broken

Never healed properly

Won't ever perhaps

Then there are those who become broken at one point

They love fiercely with all their heart, naively with all they got

Not to anybody

They love once, maybe twice

Before

Lrvth

[lrvth]

And even though I got used to your absence, my heart breaks everyday a little further.

—lrvth

[lrvth]

Teardrops never burned before the way they do when I think of you

—lrvth

[lrvth]

And I know, I know, I should delete all your messages and all your photos...

But I can't, I can't.

Sometimes it’s the only thing that keeps me sane.

—lrvth

[lrvth]

Life feels like an incomplete jigsaw,

and you're the only fitting piece.

—lrvth

[lrvth]

And I realised I am trying to hard To get it all right

When I actually ruin everything But he keeps pushing me And he keeps pushing people away From me

Isn't there some sort of switch? Let me change Let me change

But I can't I won't His grip is too tight. ~lrvth

[samuelyounart]

Study sesh #2 from Sargent and Repin.

[lrvth]

longing

A path leading to madness.

An inspiration for success.

The perfect recipe for trouble.

Living within one’s mind, one’s chest.

Wafting through like a summer breeze

or gripping tight clawlike.

AGONY or ACCEPTANCE

to recover you must choose

the RIGHT one for you.

<lrvth>

[lrvth]

Break out

Because I was told to be different from the way I was.They told me to change, to fit in with them. To fit in somewhere creativity, art, and passion were foreign languages. To be part of a society where superficiality, boredom and monotony are the rule.

[remanence-of-love]

[lrvth]

there are only 3 people who can stop you from doing what you want to do: 1.You 2.yoU and oh, 3.yOu

lrvth

[killbukowski]

i swallowed a love that was not love but an opened wound and i made you breathe me blue like a bruise and i bloomed beneath you

- Bloom (S.L.)