So, it's been... It's been. Let me tell you about my experience with a narcissist mother, and why Jennette McCurdy's book "I'm Glad My Mom Died" really resonated with me.
My mom is ALSO a hoarder, that's been passed to me as well
My mom REALLY wanted me to either be a child actor OR a model (no pressure) (also huge shout out to my dad for not doing that)
I, too, eventually gained an eating disorder. In the past, I might have been anorexic? Nowadays, I do tend to binge eat. (For reference, I'm 5'10" and used to weigh 120-125 pounds, but now I'm a little over 200 pounds)
I am the oldest of five kids and was also the parentified child, which is a form of abuse.
I've only been nearly 4 years of no contact with her, but... I kinda miss her? I mean, I don't miss her yelling at me or driving like an insane lunatic or yelling at servers or my being an extension of her, without my own personality or interests. Now, I actually have a hobby! It's called Finger looping and is done with pre-looped yarn.
Also, I've noticed that my autistic traits have been emerging, now that I'm safe to do so.
The first year of going no contact was extremely hard, especially when she would park outside where I lived. A clown mask in the window solved that. The first year of going no contact also had me really catching up on my years of sleep deprivation, so I'm definitely less paranoid and not seeing any spirits.
Also, I have a cat who's been really helpful in my healing journey. 30 years old now and finally feeling like I have some control over my own life.
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