mad astral

notes from inside the spiral // free card pulls in 'ask an oracle'

[madastral]

hi white people

your weekly reading & more, below the cut.

Spiralwalker is a weekly newsletter, published here & on Substack, for weird people who want to live a more free life. I talk about healing and spirituality and what it means to be human beyond empire.

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The truth, along with a whole lot of distortion, propaganda, and misinformation continues to emerge. As promised, it's not getting easier, just weirder.

If you are white, now is the time to begin learning about and examining whiteness. Whiteness is a social construct that was created to justify and support the colonization of the People of Global Majority.

Whiteness is not the color of your skin; it is the internalized beliefs and structures that you carry within, and the network of people who carry this within them supports societies and cultures that create the world we live in.

What Epstein and the people connected to him did is not new. It happened during chattel slavery and the Indigenous genocide–all kinds of white people did depraved things to Black and Indigenous people.

Those behaviors are encoded in our bodies, passed down through time. It lives in you now as privilege, as bias, as the very ignorance of the realities of whiteness (or even the existence of it).

You do not have to do this alone. 

My peer Keellia & I are facilitating a bi monthly white caucus, a space for white people to come together to discuss issues surrounding deconstructing whiteness–a place to learn, unlearn, and process what comes up along the way.

White people need to learn to take up less space in the collective but we need to have spaces to exhume these internalized beliefs, if we want to be better members of humanity.

The Uncomfy Lunch Group meets every other Tuesday, beginning February 17th from 1:15-2:30 PM Eastern time. 

Meetings are live and will not be recorded. $10-25 per meeting, payable via Venmo to @keellia-guevara who will pass donations to the selected mutual aid fund. 

If you are interested, you can email [email protected].

I hope to see you there.

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a message for spiralwalkers:

10 of swords - the hermit - apprentice (page) of pentacles

Isolation in your mental overwhelm and despair makes sense but is not necessarily the path forward. Taking time to be with yourself and what is, quiet contemplation where you can face your shadow is all well and good but what is important now is what comes from it. 

We are on the precipice of a new world and as much as we need to make space for grief we need to lean into action. This doesn’t have to mean the biggest, most obvious actions, but you must act on your new knowledge in some way. This helps you embody and transmute the knowledge to wisdom. Small steps toward anchoring a new way is all that is needed. It’s too foggy for anything other than what you are sure of. 

When you have been as indoctrinated and propagandized as we all have been in the Western world learning what you don’t know (or know incorrectly), contextualizing that knowledge, and examining how systems live in you (aka how you perpetuate them), is action. 

It’s a good place to start.

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[thequotespot]

“Choosing myself didn’t make me lonely. It made me honest.”

[waitingforthesunrise]

and very, very often, self care is not plants and ice rollers and fluffy blankets of peace.

it’s standing over your kitchen sink and crying while doing the dishes because you just want to go back to bed but the dishes need done. and you don’t know why you’re crying but you're trusting you need it. and you aren’t listening to the music that pulls you into a spiral; you’re listening to some cheerful shit your friend sent you. it’s getting up and staring at your fridge and closing your eyes and then cooking yourself food even though you hate it and it’s miserable. because you know that you’d cook for your friend, and you are trying to befriend yourself. it’s dragging yourself into the shower because you know you’ll feel better afterwards. it’s doing mundane tasks with patience, cursing under your breath, trying desperately to give yourself grace. grace is the beginning of care. care is the beginning of love.

we think it’s supposed to be peace and yet the most powerful self care moments are when we hate everything but especially ourselves. and life does not feel worth the loving. to look into that pain and yet choose to care for yourself in however many pieces you are — that is care. love. grace. trust. belief. it hurts because it’s love where there was no love before. it heals because it believes there will be love, one day, soon.

[madastral]

your 2026 pac

happy new year, I made a pick a card for you

for your message, pick your pile and head below the cut

snail - 8th house - knight of cups

Your year doesn’t demand moving quickly; it asks you to move at the speed of your own heart, your own desires, while keeping your protections about you. With the 8th House card here, there will be loss, but with this loss is the promise of transformation, if you are brave enough to allow yourself to change. The temptation is to procrastinate the hard work with daydreaming—knowing when to move from dreaming to real work action is half the battle, and its okay if you don’t get it right on the first dozen tries.

mugwort - 10th house - 4 of cups

Your intuition is calling this year. Mugwort is inviting you deeper into relationship with the spirit world by way of being guided. Your dreams, both the ones you have when you’re sleeping and also the small whispers of your deepest desires will guide you along the way. With the 4 of cups the energy may feel a little stale, a little dull, but if you look carefully you will find the cup the universe is trying to hand you. Let your legacy beckon you from the future and learn to listen for the message from it. Meditation, gazing upon the mugwort smoke or working with the plant in some way will prove worth the effort.

environment - 11th house - ace of wands

Your environment wants your energy, and not in a negative way. Your space, whether that is your dwelling, your neighborhood, your local park, or somewhere else wants to be in relationship with you. There is a new hope, a new aspiration, a new dream to be had when you open yourself to this connection. Clear your space and build an altar to encourage the energy of come through. There is a new community waiting for you this year but you will need to be brave enough to explore and be vulnerable with others.

[madastral]

a full moon in cancer reading + this week's newsletter

the newsletter this week includes your full moon reading, some thoughts on the astrology of the new year and a tarot spread to work with the energy.

I'd love if you checked it out

[madastral]

the deepest, darkest part + your week ahead reading

In the dark we don’t see, we feel. When we feel and integrate the wisdom of the dark we heal, we grow, and we transform.

get the reading for your week ahead & read more here.

[frenchwitchdiary]

Meme templates X tarot

[madastral]

gemini full moon reading + what do we owe relationships we are outgrowing

this week's edition of spiralwalker explores what we owe in relationships when we don't want to be in them anymore, along with a collective read for the full moon in gemini. check it out here!

[madastral]

do less and be free + your week ahead reading

Your reading/this week's newsletter is here.

This week the newsletter is all about accepting your capacity:

Spiralwalking is about reconnection to your body and the remembrance that you are a human animal, that you are not a machine, you are not something to be hacked or tweaked or expected to produce and accomplish outside of our natural cycles. 

I don’t think that constant achievement is the intent of the human experience…There is an inherent freedom in being able to reject the outside messaging around what you should and should want to do. 

Read more & subscribe for more radical healing content at my substack.

[madastral]

saturday night pac for the lonely lovergirls

its saturday night and the capricorn moon is applying to venus. what message does she have for you? pick your pile and jump below the cut.

gummy candy 

gardens of bones - third quarter moon - 8 of swords

Break up energy. Let yourself be in this space with eyes wide open; denying the truth won’t serve you, even if it's hard to stomach. Observe the space around you and observe what happens in it. Watching quietly allows you to learn the ins and outs you need to build a new way. If it feels like movement, lean into the grief.

pendant

rhapsody in shadows - aquarius - the devil

How do your desires drive you? Chasing after what you think you want–the love you feel you need–can be a heady distraction from the journey within. Do you need a break from the thrill of the chase? Maybe a quiet night within holds the new perspective you seek. You have so much to offer and the right person can hold all of you. Don’t let your hunger for love lead you to settle for less than what will fully satisfy you.

pills

black silk armor - libra - 5 of wands

No is a full sentence, a saturn devotion, a sword cutting through confusion, and the way to protect your heart. What do you need to say no to? When something causes you pain, anger, or frustration, it can be a signal that there needs to be a boundary there. When a situation feels confusing in a way that is upsetting it is worth it to see if there is something that is too close, has too much access to you, and is clouding your vision. Sometimes the space is needed not because the day to day is off, but because the overall vision is cloudy and painful. Saying no can lead to loss and this can create fear, but you don’t need to fear standing up for yourself, even if you risk being alone.

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for more personalized guidance, my asks are open.

[madastral]

mercury rx quickie

having fun this mercury retrograde? whatever has been on your mind, looping through your thoughts, is a pattern waiting to be broken. replaying the footage is tiring and uncomfortable but studying the play is how you learn the places to shift. stay with it.

check out my substack for more readings & healing content.

for more personalized guidance, my asks are open.

[madastral]

unmasking beyond empire

Have you peeled back the layers of the conditioning of our society to discover your true desires?

Reckoning with your place in the web of oppression and the ways you participate in harm is a grieving process…It's difficult to face the reality of how much of what you think of as “who you are” is shaped and manipulated by outside systems of belief and outside forces that are nefarious.

The newsletter this week is all about extracting yourself from empire using the framework for unmasking developed by Devon Price.

To read more, and to get the reading for the pictured cards, head to my substack. I post a free collective reading with every newsletter. They drop on Mondays.

Thanks for reading! If you need personalized guidance, my asks are open.

[madastral]

what time is it on your cosmic clock?

In this week’s newsletter about fractal astrology, I broke down some of the transformative energy we have been experiencing as a collective and how to work with it in your individual fractal to help you live a more free and authentic life and help you see how you fit in with collective liberation. If you’re interested, you can read more here.

This reading helps you discern what this time and the dance of uranus, neptune, pluto, and saturn is offering you. In other words, what time is it on your cosmic clock? What new, more free, reality is calling you?

I invite you to take a breath, choose your pile, and head below the cut for your reading.

Spiral Shell

gateway - first house - 10 of cups

You are the one who holds the key but you must lose it in order to use it. When you’re stuck in a room with no windows or doors the only way out is in; you must spend time with yourself, just you, in order to see clearly what you need to know. When we refuse to see we are at a fork in the road we are unable to move forward until we choose a path–continuing on as it has been is not an option. When we refuse to see change must happen we are unable to explore what is and what could be. We cannot dream anything new for ourselves. We become shaped by our external world, often in ways we do not want. What do you wish for? What would happiness and contentment be to you? Who would it be? It's time for you to walk the labyrinth of going within to discover what you truly desire…moving toward these desires is how you figure out who you truly are. It's not the easiest path, but it is safe, and it is time.

Dead Leaves

snail - scorpio - the magician

Slow down, don’t follow every impulse (be curious), and use protection. You are a powerful being and your path has something very important down the line; the ask now is total transformation. You have everything you need within you to shed the patterns, beliefs, and behaviors that keep you stuck and small. This doesn’t mean you won’t need guidance, or to learn something new, or to practice–it simply means that if you put effort towards this goal you will succeed. Whatever journey you are on, or have been circling around the start, is exactly where you should be. The path changes and shifts as you walk it and that is how it's supposed to be; it's safe to change yourself and it's safe to change your mind. Protect and fortify yourself and your home, in magical and mundane ways. Sprinkle salt in the corners and also set boundaries with those who don’t support you wholeheartedly. You have a fierceness about you and the more you lean into this, the faster transformation happens.

Pills

snake - cancer - 8 of cups

Don’t let your fear overwhelm you. Ask the fear what they’re afraid of and then care for the fear like you would a small child. The time has come to cut the cord, feel the grief, and end the cycle. You aren’t getting what you need and whether there is a long pattern of it or its the beginning but you can see it for what it is, it's time to walk away. It's probably not all bad and that is a piece of why it can be so difficult, but you never get to the abundance and fulfillment you are due if you don’t move on and forward. You could stay here forever but you’ll always know there was a possibility of something more. Shedding skin leaves tender scales but you’ll only have to be gentle for a while, sooner than you think, this moment and all its heaviness will feel like a distant past. Your heart will swell with gratitude and love for the version of you now, who ate your fear, took your leave, and didn’t look back.

[madastral]

fractal astrology: transform yourself to transform the world

some excerpts from this week's newsletter:

"Uranus and Neptune together being breakthroughs in the worldview of the collective and what seems possible for humanity. On an individual fractal level, this brings breakthroughs and new possibilities for how you fit into the collective."

"We are in a time of great change but we are not powerless. Our power just looks different from what we are conditioned to believe power looks like. Knowing our invitation within our individual fractal is an anchor for this time."

more at my substack!

[madastral]

mercury retrograde pick a card

ready for another one?

Mercury goes retrograde Sunday, November 9 at 2:02 PM eastern time at 6 degrees of Sagittarius and remains in retrograde motion until November 29 at 12:38 PM. Mercury retrograde, overall, is about reviewing, reassessing, and revisiting different areas of our lives with the goal of finding out what is and isn’t working. Typically, this is a great time to revisit projects you’ve started, especially writing projects. This specific retrograde features a conjunction with Mars on November 12, so be aware of sharp communication or mental struggles around that time. The cazimi that comes with the Scorpio new moon on November 20th will be enlightening, especially with it creating an emotional grand water trine.

Sounds fun, right?

Pick your pile and head below the cut for your guidance for this retrograde period.

gold key

twilight debutante - waning crescent - 10 of cups

This Mercury retrograde you are being asked to listen closely to the messages you are being given. It is likely there is a change of course on the other side of this retrograde and being discerning with the reflection you are doing will help you figure out which direction to take. The retrograde period itself there is nothing that needs to be done–resting while you let the information sink into your mind is enough for now. You can let what feels good, feel good. The time for change will come and you will be prepared.

silver key

floating in the storm - saturn - king of swords

This Mercury retrograde you are being asked to slow down, let go, and simply observe and reflect upon what is going on around and within you. With the Saturn card here there is an element of intentional, focused work with this. Perhaps its journaling, voice memoing, or some other form of expression and reflection. Maybe it's just taking long walks or spending time with your favorite outdoor space. Whatever the process is for you, engage it. The King of Swords, from this deck specifically, cautions about sharing too many of these reflections with others. Sometimes we need outside perspective, but sometimes that is distracting.

Thanks for reading! I hope this was helpful. For guidance specific to you, hit my ask box. <3

[madastral]

Coregulation is the process of achieving a state of calm in relationship with another nervous system. We do that with other humans, we do that with our pets, and we do that with nature. We do that with the land, with the trees, with the grasses, with the winds. And the more you spend time in this coregulation with nature, the more you open yourself to be in a state of healing.

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[madastral]

It's important, especially for white people, to develop some sort of connection to some sort of land. Through colonization and through the way empire has taken over the Western world, most of the world, especially the white Western world, which is where I'm speaking from, have been disconnected from land. We are all indigenous to somewhere, back through our ancestral lines, and most people don't know where.

There's a loss. Even if it's not something that's conscious or acute, it is something that hurts. 

So it is important to reconnect.

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