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[March 2024]

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picking up the evidence

found a monster in my car, what a interesting development

It must be — a figment —of my imagination

Just a token of chance,

I must be seeing something

But to find the angel number on the door and think nothing of it

is to denying the plausibility of our perfection

Oh how those rainy midnight car rides left me dazed in the scent of you and rain water puddles

For what was only half a decade felt like a lifetime away from you.

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Something something something

Funnel cakes and whip cream

a bunch of lyrics of roses and a lot of caffeine

and I don’t know how to order a drink

But we’ll walk around Texas and let the memories take over

Listen to the nostalgia, hold on…. play that song over

touching your hand pulls me through a tunnel

taking a walk through the garden, rest my head on your shoulder

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you aren’t allowed to deny the synchronicity’s

We dont need to touch

we dont even hold hands

But I know you feel it too

so don’t make me follow you

because I know you feel it too

You just won’t let me love u

but I pull the woods into the garden

Lay on the bermuda, talk about our feelings

and and the sun goes down and I say “good morning”

[May / June 2024]

wonderful place

Under 635, on a lake, taking me for a ride

i haven’t laughed this much in over a year

wonderful place, just mine and yours

take a walk on a lake, a path, a department store

we don’t hold hands anymore

But you’re sitting in the palm of mine

somehow it feels like it hasn’t been so many years where we sat in the classroom

holding hands in chapel, going to the bathroom

So let’s grovel over the memories again and take a ride under 635

we’ll listen to your tunes

and I’ll listen to your heart while we sit in the back of your car

Youll hold my hand, but you’re still to scared to hold my heart

so let’s take a walk by the lake, in the park and accidentally catch your eyes, look away and smile

We’ll dance over again

but never move forward

This was April 20 my first impression

[Late 2023]

days turn into a fractals, my mind into black matter

the spirograph becomes repetitive

i can’t seem to get out of bed

pour over all my letters and try my best not to remember,

how the radius of love wasn’t as large as I imagined

i’m stumbling getting out of our time line

it was no accident this time

i was so comfortable in the juncture where my heart was all ours

i force myself back into a circle

while the 18-23 seconds become slower and slower

there’s no heart and it’s all very bitter

but damn those 13grams feel like a knife against metal

It’s not supposed to be sad. It’s just a transition hallway scene where i was lost in the hedge maze

Rome

I tried to stop all the roads leading me back to Rome

I tried it all, to let it go

But I couldn’t find it

I still don’t understand it

how I lost it all when I simultaneously never found us.

Back to living in the woods now

down where the water runs in with memories

where once upon a time i sat under the willows, you know, the ones that weep

Using my papers and pens writing songs about daydreams placed right in front of me

it happened suddenly one day, where it was all taken away

and then I never felt the same

now I live in a cabin surrounded by ceder (redwood?) trees

so I paint the leaves gold

cover the lake with glitter

Bring the garden to the woods

Watch the sun pull itself out of the dark winter

Wishing on stars to feel you change the weather around me again

Framed puzzle pieces in memories dreams?… I can’t quite remember

-must be missing something…

but then why does it feel so close to forever?

Rainbows in cotton candy clouds following all my rainstorm showers

I hear the sirens calling on the other line

But I chose to crawl through the haze

because this isn’t about anyone else just you and me

:))

(Sometime before & after TTPD release. Some parts from a long time ago)

if only u could see through my glowing eyes

you could sit anywhere and still exude a vivid incandescent light

something brought to my entity, nothing quite like it to replace it

gave me a silly little story but won’t just finish it

and i might just regret it

but will never forget it

and to be completely honest

i gave up forgetting about you

So now, ill sit here waiting in the garden

counting the paragraphs with no conclusion

so many unfinished anthologies

verses longing for a resolution

i just want to pull you to the window

show the view through my eyes

that the wood’s doesn’t have to be so scary and dark (?)

tswiftdaily

HQ scans from Taylor’s “Cosmopolitan” article

sasha-on-the-side

Been talking about this with friends so I present to you, the cursed spectrum of media literacy

supernaturallyliterate

What if I told you it was a circle

You live on a skyline (high line?)

watching the sun rise

Midnight drives, a parking lot ride

We’re in the dark, in each others arms

I’m never gonna beat this high…

I’m running late for an important date and im blowing through cautionary tell tale signs

you’re across town apartment shopping while simultaneously driving me to into bars

Forging the happenstance of running and tripping into my favorite fairytale

Just as if it was a book you’d read to me as you tucked me into bed

And I still believe in magic because somehow i already knew ir

That’s why i kept your letters in my sleeve, hoping one day you would come get me

And I didn’t tell you enough but you always blew everyone out of the water

With all your waves and late night games

Your beautiful pallet of blue

So now all I do is wander through blank spaces in my memories, where I feel like i lost you

Triple checking the timeline and evidence

I start to wonder am i just dreaming the past up or was the little daisy sun dress a coincidence

I still don’t understand how it all happened but i know that i will always love you <3

(This one’s not done entirely but i hope u liek it)

Ok so. First the black bow Tay is wearing

Clara Bow-

But also references Getaway Car and Mastermind

“the ties were black the lies were white. In shades of grey and candle light”

^black tie is the Wedding theme likely. Grey references TTPD and candle light signaling that it’s“after dark” (in the dead of night)

- Her pony tail references Red while also referencing “You can be my jailer Burton to this Taylor”

“Switching sides” “tables turned” is referencing the game of Chess

Black is purity, truth.

White is the lie

Picture to burn is what I think ties the whole timeline all together with the

fleur-de-lis ⚜️ = purity, heavenly, trust and Valor

august 2024 im pretty sure (inspired by Cold Reactor)

Living the same 24 hours every day taking different paths but I keep ending up in the same place and it’s been a life time since I saw your face so, I’m convinced it has to be a figment of my imagination Our birth charts are coincidence, im making up evidence And it’s been years where I successfully looked past it So why is it now I just can’t ignore it And im completely honest when I say you never left my mind So is it just me? Or were you really supposed to be mine Oh baby, so I’m running back to you rolling the dice, praying for doubles I’m going in. Knowing the rozes will burn my skin but you’re the one and I can’t ever forget a force like this so I will roll the dice again, just so I can know you all over again taking that chance knowing it will break my heart all over again Unless.. unless.. you let me take your hand and we can run around and catch all the butterflies Just like it was when we were kids Sit on the swings, dance in the garden Because I’d give everything to see you smile So let me take your hand because all I wanna do Is know you for the rest of my life dream in the garden Sit on the swing set For the rest of my life it’s not gravity, it’s more Life changing, world shattering A nuclear force And it’s been a life time, but here I am Rolling the dice. Risking my heart Giving everything to see you again So here I am, take my hand Because I want to know you for the rest of my life

july 2024... actually i think it might of been earlier than that idk

we could just let all the storms blow over And I could make a home inside your heart with all that daylight shining through the clouds now where do we start don’t you see the road ahead of us Don’t you just want to get in the car and drive We could go to the stars and just really shatter each other’s hearts… again we know that feeling all too well It was indescribably…shattering… maybe just dazzling… And I got the chance to fall for you again and it’s exactly how I felt when I was fifteen stumbling down the hallway after you Memorizing your schedule, sitting on the swings… Funny how I like to rhyme when I hang out with you. Now every single Taylor Swift song is about you... So why don’t you step into the art closet once more and just for a moment feel everything we had… And I’ll tell you a secret I waited in this garden waiting for something, and all of that just to be haunted by you and that’s how I really knew u were the loml

Where you first met me…. lots of thoughts…

Oh i see now.

$20 she shows this year bc Karlie’s already there is white

Think about this a lot.

I had a feeling about you early one day before you opened our storybook I was running around in my moms dollhouse on a computer from 2005 and I guess you heard me sigh Because with just a glance in my direction, I felt your presence Then everyone called me crazy and told me I wasn't worth more than anything (So i guess I got what I wanted) And you held my hand and told me bedtime stories But I had just fell down and hit my head i was too little. I couldn’t understand. And i hate it here so i stare at the dead roses in bed The shoes and love letters I couldn't comprehend (I needed help), I didn't understand And my heart stopped as I turned the board upside down. And I knew it was just about me and you somehow so i let your voice drive me home but I really had no idea.... ( really ) had no idea...(really) that you'd even consider.. me at all.