Anorexia Recovery

Female/14 and half lol/recovering anorexic No pro ana posts, just support ^_^

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it’s me, after one year of recovery, time  has passed and i’m much better now! but to all that are struggling now::::::::::

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pathetic.

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pathetic.

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Meh

Today at home, but coming back to hospital tomorrow. Honestly, i'm fine here but I can't wait to come back to hospital.. :( because i have big fear of food here and i feel that my depression is getting worse

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James Arthur - Recovery

Music video by James Arthur performing Recovery. (C) 2013 Simco Limited

love this one

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ATTACK ATTACK

went out with mom yesterday, but came back to hospital cuz i just had 'few hours off'. aaanyway got serious panic attack cuz of seeing her, talking to her, then about afternoon snack, i just couldn't decide what to eat then paniced and cried, yelled...so pretty pissed off cuz of my uncontroled behaviour.. :( after that came back here and just stared at celling few hours. shitty day. i'll go to my therapis after lunch, cuz she is working afternoon shift and hope she'll might help me. stay strong anyway guys

[maggielolnorthman]

Spending time hospitalized. Too boring but who cares, i am depressed anyway. (And i workout secretly in my bedroom)

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Hospital

Well it is scary here and stuff, i mean, food, other people, no family..but it is for my good. I felt little depressed yesterday so i was in my room all the time (they let me), and no one saw me workout and walking in my room till my feet started to hurt.

I know it's no good but i can't make myself stay calm.

Food fine and tasty and I manage to eat everything.

Friends..well finally one rich girl who was really mean left yesterday so now is good. I am now only anorexic in hospital (others are bulimic; depressed; anxious..etc) and i am the skinniest and really sick happy about it.

Anyway, came here to recover and i'll now i am good when i eat a cake and have no need for walk or workout. Guiltless eating. I would DIE for it

I gtg, we are going on breakfast.

Stay strong you guys!

Love

[maggielolnorthman]

Got hospitalized today. Seems good. Cried alot, cuz of people and food, but i am kinda good now. I'm fine. I came here to recover, i am going to be alright. Fuck you Anorexia Nervosa!

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TODAY getting hospitalized (don’t know what to think, i’m nervous) >_> Had pretty nice day yesterday B: dog+100g low fat cheese+ cup of yogurt+2 whole wheat toasts S: muller rice with chocolate ^_^ L: 100g minced meat+2 whole wheat toasts+100g beet salad+150g potato mash S: cherry pie 80g+cup of chocolate milk D: 100g polenta with 100g low fat cheese+cup of yogurt S: cup of milk+6 cookies (33 kcal each)

[maggielolnorthman]

2 days till getting hospitalized. Mom and I decided. It would be better and easier for both of us. I am kinda scared. :( Todays intake, hospital meal plan (1800kcal) B: 50g ham+2 whole wheat toasts+60g cream cheese+cup of yogurt S: baby food 200g L: 100g chicken breasts+200g carrot+100g beet salad+ 2 whole wheat toasts S: 80g cake+cup of chocolate milk D: 150g whole wheat mac and cheese (made with low fat cheese)+cup of yogurt S: cup of milk+6 cookies (33kcal each)

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Lol

It's funny when i search "pro ana" just to see how stupid i was, waching those pics which led me to my anorexia, and realise that i am now much thinner then girls on photos, who were "wow so perfectly" skinny.

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3 days left for gaining Hospital meal plan, 1800kcal Feeling like fat pig, worse then ever B: 100g low fat cheese+2 whole wheat toasts+cup of yogurt S: 200g pudding L: (haven't pictured) 200g yellow peas+100g chicken breasts+2 whole wheat toasts+100g beet salad S: 80g cake+glass of juice D: 150g cornbread made with some low fat cheese+cup of yogurt S: cup of milk+6 cookies (33 kcal each) I was hungry all day long, i guess it's hyper metabolism >_> I had tough head ache all day, and was so depressed. I wish things were much different. Packing my bags just in case if i stay inpatient on Wednesday. Really scared, don't know what to expect. Stay strong you guys.

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Hospital meal plan, again (1800kcal) I am GETTING SICK OF IT. I hate this kind of recovery i feel guilty and bad and it’s so hard. :( B: 50g (half of can) tuna+100g low fat cheese+cup of yogurt+2 whole wheat toasts S: minced cookies and milk L: 2 meatballs with 100g brown rice+2 whole wheat toasts+100g beet salad S: poppy seed strudel (it was too sweet and i got sick after 2 bites, so i left it and had one gummy bear-not good replacement but idc)+glass of pear juice D: 100g chicken breasts+200g cauliflower+2 slices whole wheat toasts+cup of yogurt S: cup of milk+4 biscuits (63 kcal each)

Bloated as hell, i feel like I’m pregnant. Taking meds for it. I am sleepy now, but feel to guilty after night snack to go to bed. Tomorrow i’m packing suitcase for hospital, but not sure am i going to stay (it depends) Stay strong guys. It’s hard, but i’ll do my best.

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Another day following hospital meal plan (1800 kcal) B: 2tbsp honey+20g margarine+cup of milk+2 whole wheat toast (didn’t ate all, it was just TOO SWEET) S: 200g semolina pudding L: 150g baked fish+150g boiled potatoes+100 beet salad+2 slices whole wheat toast S: 80g cake+cup of chocolate milk (i was in panic, so i didn’t ate or drunk all) D: 150g gibanica (pie with cheese)+cup of yogurt S: 2 digestives+cup of milk It was so hard today, i was so depressed, and didn’t follow meal plan exactly so i am disappointed.. I am bad, and that’s too bad, because i only have left 4 days till check up. Plus, I don’t think that 1800kcal meal plan is enough to gain. But we will see on Wednesday. Stay strong. Hope that tomorrow will be better.