A lover of the arts (literature, music, visual—you name it) and all things gothic and victorian. I read whatever I can get my hands on and geek about Obsidian from time to time.
i think i tend to forget how good boredom is for creativity because we're all so addicted to numbing ourselves with screens and stimulation. but standing in the shower or going for a walk with no music or just sitting in your bedroom without being allowed to touch any screens & all of a sudden i have multiple new projects to start, a solution to a months-long plot problem & 4 new original characters
we are moving at speeds i have not seen before. i’m sitting in the lecture hall like ???? but fuck it we ball. anyway i have gotten into listening to amapiano when studying
Long recap ahead. I think it's better to do it this way since it takes away the pressure of posting daily.
In short, it's been okay. I have been able to develop a steady habit of filling my journal and habit tracker daily! Of course, there have been ups and downs; times when I don't want to do the things I was supposed to be doing and retreat to comfort of laziness, but my mind was quick enough to remind me of this post—and that sat me up real quick.
The habits I have been trying to build besides making progress on my thesis are doing stretches, a tiny bit of workout, cleaning, writing (fiction and non-fiction), and... applying sunscreen.
I also took a 2-day PTO because work was wearing me out, then sorted things with my manager about my workload. It was fine, I suppose. Hope my manager will listen. The best part of this week is that I've been very consistent with keeping track of my progress (on a physical notebook). April 23rd-27th log under the cut.
April 23rd-27th, 2026
Day 79-83/100
Sprained a muscle somewhere when doing workouts and had to rest (LOL). Thesis work was resumed between various pockets of time. Then the next several days I had to prepare for a visiting relative and other family events, which turned out to drain me quite a bit. I felt unwell for about two or three days after that, which put the little routines I've been setting for myself in earlier weeks in shambles, including breaking the streak of some other habit. All that matters is I'm giving my body the rest it needs and not beating myself up over low or unproductive days. As a result, I managed to avoid being bedridden.
Some time between this journey, I wanted to treat myself with trying a creative activity besides drawing, so I chose paper making. I bought the mould about a year ago but never really had the chance to try it out. It was fun, if not a tad difficult to use because it turned out the mould I had was of poor quality. Still, it was a nice break from all that grinding.
I think I can now say, after examining things more closely and being more intentional with the things I'm doing, that: 1) You are not a machine. Rest is absolutely necessary; 2) Done is better than perfect, especially on low days— because what matters it that you keep showing up; 3) It's just 30 minutes. Heck, even 5 minutes; 4) Celebrate small wins! All these words can easily be found on Pinterest, but on a personal level, they now hold a different weight than before I started this little challenge.
A few days since my last post (March 3rd. Wow. Time flies), I got a bit carried away with my display tablet and spent most of March familiarizing myself with it instead of, well, doing my thesis.
However! To make up for having abandoned my academic obligation, I decided to shove all my digital drawing tools into the abyss, locking it up somewhere far away since the start of April to dedicate myself fully to finishing this cursed thesis. I also came up with several rules: No sneaking little doodles on scattered papers, no brainstorming art ideas, no watching art tutorials, no geography flashcards, and no picking up new hobbies.
Suffice it to say, I have been and still am, suffering. But you know what? This metaphorical straitjacket has led to even more progress on this thesis than the previous months… or weeks… Whatever.
Unfortunately, I caught myself watching a few crafting shorts/reels earlier today, but I'll let it slide this time. Just this once.
No bullet points this time since it's just 'work and thesis' and little to nothing in between.
anyone knows the pure happiness of waiting for your first ever drawing tablet/pen display to arrive?
like, im scrolling through pinterest, see an amazing drawing and go: "hell yea ill be making these in a few days" and just feel those butterflies in my stomach
Work was draining. It took quite a bit of effort in me to review flashcards, or do anything on my 'puter after getting off work. The sole thing on my mind was to get this day over with. On the bright side, I bought my first pen display and it will be arriving in a few days. Excited to try it out!
I am not sure if these couple of days are productive, but I suppose anything that engages and enriches the mind and body in some manner can likely be considered so.
Messed with my decade-old graphics tablet whose driver the manufacturer refused to update for my current operating system (I wonder why). I managed to get it working again with the help of opentabletdriver, and it restored the pressure sensitivity too. Bless the open source community! I will never stop thanking them for kicking capitalism in the guts.
Flashcards (Geography, French) I tried a sentences deck for French, which seems to work better for me.