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anyways I'm gonna use this acc to look for sims 4 cc heheh

wow reading back on this is incredible, I started this blog when I was freshly 15 and the teenage angst was insaneee.

at 21, I feel lots more confident in myself, and although I still have trouble regulating my emotions, I am a lot better at it. it's going to be a continuous exercise, but I am relieved to know I changed much more than I thought.

I am happy at where I am in my life now and I hope when I look back on this when I remember it, I am happy

am i just being dramatic?

man i don’t know if coming back was a good idea

cries so hard lol

i stumble upon her every now and then but for the most part, i wonder what would happen if we would reconnect? and she’s reached out multiple times i just rejected those occasions. i think i’m better off. something in my gut says that. sometimes i do wish things were different, i would still have her, but some things don’t work out and that’s okay. i think the friendship just grew really unhappy for the both of us towards the end and for us to revive it now? i can’t see it happening. i feel like i’d revert back into my old shell, filled of spider webs and dust, to let her talk me down. and right now, i’m growing and i can’t let her cause my progress plateau. i’m somewhat happy with where i am and i don’t want to disrupt my journey

also reading back on this blog is crazy! i wish i recorded my development here but i’ve learned so much in the past two years and i truly love myself now. it’s crazy to think that i didn’t think i could exist without my ex best friend three or four years ago and now i’m doing so much better. i’m so happy i made that decision for me; we were both changing, anyways

using this as my personal diary but god i am so in love :( i don’t know if it’s just. im in love with the feeling? or the idea of him? or him for realsies? agh its so complicated but i wish i wasn’t so affection starved or clingy that i was confident enough he feels the same way you know?

hi if anyone sees this i’m really happy and i hope you are too

i wish my best friend was more considerate of my feelings .

me: knows comparing myself to others is bad and will only damage & hurt myself

also, me: does it anyways

feeling unloved and unwanted lol

puppymother

in grade 11 i was on the phone w this boy i wanted and i owed him a favour or something so i was like “it can be anything you want” and he was like “anything?” and im like ya thats what i fuckin said and he goes “can you explain to me how a fridge works? like how does it stay cold”

siegfriedandroy

im crying

hmsindecision

Do you know how many dogs I’ve met that get scared or anxious around men because in their previous home men hit them? A lot, and they are very protective of the women who have adopted them now.

Men who are violent towards women are often violent towards animals as well. They think we’re all chattel. If a man wants you to choose between your dog or cat or him, dump the guy. Those animals will love you for the rest of your life, loyal and true.

corpsefluid

Actually, I have something to add.

The other day I saw a story where a woman was asking why her dogs had suddenly started growling at her boyfriend whenever he was in the same room as her son.

And my immediate thought was ‘that boyfriend has hurt the kid somehow.’

Spoilers: that was exactly the case.

Trust ur dogs when they say something is off.

katnissdoesnotfollowback

The first time my sister came to visit, via plane, after I got my dog, pupper growled at her and wouldn’t go near her for the first day. Next visit was by car (two day drive)and pupper LOVED my sister. They snuggled and played and none of us could figure out why the change. We thought maybe the scent of my sisters cat had lingered on her clothes, making that first visit a rough one. Whereas when she came by car, the scent had had time to wear off. Well that was partially true…

Fast forward about six months when I went north to visit my family. My sister walked into my parents’ house and pupper ran to greet my sister. Stopped dead in her tracks and started growling and barking. Hackles raised, full protection mode. My sisters husband had just walked in behind her.

My precious puppy wanted NOTHING to do with him. She barked, growled, ran away, and sat between him and my sister. Y'all my dog had spent maybe a weekend a half around my sister but protected her like this was her flesh and blood.

Eventually, my sister filed for divorce on grounds of “Extreme and repeated mental, emotional, and sexual abuse.” Divorce was final in less than a month because her claims were substantiated.

Trust the dog, honey. They KNOW.

catscatsholyshitcats

I’ve never owned dogs, but I used to work with horses (which are a lot like big dogs).

There was this one horse I worked with named Tonto. He was a doll. He followed me like a puppy, snuck treats out of my pocket, he was the sweetest thing. We were practically inseparable.

A guy I was considering dating came to visit me one day, and Tonto wanted NOTHING to do with him. Normally well behaved, he shoved himself between us and would NOT let this guy near me. He was stomping, acting really aggressive, and tried to bite the guy. This horse was practically dragging me back toward the barn. At that moment, despite being like, 17, I knew something was up, and ultimately things didn’t pan out for guy and me.

A year later I found out he had lied about his age (he said he was 18 but he was actually 27) he was arrested for sexually assaulting an 11 year old girl.

TRUST THE ANIMALS.