- so much bigger than anyone. Having faith shows that you’re stronger than you think ! Take your time to assimilate what happened cry if it make you feel better, right now you have to think about you, don’t let this ruin the person you are, don’t let this bring you down. Because you’re an adorable person and I bet you’re very smart too, but sometimes we’re not successful and it hurts so bad we think that we’re never feel better, but we do. It just take time💗
Oh, I did cry. It only resolved into my eyes looking like a FROG! I swear to god, I just got to ribbet and bam...frog.
And I won’t let it bring me down. I just won’t. I know what I did. I didn’t try hard enough. I just left it to solve itself... for some odd reason I believed that it would but I guess even the smallest of things had to be fough for.
And I am down. I think I will be for a while and I know I’ll bounce back up one day but not today. Or tomorrow. But one day, probably...
I won’t stop writing. That’s a promise I always keep. You knw I started this story and I don’t know why because I have another one to finish but I’m thinking of rewriting that one completely, just leaving the epilogue. But this is something new and it kind of reminds me of Catcher in the Rye. It’s not like it, just reminds me of it. I keep wanting to write it but like I’m saying reality keeps coming in the way and I have to do these other stuff to gurantee me stuff in the material world.
Wow...my mom just called me and it was so hard to not cry but I think she realized I did. God, this shit hurts so much.
Anyways, as I was saying I know am adorable but that doesn’t really matter. And being smart but not smart in chemistry and german matters because appereantly, that will bring me education when all in all I am already more educated than I should be. I would say I regret the day I walked in this ugly green school because it put me through shit but if I didn’t then I wouldn’t have met the people I did and I wouldn’t have been this person I am today. And I think that is the only reason I am still fightng for this school. Becasue yeah, teachers are shit when they are old, petty and bitter for teaching students that do not reach their standards and students who can’t pay the school bill in time because they don’t have the money. Yeah, teachers pick on us- I’d say that a lot teachers pick on my name just because they know how many times I corrected them because it was insulting to me and they know it.
Not all teachers are like that but most them just make me want to fire them out of a canon.
And I am staying positive and thankful that my german teacher is so goddamn kind for her to give me more chances that I deserve.
This literally feels like a confession like what? But thank you for taking the time for me and to be here when I needed someone to talk to.
Thank you <3 I swear to god I won’t forget you.