For all the gifts you could have given
(And I know you are a giver)
Whyâd the grandest of them all
Have to be the pain you lived in
(For sins of your favorite sinner)
Left at fault, for all her faults
For crimes never committed
But you just canât admit it
Left punished for another
Your favorite former lover
An ever present specter
But you will never get her
And I will never get it
But I feel it when you give it
She has cut you like no other
You wonât love me like you loved her
Disrespect her and reject her
Exorcize then resurrect her.
Your sinner and her sins
Who you keep inviting in
Former lover favorite specter
She will never give you better
The one you always wanted
Will only leave you taunted
The sinner with her sins
No matter how you blessed her
For all that has possessed her
Sheâll break you then sheâll flaunt it
She will always leave you haunted
Sheâs your sinner, youâre her sin
Who youâve welcomed in again
Again again again
Into the vaults of your whole soul
To you her faults are never old
But now whoâs to pay the debt
For these sins you wonât forget
Who has maxed out all your credit
But youâve never known your limits
So I guess that I do get it
Itâs just balancing of books
After everything she took
The debt must be transferred
Unpaid pain to be deferred
But whoâs to take the hurt
When the sinnerâs off the hook
Whoâs left balancing the books
For pain inflicted and collected
Whoâs left signing all these checks
Checks that will not be paid back
By the sinner for her sins
That you keep inviting in
And you, yes you will let her
Former lover Favorite specter
The one whoâll never want you
But you will let her haunt you
Sheâs your sinner, sheâs your sin
Who you always welcome in
Always, and again
unaccountable accounting
Who is paying for it all
For the cheater and deceiver
Who will count the countless sins
insurmountable and counting
I was praying to be all
For you, yet you just want to grieve her
You will always let her win
You will always choose to grieve her
You will always choose to fall
Even as I refuse to be her
I can never be your all
Not your sinner nor her sins
That you keep inviting in
A former lover, favorite specter
Should have left her where you met her
it never mattered what I wanted
I am battered. I am haunted.
By your sinner and your sins
You have let her win again
Too late to make this end less bitter
No last chance to make this better
You once said I was all you wanted
Convincing lies can still be wanton
From a sinner welcomed in
And now your sinner is your sin
You wonât be welcomed in again
The one that I once truly wanted
But I wonât throw down the gauntlet
You were my sinner not my sin
For at the end of everything
All she asks you freely give it
Racking debts you made me live it
Chosen pain that you have lived in
grandest gift youâve ever given
Now at the end of everything
Not all debts can be forgiven
Nor forgotten itâs forbidden
At the end of everything
We were ghosts before beginning
At the end of everything
Was I ever anything?
To you













