You can grab my Choice of Games titles on sale as part of their Pride Month celebrations. The links below are to Steam, but you can also get them on sale on whatever device you play CoG games on. Enjoy!
Also, there's an interview up in which I talk about my thought processes writing queer characters, how my approach has evolved over time, and lots more. I'm wordy when talking about writing queer characters and queerness in settings (and, well, talking about anything to do with writing), so if you have any thoughts or questions about this, or about my approaches in general, I'd love to hear them!
Here's the interview!
And finally, here's where you can play the first three chapters of my dark fantasy WIP, The Earth Has Teeth!
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HOLY SHIT, IT IS DONE!!!
This was such a big challenge for me. I usually do not dabble in group pictures and Having to draw four characters that aren't mine really did a number on my brain, haha! That's what happens when you obsess over such a lovely story. :- )
Okay so I cheated a bit and reused the lineart I had previously done for Adam... Nate gave me so many issues, it was really hard to capture his likeness just right. Mason was definitely the most fun to draw and I'm definitely the proudest of how Felix turned out! I think I did alright... 💙
Colours in the air they gleam, a sight that brings me to tears. I can see them almost every day. If only everybody saw the same, maybe they would feel the love like me.
the template by @turtleybeachin :) (so sorry for the tag, just didn’t wanna do this without giving credit)
GENERAL AND PERSONAL DETAILS
Name (and nickname): Elliana “Ellie” Antoinette Argent
Gender and pronouns: Female (she/her)
Sexuality: Lesbian
Eye Colour: Light green
Hair Colour: Strawberry Blonde
Hair Length: Long (down her shoulders, usually in a half up-half down style)
Height: 5’6 (1.67 in cm)
Build: Thin
Distinctive Marks (tattoos, piercings, scars, etc.): ear piercings, small butterfly tattoo on shoulder, freckles on her cheeks (usually comes out during the summer)
Clothing Style: Cheery style, she wears a lot of pastel colors. Sundresses during the summer, cozy cardigans during the winter.
Apartment Style: Bright style, orange walls, a lots of flowers and art supplies lying around.
Highest Skills: Deduction and Knowledge
Highest Personality Traits: Friendly, Easygoing
Rules (by the book or bend them): By the book
Team Player?: Team Player
Logic (heart or mind): Mind (although her heart does have a lot to say as well)
Outlook (optimist or pessimist): optimist
RELATIONSHIPS
with Rebecca:
past: Positive. No matter how much she kept disappointing her, Ellie always greeted her with kindness. She was just busy, she never held it against her. It was just how things were supposed to be.
present: Positive with bubbling resentment. She knows Rebecca loves her but the constant lies are tiring her out. She’s also slowly learning to love herself more so she realizes that she never let herself get mad at her truly.
feelings about Rook: Thinking about him makes her so sad, doesn’t matter if she doesn’t remember him. Very emotionally connected.
with Bobby: Ex-best friend, one of those high school friendships you have a insane falling out with. Tries to still be cordial with her but it’s hard.
with Douglas: Thinks of him like a little brother. Loves doting on him. Unaware of his feelings for her. Likes giving him advice.
with Tina: Close friends, met in police academy where things were rough for her so she appreciates her company so much.
with Verda: Science buddies. His frequent babysitter since she’s good with kids.
with Mayor: She’s respectful with him.
with Captain: She’s respectful with him as well. A bit nervous around him because he is her boss. (She’s a people pleaser)
Romance:
are you in a relationship?: Nope, Morgan stole her heart but technically she is single.
have you kissed?: yes
have you been intimate?: yes
do you love them?: elliana has recently realized it but absolutely terrified to say. She thinks Morgan only sees her as a fuckbuddy and she doesn’t think she’s worthy of her affections. But yes, she’s in love with her. (And it is requited, they are just idiots)
Best Friend in UB: Nat
BOOK DECISIONS
Decisions in Book One
Did the detective shoot A: No.
Reason for joining the Wayhaven PD: Wanted to make a difference and protect everyone. (Also wanted to make Rebecca proud in some way if she manages to save other people)
Went out or stayed in: Went out.
Reaction to vampire revelation: Scared at first and very confused.
Agreed to Agency blood tests: Yes
Did Murphy bite you: Yes, on the neck
Murphy's fate: Captured
Decisions in Book Two
Dealing with the trauma of Murphy: Very shaken up about it, oblivious. Trying to smile and look past it but it’s hard.
Carnival choices: Went with Morgan. Had a gay crisis during the carousal, encouraged all flirting (cause she’s in too deep already).
Supernatural research or combat: Research (combat scares her)
Did Tina or Verda learn the truth: She encouraged Verda.
if Douglas route, how'd you treat him?: She obliviously let him in because she thinks he’s a sweet little guy. Although had to let him down gently cause she’s a lesbian lmfao (alexa play pink triangle by weezer)
Unit Alpha impression: Managed to charm them with her earnestness. Has no problem with them.
View on Supernaturals / how do Supernaturals view you: Generally positive. She managed to make friends with most people in the agency. Especially close with Elidor.
Who was saved from the Trappers: Morgan
Sanja's fate: Dead
Maa-alused outcome: Signed the treaty
Decisions in Book Three
Supernatural research or combat: Research again
Romances:
if M, post-bakery fight: Elliana doesn’t think she has the right to get mad at her so she forgave her pretty quick. Her words did stink a lot, made her feel even more unworthy of her love.
have you told them you love them?: LMFAO NO
current relationship with Rebecca: Still good but she’s slowly getting annoyed by her lies.
Townsfolk storylines:
if Verda, are you encouraging him to join the Agency?: Yes.
View on Supernaturals / how do Supernaturals view you: Very positive, she’s very popular.
Did you go with Rebecca or alone to the auction?: With Rebecca, she’s been slowly getting confident of her abilities but would feel more comfortable with Rebecca around.
Hair Length: Long (she is a little vain about her hair and embarrassed about it)
Height: 6'0 (she wears 4-inch heels to establish her supremacy)
Build: She's very much a blond bombshell stereotype, so an hourglass figure
Distinctive Marks (tattoos, piercings, scars, etc.): Scars on her neck from Murphy attack; a tiny, badly made heart tattoo on her ankle she got at a friend's party
Clothing Style: Hyper-feminine, her work clothes very much resemble her mother's style
Apartment Style: It used to be cozy all around, but her bedroom shifted more to a dark style with the blinds constantly closed because she wanted to make Morgan feel comfortable when she came over
Highest Skills: Deduction/Knowledge
Highest Personality Traits: Friendly (77%)
Rules (by the book or bend them): Slightly more by the book (55%), so it depends on the situation
Team Player?: Yes
Logic (heart or mind): Heart
Outlook (optimist or pessimist): Optimist
RELATIONSHIPS
with Rebecca: 88%
feelings about Rook: Even if she didn't know him, thoughts about his death still hurt her. She's more sympathetic to Rebecca's loss when she thinks about him because she can't imagine how horrible it would feel like to lose someone you love so much
past: Very close. Ally knows that if you don't expect anything, you won't get disappointed, so she decided that the crumbs of attention she got throughout her life were more than enough
present: Still very close, and she's very happy that they get to work together and see each other more often
with Bobby: Exes, but Ally acts decent with her, and if something were to happen to Bobby, she would still help her despite everything
with Douglas: She sees him as a lost kid who is yet to find his place in life, but she doesn't pay that much attention to him
with Tina: The best of friends. Ally will do anything for her, and she knows Tina would do the same. They often have sleepovers and girl nights at each other's places. If someone knows everything about Ally, it's Tina
with Verda: Friendly on the basis of both of them being thirsty for knowledge. Generally, unless the person is so shitty it can't be overlooked, Ally is friendly with everyone
with Mayor: She stays polite, but can't ignore his comments about Rook and his clear interest in Rebecca, so he's on thin ice
with Captain: Decent working relationship
Romance: Morgan
Best Friend in UB: Nat. They trade books and go through each other's tea collections to compare and review
are you in a relationship?: See the point above
have you kissed?: Yes
have you been intimate?: Yes
do you love them?: Of course not! They're just very good friends who sleep with each other, nothing else. Whatever feelings Ally might have for her are purely friendly, nothing else. She's sure Morgan sees her the same way
BOOK DECISIONS
Reason for joining the Wayhaven PD: It was the best career to put her mind to use while also allowing her to help people
Decisions in Book One
Did the detective shoot A: No
Went out or stayed in: Stayed in
Reaction to vampire revelation: Disbelieving
Agreed to Agency blood tests: Yes
Did Murphy bite you: Yes, on the neck
Murphy's fate: Captured
Carnival choices: Side show where she won a wolf and was upset Morgan wouldn't accept it; carousel ride where things got inappropriate real quick
Decisions in Book Two
Dealing with the trauma of Murphy: It's too traumatic to forget, even if Ally wouldn't show it to anyone
Supernatural research or combat: Research, since that's what she's good at
Did Tina or Verda learn the truth: Tina did
if Bobby route, kiss?: Yes. She was too stunned to avoid it
Unit Alpha impression: They got along pretty well despite the comment about museums
View on Supernaturals / how do Supernaturals view you: She's not naive to danger, but just like she is with people, she would wait for them to show their bad side before forming a negative opinion. Most supernatirals she met have very positive view of her
Who was saved from the Trappers: Sanja
Sanja's fate: Alive
Maa-alused outcome: Signed the treaty
Decisions in Book Three
Supernatural research or combat: Research
have you told them you love them?: She only loves Morgan as a friend, what is there to tell?
Romances:
if M, post-bakery fight: There wasn't really a fight. Ally just thinks Morgan made a stupid comment, and that's all there is. She never felt hurt, so there was nothing to forgive
current relationship with Rebecca: Very good. She's excited to get to know her better
View on Supernaturals / how do Supernaturals view you: Positive for both sides
Townsfolk storylines:
if Tina, are you encouraging her interest in the (secret) Agent? Ally is still cautious about the situation, but she decided to stay away and let the situation unfold without her interference
Did you go with Rebecca or alone to the auction?: Alone because she was too afraid her mother might get hurt
if alone, how did you handle the fallout with your unexpected companion: She let Bobby keep the memories, because it felt like the right thing to do
Please, first let me apologize for the time I took to finally post this fic.
I didn't mean to be a tease, I simply got anxious, haha...
I'd like to mention that I am not a skilled writer and that I apologize in advance if any of the following piece feels a little clumsy.
This fic was very much supposed to be a self indulgent portrayal of Ethan's repressed desires, only I got carried away and dived a little deeper into his own introspection.
Keep in mind this is a nsfw read, and while it is much less intense than I had previously though it'd be, it still makes me a little bit shy... 👉👈
Hopefully, you'll get to enjoy it as much as I did.
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Title: "This void to fill."
Fandom: The Wayhaven Chronicles
Characters: Ethan Ulrich (Male detective / OC), Adam du Mortain
Rated: 18+ (CWs: FTM Gender/Body dysphoria.)
Synopsis: Due to an unforeseen event, Ethan has been residing at the warehouse for a few weeks now...
While living alongside Unit Bravo feels more welcoming that he's ever thought it could be, sharing a living space with vampires also makes for very little personal privacy.
So when suddenly confronted with the confusing feelings he's developed for Adam, Ethan realizes just how much his own body betrays him and finds no other choice but to retreat to his bedroom and hope nobody comes to check on him.
Word count: 1690 words
It was one of those days.
Ethan had recognized the familiar pressure in his core as it slowly pulled him out of sleep, skin still warm and sensitive from the night spent underneath the heavy blanket of his bed. A warm slick had seeped through the fabric of his white underwear, sticking onto his still perked tip enough to pull an annoyed groan out of him as he mustered the will to step out of bed.
A cold shower would make quick work of killing any lingering arousal, surely. For a moment…
Morning always felt most enjoyable at the warehouse. Most of them were quietly spent alongside the four other members of Unit Bravo, and yet even on days where the heaviness of their current case weighted the team down, there was an undeniable sense of security that had grown between each of them. Like a safety net Ethan hadn’t realized family could become.
But despite it all, an odd tension still lingered between Ethan and the unit's leader, Adam.
It had grown nearly alarming just how easily Adam's presence affected him, arguably pathetically so. The man couldn’t recall precisely when it had first started… a few months ago maybe? Spring had just begun. God knew how many times they'd met alone on borrowed time, between missions or after a long day's work since then. But has summer's newly found heat settled, Ethan had grown tormented by how he could no longer control the way his heart skipped a beat whenever he'd enter a room, or how his temperature spiked whenever their bodies drew close, or how tight his chest felt at the simple mention of the vampire's name, and the distressing realization of just how aware of it all Adam had been.
How could he not be? It was just like he said... In his nature to feel such signals from others. Something he restrained himself to do.
Ethan could only wonder if they both carried the weight of a thousand unspoken words, recalling every moment their cold eyes locked and the semblance of intimacy they'd secretly shared... He wondered if Adam ached in a similar way he did, or if he ached at all...
While the Commanding Agent didn't come off as someone who'd carelessly toy with one's feelings, it'd become an arduous task to read past his constant emotional push and pull. Surely this couldn't be one sided. Surely these feelings wouldn't persist if they'd been solely one sided… could they?
A couple of minutes under the cold stream of water had washed away most of the man's pent-up tension, his thin build faintly shivering by the time he'd reached for the faucet. His pale skin still glistened from the chilled water as his eyes glanced across the bathroom mirror, the sight leaving him feeling a well known inadequacy.
An usual occurrence.
Ethan glanced at himself for a moment, scrutinizing his reflection like a piece of evidence, like something to figure out. He’d assessed the minimal scarring on his chest, his focus nearly instantly shifting onto the obvious new scars that adorned the inside of his arms… a gift from Dr. Murphy himself a few months prior. A nightmare's souvenir engraved within his flesh for the rest of his life...
But Ethan’s eyes darted to the ground before he could finish examining himself entirely, consciously avoiding the sight of his groin and ignoring the noticeable lack of manhood between his legs.
Dysphoria wasn’t always so present, but its heavy pang always had the habit of manifesting whenever confronted to these bothersome desires, those smoldering needs Ethan desperately tried to disregard and hide from… well, all of Unit Bravo.
Living with four vampires had its perks, but emotional and physical privacy sure hadn't been one of them, especially when Felix always took such great pleasure in pointing out every perceptible shift in Ethan’s demeanor around their unit leader.
Not taking any more time than he needed to, the detective quickly finished dressing up before finally exiting the room and walking the long corridors of the warehouse. A familiar rhythmic thumping faintly echoed off the walls as the detective approached the training room, knowing exactly who he'd find there, deeply focused through his workout.
The man's hands fiddled at the hem of his large sweater once he’d gotten close enough, enough to hear Adam's controlled breathing and feeling incapable not to stop by the doorway to silently observe the vampire's combat training.
The leader's towering build felt imposing even from afar, each of his hits and movement calculated and executed with sharp precision, barely grazing the dummies as he practiced his fatal blows. Sweat stained and dampened the pale grey shirt he wore, sticking to his creamy skin and stretching over the taut muscles of his back. Adam's broad shoulders tensed at each hit, arms flexed and perfectly defined whenever he threw a punch.
Upon the increased heat of summer's arrival, the commanding agent had recently taken the matter in his own hands and clipped off the beautiful dark blond hair that had outgrown his usual military fashion, a subtly longer buzz cut now adorning his scalp. Drops of sweat shimmered down his tense neck and for the fraction of a second, Ethan unconsciously wondered if he'd ever be allowed to massage away at their strain and to offer him comfort he wouldn't retreat from.
But as if his thoughts had rung throughout the room, Adam's stance had shifted, slowly turning his head to the door, and instantly locking his icy green eyes within Ethan's own.
"Detective." He briefly greeted; voice almost quiet as they stared each other down.
Ethan's mouth tightened, instantly taken by the recognizable swarming inside his chest, the one Adam often triggered by simply speaking. It took everything for him not to flee, legs grown faintly numb from being caught watching.
"Good morning, Adam." He replied with his usual politeness, attempting as he could to subtly clear his throat and carry on. "I didn't mean to interrupt."
"Is there anything you needed?" The commanding agent had answered back, predictably dismissing any potential small talk between them, and yet his eyes had lingered just a moment too long upon the smaller man’s lips.
You. I need you.
"N-no. Nothing in particular." The detective lied, his right hand nervously venturing to the back of his neck where he'd hoped to squeeze away some of the adrenaline that coursed through his body. “I was just on my way back to my room.”
The vampire's icy stare simply flickered over the frailer man's body, distinctly studying at it before a cautious frown settled over his thick brow. He’d then stepped forward, breaking most of the distance between them as he joined Ethan by the entrance of the room, each of them remaining on their respective side of the door. The hammering inside Ethan’s chest nearly hurt, the sudden fear of being inadequate slowly chipping at his composed state.
"Are you well...?" Adam questioned, this time much more focused than he'd been as their discussion began, His voice nearly sultry as his body subtly leaned in closer to the doorframe, exacerbating the unbearable magnetic pull already tormenting the detective.
Ethan found himself completely at a loss for words, a violent shiver coursing through him as he desperately attempted to suppress the heat of attraction setting his body aflame, taken by surprise as the commanding agent’s hand had softly reached for his own and offered it a gentle squeeze.
No. No, I’m not. You’re ruining me Adam… and I willingly let you.
“I’m fine. I will be. I just—” he stammered; his breath now grown much louder than he’d realized. “I need a moment.” He excused himself, an unusual nervosity exuding from him as he hesitantly turned away, denying his leader a final look in fear to be completely exposed.
“Ethan—” the vampire called out, in vain.
His hurried steps echoed through the corridors as guilt and embarrassment sunk within him like a searing pit, the unbearable pressure in his core now reignited tenfold.
It took him no longer than a couple of minutes before he’d sheltered himself back into his temporary bedroom, the hammering inside his chest so loud he feared Adam could still hear it.
The man’s fist coiled firmly and quickly pressed against his forehead, a futile protest against the indescribable lust fogging his every thoughts.
He knows. He… What if he knew?
Ethan’s back found itself pressed against the door as his legs turned to butter, fear and eagerness combined as he felt his tip swell with need, a warm and velvety slick abundantly dripping from the void between his legs. This mortifying void he feared to be exposed. A void he could no longer deny he wished was filled with Adam’s own flesh.
He gasped, the realization so overwhelming he couldn’t help but plaster a hand on his mouth as the other impulsively ventured against his groin and dipped under the fabric of his soiled underwear. His mouth felt dry, lips trembling ever so faintly as he helplessly recalled the memories of each time he'd surprised Adam's frigid stare piercing through him, or the few moments spent alone where their bodies had been pressed so close he could have practically confused the vampire’s heartbeat for his own.
A stifled moan ripped through him as his hips slightly bucked forward, shamefully attempting to imagine the commanding agent’s touch instead of his own and melting at the thought of his rugged fingers hungrily caressing the warmth of his folds.
His back arched and features narrowed, Ethan’s face now completely flushed as he found himself capsized by the terrible yearn he felt, a few little aborted thrusts amplifying the relief he sought from grinding against his finger… imagining the sheer pressure of the vampire’s build pressed against him.
Finally, the overwhelming fantasy of Adam’s perfect lips voraciously stealing kisses from his mouth had soon been enough to tip him over the edge, waves of agonizing pleasure crashing onto him and leaving him feeling nothing but weak and petrified.
The best thing about having a partner who also does medieval reenactment is that you can text them like “do you want a sexy leg pic 😏” and when they obviously go “of course 👀” you send them a close up of a really nice piece of leg armour. And then they aren’t even mad and go “yeah that is sexy as hell, thank you.”
It would, of course, be remiss of me to not include examples of these sexy leg pics. Try this one simple trick to find out if your partner is someone with taste!
(If anyone does do this to their partner, I’d love to know the results)
A little evening exchange between Adam and Ethan.
The constant emotional pushing and pulling has been rough on their hearts, and Adam is entirely at fault for it.
(Not a canon interaction, but very inspired by B3)
Mich, you have my whole heart for these pieces!! You are always an absolute joy to commission and you create the most stunning art for me every single time! Thank you for being truly amazing!!
