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How Should I Know || Gabe & Lucas

Confusion had settled on his features finally and he eyed the door for the moment before realizing he must have not locked it yet again. He definitely needed to get into a habit of doing that. As the other apologized, Gabe shook his head quickly moving to grab the boys wrist quickly not wanting him to leave since he clearly came over for a reason, even if that was just because he couldnt sleep. “Um no… no, its fine. Im usually not asleep. I just… I’m usually not asleep.” Tilting his head to the side, he tried to move to catch the boys eyes wanting to look at him. “It’s fine… really. I dont like being alone when I can’t sleep either.” It was true, usually leading Gabe out to find someone to occupy his time and bed. Grinning, he nodded eagerly letting go of the boys wrist to head over to his movie collection. “Yeah, of course I have movies. Usually there gifts since I dont watch a lot of movies but I have some. What do you want to watch?” His voice soft as he looked over his shoulder at Lucas.

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Lucas felt bad for lieing about the reason he came to the boy’s apartment at an awful time of the morning, after all more often than not when he couldn’t sleep he would be more than happy to spend the time alone. He was used to it really, sometimes he even found comfort in sitting in a dark room with just his thoughts. But then again, other times there was nothing he wanted less than to be just with his thoughts. Finally allowing his eyes to land on the other’s which tried to hard to grasp for them, he found himself with a gentle smile trying to ignore the urge that still wanted nothing more than to pull Gabe into his arms and tell him everything. “Is there anything in the collection you haven’t watched?” He asked, his voice finally managing a bit more than a mumble trying to build up the confidence he usually carried with him. “If not just I don’t know, something pretty?”

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How Should I Know || Gabe & Lucas

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Hearing a noise, Gabe rolled over peaking out from his covers for a moment as he heard a meow from his kitten. “Shush Triscuit. It’s okay, go back to sleep honey.” He commented softly trying to hear out for anyone noise before huffing and moving to go back to sleep. “Its nothing.” He mumbled once more as he got another meow before feeling the cat leave his said and pad off to the living room. Groaning, he forced himself up, wrapping his blanket around himself as he got out of bed. “Triscuit please.” He called out after her bringing the blanket closer to his body as the cold air seemed to attack any flesh peeking out. He could hear Triscuit in the living room meowing contently and purring as he turned the corner, coming to see Lucas. “Um…. uh… Hi.” His voice soft as he blinked a few times to get his eyes to adjust to the small change in lighting. “Oh uh… do you want to talk or I dont really know what to suggest in this situation.”

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Lucas almost stumbled over his feet as he just stood there, wondering what it was he was planning on doing now that he was there. It wasn’t the right time to tell him he shouldn’t have even come rushing over in the first place. He didn’t think the plan though. But then again, he never thought anything through. So here he stood at the awkward time in the morning, looking back to a boy he knew too much about. “Sorry I came here,” He tried his best to look around the appartment, to avoid eye contact as he spoke. “I- I should have just stayed at home.” He could feel the heat on his cheeks from the run over and the way his breath was so warm when he spoke. That was all he was trying to think of as he just stood there, as long as he didn’t let himself think about the words he came over to say. “Do you have any movies we could watch? We could watch a movie. Or I could go back home, I’m sorry I came here.”

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The world seemed to move in slow motion, but rock back and forth. She could feel the sickness taking over as she tried to collect herself. It was a night of weakness, a night of stupidity, and one she would regret in a few hours. She had been sober for years, now all of that had been throw away. She hadn’t taken any of the offers she was given, flashing her engagement ring to any man who came near her. Then a woman got in her face about talking to her boyfriend, Emerson didn’t hesitate to show her true southern hospitality with an uppercut to her jaw. But the drinking alone was enough to pull her deeper into the quicksand she found herself drowning in. A familiar voice pulling her back to reality, she lifted her head to look at the young man, but she quickly regretted the sudden movement. “I need to go home. I want to go home…”Her words as childlike as they sounded. As she let her head fall back down. “I really need to go home…”

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His lips pursed together as he stared back at the woman he knew so well, yet he’d never seen her in a state anything like this. Lucas wanted to rush forward, pulling her face closer to inspection, he wanted to wrap his arms around her and offer her a place of comfort. But the way she swayed in the spot she stood, the way the words left her mouth, they held him back from everything he wanted to do. Because there was an even stronger urge in him to be no where near someone so drunken. Still he walked forward, hesitation in the boy’s step while he placed an arm around her, offering stability. “Does Landon know you’re out?” He tried not to look at her face, to look at her while he lead her away from the lamp post and spoke slower than he had in a long time. “My apartment is closer, would it be okay to take you back there instead? I can send a message to Landon.”

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How Should I Know || Gabe & Lucas

There was always something about the air after midnight, something about the freshness that was always there even in a city like New York. Something about it that seemed to bite at your face, eyes that were once tired at the hour finding comfort in the coolness around, and your hands search for warmth in your pockets. Normally Lucas would be thinking about the way the stars couldn’t be seen with the light, or the way that the pavement looked under his feet as he walked. But tonight, he only had one thing on his mind. Gabe. He’d ran right to his house, the whole way his mind practicing the words he was going to say as he walked in the door. He could see it in his mind, storming in to find a tired Gabe standing clad in his boxers as he referenced he video. He could hear the words he was going to speak, he imagined the way the blonde boy would feel in his arms as he pulled him into a kiss. He could imagine the way he touched him, the way he’d feel beneath his cool fingertips, the way he would touch his flushed face. All of it seemed to be a scene played in his head so many times, he was certain the moment he stormed though Gabe’s door that was the way it was going to be.

He was so very sure that as he walked through the tiled apartment, finding Gabe standing on guard at the noise, he was going to say it. I know. It’s me. The video’s about me. But while he caught his breath, just staring at the boy in front of him who stared right back, Lucas realised that speaking those words would be admitting it. Admitting everything. That he watched his blog, that he knew who he was before. Admitting that he was Olsen. It meant telling Gabe everything in that moment. And just like that, all the build up, all the jitters that Lucas danced with moments ago crashed. Instead three different words left his mouth in a mumble, “I couldn’t sleep.”

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“Everyday, it’s the same really. You wake up, that’s always the start. You wake up telling yourself today you’re going to do the best you can, but you told yourself that yesterday. Breakfast, that’s next. Or just like the thousands of other Americans you have a small piece of toast on the run and some coffee. Already, right there you’re lieing to yourself. Two fucking minutes into the day. But you don’t stop there, you go to work, you have your cigarette break. You deny that offer for drinks afterwards because you tell them you’re busy, all some little white lies that do no harm really. It’s not that you like these coworkers anyway, apparently you fucking like them just enough to lie. You get home, nothing’s different. Your day, it was the same, it was the dull routine of the rest of your life. But why bother lieing to yourself for the start. It’s not because you like yourself enough. But because the whole time you’re thinking, this can’t be the rest of my life, I’m on to do greater things. I’m on to do better things. You actually believe that one day, you just might. It’s just fucking sad right?”

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The woman stumbled out of the bar, her face beaten in and bloody with a bottle still gripped in her hand as she stubbled along the sidewalks. She veered too close to the sidewalk, her mind growing foggier with each step. She’d let her phone die and the only thing she wanted was to get home. She wandered into the light of a diner, falling against the light post, the bottle cashing to the concert. She let her head fall against the post, taking a moment to put together her broken mind.

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Lucas was just coming off his late night at the diner, something that had been becoming a more regular thing. It was strange really, working himself into a routine, stable jobs, university. Day after day was slowly becoming a pattern, a comfort that he wouldn’t be moving anytime soon. Not that he tried to think of this as he stepped out into the streetlight, his hands busy folding his apron, finding a blonde girl with her head against the lamp post who was clearly worse for wear. There was a slight hesitation in his movements, debating weather to continue walking or not. If he was to leave the drunken angel standing there in the cold night’s air, broken glass shining like crystals beneath her feet. “You alright?”

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Landon shut the door behind Lucas, only keeping half an ear on Lucas’ ramblings, knowing the guy so well that he only paid attention to the important parts. “You should probably learn how to get around this city,” he interjected, not even sure if his friend had heard him as he wandered through to the kitchen, and looked over in Lucas’ direction. “You quite finished? I thought I’d make us a drink if you want one.”

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It seemed as if he hadn’t even noticed Landon standing in the room until he spoke, forcing Lucas’ attention from around the room to the man who walked away from him towards the kitchen. “You should live in a city where things look different,” As he spoke the questioning look on his face grew into a smile, before he went back to wandering the room. “Do you have any coffee? Or did you’s go off that with the kid about? I hear caffeine isn’t good for kids you know, or breast feeding women. But they even say tea sometimes, so I think it’s just a bladder thing. I never really researched it.. Is that a new picture? Actually they say it about black tea, which has less caffeine in it than green tea. I think green tea’s good.”

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“I swear god I got here as fast as I could, but did you know there’s totally a street about yay far down that way and it has all these buildings, and street lights on it, and you know numbered streets just don’t really work in the real world. One, two, five, sixteen. Who can really tell the difference,” Lucas was rambling with his fast pace just as he always does as he walked through the door to Landon’s and Em’s apartment. At the time his eyes wandered around, searching for the changes that had happened since he’d last been there, and there were plenty. “Sometimes I think New York looks different,” Placing his bag down gently on the couch he continued to search, “But really it’s all the same if you’re not looking close enough.”

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Four different things they should have said to your muse, but never managed to

"Somedays I think about telling you about Olsen, sometimes I think maybe it’ll all be okay. But it scares me, because what if it’s not, what if it’s never okay that that person is who I am, that I know who you are.”“I love your hair when it’s curly, it’s got so much life to it. It makes it look like you’re full of so much more life.”“I’m sorry this is what I’m like, I’m sorry I’m scared of everything and I’m sorry I pretend not to be. I’m sorry about all of this.”“I worried you killed yourself for those two months, I worried you were dead, or did something stupid. I still worry about what happened, all I wanted to do was ask. But then I worried I’d scare you off.”

First three things they ever noticed about your muse

His god damn accent, like come on.His hair looked like a tumble weedLIKE WHAT EVEN IS THAT ACCENT?!?!

Two things your muse does that pisses them off

Sometimes he doesn’t do what he wants, he worries too much, but Lucas doesn’t know what he worries about.He thinks too less of himself, he really shouldn’t/

One thing they have always wanted to do with your muse

Go on a road trip with him. There’s no location in particular planned, but he just wants to drive for a long time with him.

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Four different things they should have said to your muse, but never managed to

“You mean a lot to me, you and Em mean so much more than you could ever imagine.”“Some days I wonder if we would be the same without Em there with us, but then I get weirded out thinking of one of you without the other.”“Doesn’t it scare you to have a kid? I mean, this little man’s going to look up to you his whole life.”“Christmas is over, don’t you think it’s time to take down your decorations?”

First three things they ever noticed about your muse

The kickass eyeliner he was wearing to the partyJust how god damn pale he wasHis sarcastic comments

Two things your muse does that pisses them off

He needs to learn to edit, there’s more to cinematography than the god damn thirds.He also should carry more gaffer tape with him when he goes to set, Lucas is sick of carrying around more than he already needs to.

One thing they have always wanted to do with your muse

Make a film with Teddy.

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