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“I DON'T believe I'll be able to BEHAVE myself." "Promise?" — Call me Rainer! OC + Partial Dead Dove Blog !! POSSIBLE TRIGGERING TOPICS ON THIS BLOG !!

[luvyduvie]

Good evening, those who’ve stumbled upon my blog! My name is Rainer!

This is my personal safe-haven for posting away from my other blogs, which I use for clean reblogs and posts I want people to know me by. These are posts exclusively for me.

I am a he/him butch lesbian, and I have a loving partner that I’ve been with for about a year and a half, so chasers and men DNI

I have an interest in geriatric nursing, and I’m currently studying for my career as a registered nurse to work in a nursing home!

This blog is mainly based on venting posts and/or the fetishes I enjoy, so if mentions of bondage, breeding, pet play, feet, omorashi, consensual-non-consent, and stepcon trigger you or will trigger you, this may not be the blog for you.

This does NOT mean I accept all fetishes. Iam not obligated to approve of yours because you approve of mine- I will not engage with anyone that is into incest, necrophilia, pedophilia, or zoophilia. Pet play is not zoophilia.

I am a recovering addict, so I may be sensitive to mentions of drugs and alcohol. I am also quite prone to relapsing. I do not want to be shamed.

That should be all you need to know about me, but I will hopefully be adding more as my posts continue. Enjoy my content!

[luvyduvie]

I got ghosted and nobodies messaging me back i CANT do this tonight i just cant

[luvyduvie]

Im genuinely so mentally ill I saw one of those initial carving videos and broke no contact

[luvyduvie]

Ugh idk what I’m gonna do when my bf leaves me the only thing I remember from when I was single is how empty and alone I felt and I just feel like I need to prepare

[luvyduvie]

My bf says all the time how he wishes his ocs were all girls and I know he’s joking and stuff but I feel so ashamed over the fact that he’s unhappy over all his characters and it’s my fault because I pushed him to make them all boys or whatever i don’t even remember what I did

[gooseworx]

why did jax abstract off screen??????

Because I wanted it to feel as abrupt and upsetting as it feels in real life.

[77morbillionfireflies]

Paul mention I don't ever really think in a modern era now where rokosbasilisk isn't like mandatory that jonah would really be THAT into him I think their relationship would moreso be to me a reflection of how he feels towards liam and how he views his and gus' relationship very specifically like I always saw paul as jonah's OWN gus trying to find some sort of connection outside of liam and somebody to fill the void that's left when liam branches out and makes new friends and has people to spend time with outside of jonah. I don't really think they'd get along that well considering jonah fell in love with liam because liam was NICE to him and didn't really care about everything that other people judged him for and that's kind of the opposite of paul. Pauls cynical and mean and even if he wasn't cynical and mean towards jonah per say(despite the lack of interactions the two got) he's still outwardly selfish and nihilistic and doesn't talk much or do anything but cry and complain about his problems and rely on other people to help fix them. And that's just not liam. I think generally their entire relationship would just make him miss him more and in retrospect I don't really see it going anywhere outside of a narrative force to keep jonah from trying to move on

[luvyduvie]

No cuz theyre sitting here rebounding and rebounding and rebounding when they could just date eachother because they’re in LOVE ATHEHRE IN LOVE and I believe wholeheartedly that of we actually got to focus on the narrative that isnt family friendly censored they’d be meeting and fucking anyway

[luvyduvie]

Talked about them not pulling out when jonah and liam freak and it occurred to me that it’s kinda narrative in more than the gay way like i think about catacombs and one of the central reasons it was so sad to me is cuz it didnt matter what they thought like if they thought they were too smart or too strong to get into the situations they get into they end up doing something stupid anyway because they’re reckless immature kids and they do what they want and it ended up with somebody dead and as menial as it is to everyone else that kinda resonates in the jonahliam sex and it’s beautiful

[weird-color]

heard someone talk about a yuri padlock and yknow what hell yeah

[weird-color]

I love lesbians

[luvyduvie]

IVE experiemtned with Laurene’s weight a bunch over the years and the way she carries it like in the first drawing she was TINY. she was tiny like probably barely cusping past 200 pounds because she was meant to be in middle school in that drawing. And then I drew a bunch of laurene drawings where shes bigger and smaller and bigger and smaller and the laurene I’m comfortable with drawing now is probably around 275-300 pounds even though the whole time I draw her like that I felt like I was making fetish art because of how other people made me feel about it

[hillie-art]

posting deltarune and spreading berdseth propaganda (let them be smart idiots together)

might actually render one of these berdly is so cute

[luvyduvie]

I did a lot of shit as a twelve year old girl i cheated on my bf with a gay guy my best friend had a crush on and had a mutually toxic love affair where we kissed behind the school (literally only pucker kissed lowk during school hours I was a goody two shoes) and I told him I’d dump my boyfriend for him and then I sighed and kicked my feet and thought about how in love I was and decided that a year of relationship wasn’t worth it for a week of fun at best

[luvyduvie]

I used to go hang out at the local highschool after dark with my friends and pop pins and drink cough syrup and make out with my sidepiece and I vividly remember this one time we were playing strip uno which kind of dates when this took place cuz it was when uno reverse humor was funny and we were listening to my moms ipod and we were listening to that song thats like Sugr suga howd u get so flyyyyy and one of my friends got so excited that i had that song on ipod that she made me put it on loop and sometimes i think i miss all the fun until I realize I was in the SEVENTH GRADE and I’m like thats literally a baby thats a twelve year old girl

[luvyduvie]

SPOILERS!!! FOR DELTARUNE CHAPTER 5

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I was so busy picking apart the little details on how flowerys relationship with ralsei sort of parallels how we are currently perceiving asriels relationship with kris with the whole golden boy perfection gets all the attention symbolism and how flowery even calls ralseis room bland when he shouldn’t know that that I didn’t efen think about that undertale flowey is asriel i am soooo fucking stupid

[luvyduvie]

Everytime I have no goon material i go back to this one video and I watched it as of recently and now all I can think about is nero and juliet having kinky sex cuz the man is british

[rogerrrroger]

oh nah they got bro masking to avoid deletion 😭✌️

[fruittcakr]

I screamed and threw my phone oh my god. I’m so glad that other people think this too like NO FUCK THEY’RE MAKING HIM MASK :(