LuvvGhul

Hallo ! Future blog page for us, not much here right now! He/Him trans guy, t4t, and disabled,, eighteen

[luvvghul]

Hello ! My name is Heiko , I'm trans ftm and aro aceflux ,,, we're bodily eighteen.

This blog is for a hundred different things , it will be text posts , reblogs , occasionally inactive, and occasionally too active --- all of the usual stuff .

This blog will focus heavily on :

[pt: This blog will focus heavily on:]

Plurality -> I am the host of a polyfragmented DID system ! We are both trauma and endogenic with a complex innerworld and bad short term memory because of dissociation . I do not care if anyone believes us , hate amuses me , I will not argue my reality's validity to folks on the internet .

Trans Pride -> I'm a trans man !!! Soon I will be starting testosterone , I am very proud of how far I've come and I will always speak out for my community . Trans Existence is Resistance .

Personality Disorders -> Especially Cluster B personality disorders . We have ASPD , we present with narcissistic tendencies , we have BPD , we are several other things I just don't care to tell the internet . NPD abuse isn't real , BPD abuse isn't real , only I may call myself a sociopath ,,,,

Miscellaneous -> I will be going into premed and starting a project car soon ! I would adore to share that journey here if I have the time . Of course , this also includes any other random posting we do ehe

Boundaries :

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In a perfect world I wouldn't be typing out a section like this but shits getting crazy guys ,,, ofc I believe having to read someones whole DNI before interacting with a post is insane so keep in mind our DNI and BYI only apply for people who plan to follow and / or reach out to us . Anyone can interact with our posts so long as they interact with respect .

Do Not Interact -> Anti endogenic systems , anti willowgenic systems , sysmedicalists , narcissistic "abuse" believers , BPD "abuse" believers , Cluster B demonizers , terfs , the weirdos who are demonizing men / masculinity / transmen ( there's a term , however I've forgotten) , trump supporters , far right ,,,,

You don't like me and I don't like you ,,,, it's better for both of us if you dni

Before You Interact -> I mentioned that we have ASPD but please keep in mind that we are low empathy and low sympathy . We always do our best to mind our tone but if you need us to mind our tone please be upfront about it . We will not justify our plurality or our disorders to anyone , we don't owe it to anyone . Whatever hate anyone has will be deleted and the account will be blocked ( we do not endorse harrassment , we are above that and you should be too ) . Keep in mind there is lots of internet discourse , too much to keep track of . I do not care to keep up with it all : I like being off the internet occasionally . That being said there are lots of things I am neutral about / don't have a stance on / don't know enough about , if it isn't mentioned here assume I am neutral to your interaction and feel free to do whatever !

Tags :

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Assume more might be added to this over time ! Of course these are mostly cosmetic and for me but thats why I love them .

The Song of my People -> This tag will be for all of our long rambly text posts !

The Wind Howls -> This will be the tag for anything in our inbox

In an Effort to Survive -> This will be the tag for when we post about our personality disorders or our other mental health issues .

Central Unitied Station -> The tag for posting about our system ! this tag based on actual innerworld things so its fun for me tehe

To be Her Son -> Our tag for all of my transgender posts !!!

[the-kirbe-anon-archive-deactiva]

I love dandelions!

*puts a dandelion in your hair*

Reblog to put a dandelion in prev's hair

[f4ntasy-n3rd]

Hey, so not the usual content I post but I need some help 😭 I had a question for those that understand binding with trans tape more than I do. So I recently (as in yesterday) started trying it because of the hot weather and binders just became a nightmare, but I can't seem to get my chest flatter, it just seems like support rather than binding? Any tips? (Pictures under, for reference I have quite a small ribcage and D cups)

[luvvghul]

I'm by no means great at taping, but I think I have enough understanding and experience to semi-effectively explain it, not to mention all my time using kt tape for disability.

Trans tape for anyone who doesn't know is Essentially the same thing as Kinesiology Tape (KT tape), they can be used the same way from my understanding. I am allergic to most adhesives, so I tend to use copper infused KT tape to minimize my reaction to it and this could help someone else.

KT tape usually comes in one inch thick strips whereas actual trans tape typically is four inches thick. Bigger breasts may be easier to bind using thicker strips, I feel it really depends per Body and Preference. KT tape comes in longer strips and works amazingly for us when cut in half, remember to Round the corners of any tape you cut, we find it keeps the tape from peeling up.

We shower before we tape, having clean skin can make your tape last far longer and reduces your chances of reacting to the adhesive. Please always remember nipple covers,,, bandaids, cotton balls (our preference), anything you can think off to protect your nipples from the adhesive.

Moving on to actually taping, the tape can be stretched out really far, but the more you stretch it before putting on your skin the less sticky it is. The adhesive will be strongest on your skin where you haven't stretched it, having a section of tape unstretched is used as an anchor.

I start by anchoring the tape just over my sternum, using the heat of my hand to activate the adhesive faster. I stretch the tape slowly as I smooth it over my skin, the direction you pull your tape will "smooth" the breast in that direction. I use two pieces of kt tape in total, two halves for each breast, stretching the tape towards my sides. Sometimes I'll use a third piece on each side to pull the tissue upwards, giving it a sort of pec look.

Admittedly its a lot of trial and error, and tape will almost never be as flat as a binder but thats just because of the differences in the two. Always decide what works best for you and always practice safety.

Sorry if this isn't the most helpful 😭

[luvvghul]

I think transition is so beautiful . At this point in life I have mostly begun socially transitioning and here very soon will be beginning the process to start testosterone and I'm absolutely thrilled . Knowing I'll be able to start testosterone soon on its own was life saving and I can't wait to grow into the man all of my biggest supporters irl have believed in for years .

I went from very closeted and scared to having since moved to a safer place and now being out and being able to turn my attention towards healing and becoming a man , I've decided my transition is dedicated to all the transmen who came before me . The ones were never able to transition or come out , to all of the transmen stripped of their identities after death , to all of the transmen too scared to come out now , and to all of my trans brothers and sisters that never made it as far as I did .

All of this to say , if you are thinking about taking testosterone or estrogen I think you should . Of course be as safe as possible , always be safe , but if it makes you happy when it's just you by yourself then by god it is so worth it . Fighting to see yourself in the mirror is hard but I hope someday we all can achieve it .

[luvvghul]

you are so cute and funny

Thank you Anon , though I'm admittedly a little confused ,! I'm not exactly sure how you've gathered that from the little activity I've done on this account but I appreciate the sentiment !

(Edit: I'd like to say that I'm 95% sure this got weird real fast but whatever ,,,,)

[luvvghul]

We use the website PluralSpace! It's pretty cool, it has some online features and you can add people as friends on there. The process is a little more complicated than we'd like but it works.

There's also another app in early development called imPlural. We haven't applied to be a tester for it so we don't know 100% what it's like, but from the screenshots we've seen, it's coming along nicely and it doesn't look too different from Simply Plural.

Thank you Anon !!! I will be so sure to look at these at some point , if not then maybe I can convince someone else to front and mess around with alternative apps

I'm not too fond of change so Simply Plural sunset immediately into Octocon sunset was sort of insane at first , then the onslaught of new apps and of course new discourse , drama , and controversy ...

As for all of the alternatives we plan to try out , we're considering trying the innerworld social media thing ? Simply because it seems fun and cute , if I'm honest .

I've been lightly considering making info pages on a neocities site , but I'm not very great at coding yet and we are a very large system so it feels personally intangible ( though we'd love to see it if someone else has done anything else like this )

[luvvghul]

This post is pretty good if you want info on the Ourcana dev: https://www.tumblr.com/simplydecor/813539814034096128?source=share

We have ... looked at this and Wow ! Back to the drawing board ig ??? Super sucks but whatever ,,, we'll probably update pluralkit and use it until we find Another Alternative ! We have a couple of ideas as to where to start at least , though we wish there were more options with online features ! Thank you Anon for the post ,,

Not gunna lie I'm really caught on the article , but thats just because we have PDs . The nazi joke was gross and having reread the apology , it really should have been discussed that it had been inappropriate and out of line . Some of it I think I'm a bit too fatigued to have processed correctly and typing any complex thoughts at nearly four in the morning sounds like torture ,,, stay safe out there folks and remember there is always a place for you somewhere o7

[luvvghul]

Its been several years and an account change since I've posted and Typically I am far better about making a first post as an introduction with some boundaries, stances, and use it to establish a blog theme but I'm like,,, so lost !

This post will be talking about Ourcana, the dev, and is written by a trauma-endo system ! We do not care about your stance (pro/neu/anti endo) when you interact with this post so long as your respectful; I will not tollerate discourse

I'm sorry for the quality of this post, typically I would put in more effort but my thoughts are absolutely scrambled

If someone could send us links to posts or accounts regarding the recent things surrounding the Ourcana dev? We've seen lots of posts talking about it but don't know if we have all of the information or not

We've seen the nazi joke/comment (?) and believe it was distasteful. Upon reading Heni's apology we feel like more should have been said and like the focus of the apology was more focused on development instead of the actual effect a comment like that could have.

I think we've only seen portions of anything regarding Heni's stance on DNIs but have read briefly about the link to an website that was grossly unfriendly to pwPDs, and have seen virtually nothing regarding the use of AI,,

The plural community feels like a mess, and that says a lot considering everything we've seen over the years. There is so much hate everywhere and I don't think anyone has been able to settle back into the swing of things with all of the changes---its a wreck. The Plural Community deserves more than this and we deserve to respect ourselves and folks like us more than this. I hope all of the fighting someday exhausts everybody like it exhausts me, and I hope someday we put it to rest.

[maneatered]

Why do people act like going to therapy and taking meds will magically cure me like do they not realize that's not how it works?