My Heart Hurts And I Want A BJ

The Original Mad Man.

[madsushiman]

It’s not I don’t want to ask for help, it’s just every time I’ve ever asked for help, I’ve communicated how I felt I’ve always been told by those I love I need to change who I am and so I did. So what’s the point in asking for help, I already know the painful truth. I’m not enough and I need to change who I am.

#love #truth #real

[madsushiman]

Wishes

I met you, I was good but then I don’t know what happened. I got lost, life broke me, you’re back and I’m still putting the pieces back together. I’m so scared you won’t stay, I feel so broken, I’m not fucken weak, I just need to know it’s safe to breathe..

[madsushiman]

I wish I knew how to tell you I need to hold you because I’m having a terrible mental day, without feeling like I’m less.

[dazeylo]

You cannot pour from an empty cup. When you give yourself love first, you create an abundant source of energy that flows naturally into everything you do and everyone you meet.

[madsushiman]

See I’m afraid. What if when I let you into my head you meet someone you wish you never met..

-mind of a mad man

[silent-insanities]

My heart refuses to let you go.

[madsushiman]

lol

[madsushiman]

cumsloot

[madsushiman]

Enough

I wish I knew how to keep your interest, instead of feeling like I lose it everytime I speak.

[madsushiman]

Wishes

I met you, I was good but then I don’t know what happened. I got lost, life broke me, you’re back and I’m still putting the pieces back together. I’m so scared you won’t stay, I feel so broken, I’m not fucken weak, I just need to know it’s safe to breathe..

[madsushiman]

alone

[madsushiman]

My brain and my heart isnt the same. I dont fucken care, just come back. I'll take the scars. I'll take it all.

I miss you, can we talk?

Please.

-Mind Of A Mad Man

[madsushiman]

I know Im fucked up, Im working on me.. Yes okay, little toxic, Alright very toxic. Did you have to run away so fast that the dust got me stuck in a haze? Not blaming you for the pain, I respect that you want to leave but that doesnt mean Im not hurting..

[madsushiman]

Maybe.

Do you ever just wonder, maybe If I was better the ones who left wouldve stayed? Like maybe losing me would seem like the worst thing imaginable like It is for me when I think of them. Like maybe If I was better, things would have been different... Or like maybe if I dont get better, and I stop being around maybe this loneliness would end with me. Do you feel alone when your eyes are closed? No right? Maybe we should keep them closed. Maybe.

Mind Of A Mad Man

[madsushiman]

What happened.

For a long time I have felt alone, internally. Like my heart was just by itself. When I met you it didn't feel like that anymore, It was almost like I've been holding my breathe and I finally let the air out.

I felt comfortable around you, like I could be me. Maybe I never felt accepted, or never accepted myself completely so I kept holding back, or embellishing because I didnt want to lose you, didnt want to lose the one person I finally feel connected with.. Then that fear took over and I kept worrying about that instead of enjoying our company. I forced myself to forget all that which drove me to you in the first place and replaced it with fear. - Mind Of a Mad Man

[madsushiman]

How much of me has to die before you come back? Take it all, destroy me. I don't know how to protect myself when it comes to you. Kill me, and ill come back asking for an opportunity to love you.

[madsushiman]

I cant see anymore, the waters dropping its all blurry.