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MYZIAM COME BACK PLEASE MY HEART

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adults: why do teenagers need anti depressants lmao adults: *get a lil stressed* *abuse their kids*

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PSA

STOP

WITH

THE

HORRIBLE

ADAPTATIONS

START

PRAYER

CIRCLE

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akira was good tf u on about

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KEYWORDS FOR ASTROLOGY TERMS

SUN: Basic personality, your ego, how you express your creativity, how acquaintances and friends get to know you, your father.

MOON: The more private aspect of your personality, your emotions, how you express your sensitivity, the most intimate part of you, how your family knows you, your mother, your childhood.

MERCURY: Communication, how you process information, how you think, speech patterns, sense of humor, your wit, your siblings.

VENUS: Love and relationships, how you relate to others socially, how you show affection to others, your charm, your beauty standards, what you find attractive in others, the women you attract in your life.

MARS: Drive, ambition, stamina, willpower, what your goals are and how you achieve them, how you show your passion, how you react when you're angry, how you express yourself sexually, the men you attract in your life.

JUPITER: Philosophy, religion, higher-level of thinking, luck, how you express your faith, how you just 'trust', what your life purpose is, where you get your lucky breaks, how you experience prosperity.

SATURN: Authority, time, karma, limitations, methodical planning, how you ground yourself, your fears, where you feel weakest, your responsibilities, your commitments, how you have to focus, how you must improve.

URANUS: Technology, change, enlightenment, novelty, chaos, disruption, intuition, how you express your individualism, how you’re erratic and unpredictable, how you need your independence, how you need to break boundaries.

NEPTUNE: Dreams, illusion, spirituality, sensitivity, art, cinema, media, glamor, how you express your idealism and imagination, how you feel disappointment, how you wear rose-colored glasses, the mysterious, the unclear, the undefinable.

PLUTO: Personal power, transformation, where you’re both self-destructive and creative, how you face power struggles and upheaval, how you regenerate, how you heal.

CHIRON: Your deepest pain, where you feel inadequate, your personal sound, where you overcompensate, how you can heal others.

ASCENDANT/RISING SIGN (1ST HOUSE): How you first come across to people, your facial expression, your mannerisms, your appearance, how you initially approach things, your view on life.

2ND HOUSE: Your self esteem, your resources and possessions, your wealth, your income, your talents, your values and morals.

3RD HOUSE: Your observation and analysis skills, your thinking skills, your basic education, your curiosity, short trips, your local community and neighborhood.

Imum Coeli/IC (4TH HOUSE): Latin for "bottom of the sky." Your home, your family, your traditions, your history, where you feel the most comfortable, the most private part of your personality.

5TH HOUSE: Self-expression, creativity, recreation, drama, art, writing, romance, romance and dating, your children or your attitude towards them.

6TH HOUSE: How you serve others, your workplace, everyday routine, small pets, your health and how you maintain it, your organization and schedule.

DESCENDANT (7th HOUSE): One-on-one partnerships, traits and characteristics you seek in others, business partnerships, marriage, open enemies, competitors, roommates.

8TH HOUSE: Intimacy, transformation, how you let certain parts of yourself "die" or "fade away", how you reform, how you restore, the give and take of control.

9TH HOUSE: The higher truth, higher-education, travelling to foreign lands, learning about new culture or ways of life, enlightenment, looking at the bigger picture.

MEDIUM COELI/MIDHEAVEN (10TH HOUSE): Latin for "middle of the sky." Your aspirations in life, your goals, your career, who you want to be, your reputation, what the public views you as.

11TH HOUSE: Your hopes and dreams, your friends, your acquaintances, how you network, humanitarian concerns, philanthropy, ideals you seek to live by.

12TH HOUSE: Your secret motives, your hidden agendas, self-sacrifice, co-dependence, serving others, healing, hidden knowledge, hidden personality, spirituality.

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1: Name - dani

2: Age - 18

3: 3 Fears - spiders, abandonment, clowns

4: 3 things I love - @lyudin glenn rhee and pokemon

5: 4 turns on - @lyudin bondage, hm im not sure

6: 4 turns off - anyone who isn’t @lyudin and bad breath but that’s it

7: My best friend - @lyudin but also merrick and @fandomsforever259

8: Sexual orientation - bi

9: My best first date - corn fest with my boyfriend

10: How tall am I - 5′7

11: What do I miss - prom night tbh

12: What time was I born - like 4:30 pm or something

13: Favorite color: red

14: Do I have a crush: on my boyfriend

15: Favorite quote: “The world isn’t split into good people and death eaters. We all have both light and dark inside us, what matters is the part we choose to act on.” -Sirius Black (i actually used caps because i respect sirius so much)

16: Favorite place - wherever @lyudin is

17: Favorite food: pizza

18: Do I use sarcasm: not at all

19: What am I listening to right now: death note soundtrack

20: First thing I notice in new person: hair

21: Shoe size: 8 ½ or 9

22: Eye color: brown

23: Hair color: brown

24: Favorite style of clothing: my boyfriend’s clothes and casual

25: Ever done a prank call?: ye

27: Meaning behind my URL: starstruck is a good word and i love marianas trench

28: Favorite movie: harry potter

29: Favorite song: cross my heart - marianas trench

30: Favorite band: marianas trench

31: How I feel right now: happy

32: Someone I love: my boyfriend

33: My current relationship status: happily taken by @lyudin

34: My relationship with my parents: good with my dad. we dont talk about my relationship with my mom

35: Favorite holiday: HALLOWEEN HALLOWEEN

36: Tattoos and piercing i have: no

37: Tattoos and piercing i want: deathly hallows symbol on my leg. maybe lyrics from porcelain.

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: idk

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: nah i love @lexaarosee

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: yes my boyfriend is an angel

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: yes

42: When did I last hold hands?: a week ago

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: like 10 minutes

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: yes

45: Where am I right now?: home

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: prolly momrick

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: loud loud loud

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: yes

49: Am I excited for anything?: seeing my boyfriend tomorrow

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: yes

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: too often

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: yesterday

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i would cry

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: nope

55: What is something I disliked about today?: i was incredibly anxious all day

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: @natejeevas

57: What do I think about most?: @lyudin

58: What’s my strangest talent?: hmm… i beat spyro in under 24 hours

59: Do I have any strange phobias?: nah

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?: i dont really care

61: What was the last lie I told?: “today was fine”

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?: video chatting

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: yes and yes

64: Do I believe in magic: nah

65: Do I believe in luck?: yeah

66: What’s the weather like right now?: cloudy i think idk its dark

67: What was the last book I’ve read?: percy jackson

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: ye

69: Do I have any nicknames?: dani

70: What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?: pinecone

71: Do I spend money or save it?: spend

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?: no

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?: yes

74: Favorite animal?: all of them

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?: sleeping i think

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is?: farrell

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?: cross my heart

78: How can you win my heart?: be @lyudin

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?: “i miss glenn rhee”

80: What is my favorite word?: im not sure

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: fuck idk

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?: prolly nothing cause im anxious as fuck

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: not as far as i know

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: invisibility

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on?: i don’t know

86: What is my current desktop picture?: glenn rhee

87: Had sex?: nah

88: Bought condoms?: nah

89: Gotten pregnant?: nah

90: Failed a class?: nah

91: Kissed a boy?: yeah

92: Kissed a girl?: nah

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?: :yeah

94: Had job?: yeah

95: Left the house without my wallet?: yeah

96: Bullied someone on the internet?: yeah but they’re scum so i mean

97: Had sex in public?: no

98: Played on a sports team?: yes

99: Smoked weed?: no

100: Did drugs?: no

101: Smoked cigarettes?: no

102: Drank alcohol?: yes

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?: no

104: Been overweight?: no

105: Been underweight?: yes

106: Been to a wedding?: yes

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?: yes

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?: yes

109: Been outside my home country?: yes

110: Gotten my heart broken?: yes

111: Been to a professional sports game?: yes

112: Broken a bone?: no

113: Cut myself?: ye on a pinecone of all things

114: Been to prom?: yes

115: Been in airplane?: yes

116: Fly by helicopter?: no

117: What concerts have I been to?: fob, marianas trench, panic!, 3 doors down, blink 182/all time low

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?: yes

119: Learned another language?: a little

120: Wore make up?: yes

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?: no

122: Had oral sex?: yes

123: Dyed my hair?: no

124: Voted in a presidential election?: no

125: Rode in an ambulance?: no

126: Had a surgery?: yes

127: Met someone famous?: yes

128: Stalked someone on a social network?: no

129: Peed outside?: yes

130: Been fishing?: yes

131: Helped with charity?:yes

132: Been rejected by a crush?: yes

133: Broken a mirror?: no

134: What do I want for birthday?: death note stuff?

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Let’s play, “was I abused” game! Reblog and bold the things your parents have done to you! Italicize if you’re not sure. (copy paste it all and then bold)

Physical abuse

parent slapped me to prove their point/teach me a lesson

parent spanked me as a “punishment” saying it was for my own good

parent pulled on my hair to force me to move

parent threw things at me while angry, things heavy enough to hurt me

parent trapped me into a room/corner so I couldn’t escape them

parent hit me when I wouldn’t obey them/tried to confront them

parent used a twig/stick/belt to lash at my body

parent grabbed me to force me to pay attention to them

parent pinned me down and physically prevented me from escaping

parent brought me into situations where I feared for my life

parent made it painfully obvious for me that I’ll obey them or suffer injuries

parent threatened to beat me if I wouldn’t do as they say

parent forcefully fed me something I refused to eat

parent made an attempt at strangling/drowning/burning me

parent banged my head/body into the wall/furniture

parent forced me into sexual activities

Emotional abuse

parent called me derogatory names and slurs more than once

parent said my name mostly with hatred and scorn in their voice

parent degraded and humiliated me in front of others for fun

parent insulted and devalued something really important to me

parent deprived me of something that meant the world to me

parent yelled and swore at me in anger more than once

parent blamed me for things that were out of my control/not my fault

parent shamed me for my physical appearance

parent guilt-tripped me for not pleasing them well enough

parent regarded me as a burden, and shamed me for needing them at all

parent insisted I couldn’t take a joke after I got hurt from their insults

parent never comforted me/got angry if I reached for comfort

parent punished me for crying/showing fear/showing trauma symptoms

parent humiliated me for showing excitement and happiness

parent subtly let me know that my feelings and my problems don’t matter

parent got angry at me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent blamed me for feeling depressed/angry/tired/suicidal

parent compared me to cousins/other children to prove how I’m the worst

parent decided for me how I feel when it was convenient for them

parent told me that I was crazy/delusional/need to be locked away

parent threatened me with kicking me out/sending away if I don’t change

parent refused to accept my sexuality/tried to force it to change

parent required for me to act normal to protect family’s reputation

parent isolated me from family activities they all enjoy

parent assured me that nobody will ever want me

parent insisted that I was lucky and that I could have had it much worse

parent made me responsible for their well being and made me the caretaker

parent insisted that their harmful acts were all made “out of love”

parent demanded me to be available for their requests at any time

parent punished me for trying to establish boundaries

parent destroyed my belongings as a revenge

parent made inappropriate sex jokes and comments in my presence

parent denied doing any of this and insists that all the blame is on me

Psychological Abuse

parent kept pointing out my flaws as proofs that I wont achieve anything

parent called me stupid, incompetent, ignorant, while withholding information that I needed to know in order to complete tasks

parent would change their side of the agreement in crucial moment and then pretend it was obvious from the start

parent stalked me/distrusted me without any reason/invaded my privacy

parent attacked my insecurities and vulnerabilities in any argument

parent forced me into degrading actions while they watched me do it

parent threatened to leave me

parent accused me regularly of behaving the way they did

parent never acknowledged, praised or approved of my actions

parent always demanded they are right without any proof/explanation

parent insisted that they’re a great parent using financial support as proof

parent insisted that I should be grateful for how good they are to me

parent gaslighted me and tried to make me believe my memories weren’t real if I confronted them with what they did

Neglect

parent didn’t notice I haven’t been eating properly

parent didn’t notice I was sick/didn’t care for me while I was sick

parent didn’t notice I was injured

parent didn’t notice I didn’t have clothes/shoes I needed for school

parent didn’t notice I suffered from trauma

parent didn’t notice I was anxious and stressed

parent didn’t notice I was depressed

parent didn’t notice I was cutting myself

parent didn’t notice I was suicidal

parent didn’t notice I was being sexually abused

parent didn’t notice I was being bullied

parent failed to get me medical attention when it was needed

parent failed to teach me the very basics of self care

parent didn’t seem to notice any of my needs and feelings except the absolute minimum I required to survive

when I notified them of these things, they denied it, accused me of lying, decided it wasn’t happening and/or blamed me for it

Financial Abuse

parent made me feel ashamed for needing money

parent made me feel like I’m a financial burden to them

parent only gave me minimal money to survive

parent made sure I never have a decent amount of money on me

parent took the money I earned from me

parent used the money to blackmail me (if you continue this way let’s see who will pay for your bus ticket!)

parent insisted since they “pay for my stuff” they have the right to control my behaviour and actions

parent had enough money for luxury but kept me without anything

parent refused to get my medicine/get me medical attention because it’s too expensive while they got everything for themselves

parent would keep me anxious over if they would pay my expenses or not

parent would make me do as much work for them as possible before they would pay for a necessity

parent kept me in the dark over family finances even when I was of age

parent would make sure I never have enough money to escape them

If you bold more than 5 things, you have been through abuse. For some particular ones, even one true thing on this list means you’ve been badly harmed by your parents. Also this list is not complete, there are many more abusive behaviours not listed here, feel free to add!