Wholesome Dream in the making with Mackie

28M influenced by games, music, skating, and I spiral like a lot. I'm shy, socially stunted, mostly vanilla but easily feral, and I crave affection so I'm easy as hell 😊 . I'll answer ask ASAP 💙

[mackieoftheveil]

This is long overdue but hi I go by Mackie and this blog is pretty much me. You'll see spiraling, games and TV I'm watching, feralness, maybe fashion, dieting, my ever approach state on relationships. I yap alot overshare and overthink alot. I'm both okay and not okay it's paradoxical. I'm a jack of all trades alot of things interest me and I struggle with fully identifying things. And I have a tendency to remember more details and them. I'm like a unfinished painting I might be a masterpiece or even trash in some eyes and the color, strokes, and motion enhances it.

[quixoticnightmare]

does my deteriorating mental state turn you on

[thoughtkick]

“Getting over it doesn’t mean forgetting it. It just means reducing the pain to a tolerable level, a level that doesn’t destroy you.”

— Kevin Brooks

[softbratxoxoxo]

All my mutuals are hot. Reblog to tell your mutuals they are hot.

[mackieoftheveil]

WAY OVERDUE

So I redid my resume from the top up and oh my god I do not miss it. I put some things in a proofread website if something felt off lol. I need a car, I need more hours, and I need to fix alot but make sure I keep my sanity. As tempting as going back on campus sound I think I might do 2 classes and have them online regardless I need to see an advisor on getting my rubric down. Oh yea I plan on doing content again.

[mackieoftheveil]

Payment went through and I felt worse because I missed out on holiday because I couldn't get out of bed the entire day. Need to go full time and juggle my classes down the line. I'm changing majors from computer science and finishing my associates

[mackieoftheveil]

Ngl if my body was sculpted how I wanted I would definitely be selling myself for times like this. Dominant sugar mommy where you at 😭😭😭 wait why did that excite me ayo

[mackieoftheveil]

I've never been so broke in my life I've been having to transfer from my savings to avoid overdrafts :(

[drbatsponge]

We fucking won.

ABSOLUTE CASSANDRA CAIN ONE-SHOT!!!11!!

Full art of Absolute Cass:

[mackieoftheveil]

I'm wearing ankle socks and I said "My ankles feel exposed I'm a whore" lol like huhhhh

[thememedaddy]

[mackieoftheveil]

1000 posts!

Apparently I did this 30 days ago. Please praise me for noticing 😊😊😁😁😁

[capricornluna-deactivated201810]

this blog hates donald trump

[pearlmarley]

Look how many people hate him. I’m pretty damn happy about that 😁😁😁😁😁😁

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Time passing isn’t an apology. (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[augoustinos]

reblog this if you wanna have sex or eat chicken nuggets

[mackieoftheveil]

So I'm still up and I honestly can't get past a few days without resetting. It's like I can't control myself 😥😥. I'm honestly might call the number to see if I can get an appointment sooner because if can't go a week without doing I-..... I'm eating only fruits and not using certain things this week. I ate again and I want to go back it's like an urge. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'll do better. I really need a hug :'(. I really just want someone tell me something sweet I don't even care if they're lying. I just want some encouragement and if I didn't have a video playing I will be bawling my eyes out. I NEED to go out....why is happiness so far. Can I go one day being happy the entire day :'( why can't I cope in another way why am I so self destructive

[mackieoftheveil]

I'm awful at friendships and feel bad that I keep some just for certain games or activities. My core friends I want to do alot with but I still don't want them for everything I'll feel bad. I'm gonna sleep now before I overthink. Might say hey to a mutual when I wake up