Chaos Reigns

A intergalactic interdementional wizard cat god who is in a shambled state of panic and decay :)

[magicspiritmoon]

What if every time you randomly feel sad for no discernible reason, it’s because you died in another dimension

[magicspiritmoon]

So I’ve had a crush on this one boy for like six years. Recently though, I’ve met a new boy online and now I really like him. So much so that I’ve lost feelings for my old crush like 2 days after knowing him. We kinda bonded instantly over weaponry. He lives like 30 minutes away from me. I wanna meet up (socially distanced of course and I’m gonna be fully vaccinated by Saturday so it’ll be safer anyway) but idk how to breach the topic without making it weird or awkward.

Ahhhhh idk what to do and I rlly like himmmm

And Ik he’s like a legit real person bc he has his own little twitch livestream thing and insta and stuff.

So what do I dooooo

[magicspiritmoon]

*Me resting peacefully*

My mother: *barges in, turning on the lights and demanding I do the homework I already did*

Me: I have a headache

Mother: Take a shower then that’ll help

Me: Y’know what would also help?

SILENCE

[magicspiritmoon]

Reasons why I am a train wreck Part 2

So today I got home and I noticed a very big tear in my pants right around the ass/ between the legs area...

SO I HAVE BEEN WALKING AROUND SCHOOL AND UP THE STAIR WITH PEOPLE BEHIND ME WITH A HUGE TEAR NEAR THE ASS AND NO ONE BOTHERED TO FUCKING TELL ME.

ALL. DAY.

I’m going to die

Of

Embarrassment

Is I’m that possible bc it feels very possible.

😖🤡🤦🏼‍♀️

[magicspiritmoon]

Well I just stayed up till 6 am binge watching my show

AND NOW I HAVE NO MORE SEASONS LEFT TO WATCH

*insert shrieks of fury*

[magicspiritmoon]

So on this other app I’m on, Whisper, I made my user name Moonmoon. Until someone told me I had no idea that moonmoon is also apparently a wolf meme from 2013 tumblr. O-O

[magicspiritmoon]

When your best friend who you’re on rocky terms with posts something on TikTok about dropping her “toxic friends” even though she was part of the problem 🥲

[magicspiritmoon]

No one:

Me *while wrapped up like a burrito in my blanket*: We are trapped in a time that does not want us. As society begins to fall and as the people become more depraved and manic. And the remainder of this Earth shall crumble to dust.

My mother: Honey are you okay??

Me *evil laughter*: Yes, can you make cookies pwease?

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Reasons I am a Trainwreck - Part 1

So I was reading back my diary (specifically the parts where I interacted with my crush) and it literally makes me sound like a maniac.

It bounced back daily from “oh my god he hates me and I need to distance myself so I don’t get hurt” to “he smiled at me and that human is who I want to marry”

Part of the many reasons I hate myself is because I’m so fucking cringey. Like I was pretty upset bc I told him I liked him and he (VERY nicely, like honestly so sweetly) turned me down. He gives off some signs on occasion he may like me (but honestly I think anyone who is remotely nice to me likes me so..) but then he won’t speak to me for days. So one day I was like “Alright Imma just distance myself cause I know he doesn’t like me and I’m too in love with him to just have him pop in and out of my life like that without it hurting”. So me, being a dumbass LITERALLY RAN AWAY FROM HIM. I’m not kidding. I suddenly decided when I was a foot away from him that I couldn’t be near him so I started speed walking. I heard him call my name several times and I think he tried to catch up to me, but I just yeeted myself away from him .

Suffice to say, we didn’t talk for a few days. When we did start talking it was mostly me blabbering on about how sorry I was. He was understanding and though it was just that something was bothering me (technically he wasn’t wrong). He’ll bring it up jokingly on occasion. Once he texted me saying “don’t sprint away from me in the halls”

I’m glad we can joke about it. Also there’s a big chance imma rant a lot about him because he’s just so 💖💖💖💖❣️💘💕💕❣️💞💞💕💕💞

[magicspiritmoon]

Sometimes in my friend group chat I get confused because I tend to only look at the first letter of the name. On of my friends is Matt, and that’s just his contact name. But I made my best friends boyfriends contact name Man Hoe. So sometimes I just see M and get confused bc they have very different personalities and ways of texting.

I also get my two best friends mixed up sometimes bc ones contact (the one with the boyfriend) is Sora while the other one is Shrub. So I get the S’s mixed up on occasion.

[magicspiritmoon]

New Years Resolutions:

- Be more organized

- Lose a bit *cough a lot cough* of my anxiety

- Push away everyone who tries to get close to me so I don’t get hurt again

- convince my mom to buy a turtle

[magicspiritmoon]

I’m at that fun stage between I wanna break a bunch of stuff and kill anyone who looks at me and just careen me off a cliff.

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My friend groups quotes as Harry Potter Characters pt 1 :

Harry - “I am the protagonist, I have the power of friendship.”

Hermione - “Well the movie was shit and I just finished my 3 paragraph google review on how bad it was.”

Ron - “Things I want in life: Cheese, Butter, Potato, Chicken.”

Draco - “First of all, I’m not the touchy feely type.”

Ginny - “We’re all bitches in the end.”

Neville - “There’s a bitch in my room” *in reference to a spider*

Luna - “Maybe snow is the people sent to heaven, their bodies decomposing and falling down to earth as sparkles.”

Fred - “How I got it isn't important. The important thing is that you possess it now.”

George - “Oh to be a pig back in medieval times and walk into peoples home and just eat their babies.”

Snape - “There’s no language to communicate my hatred.”

James - “All I want in life is the be special enough to someone to be blackmailed by them.”

Sirius - “Being straight is painful.... I say in the arms of two women.”

Remus - “Someone almost caught fire again, didn’t they?”

Lily - “I’m delicate damn it!” *as they almost high kick someone in the face*

McGonagall - “I don't take orders from men who get stepped on.”

Dumbledore - *texted us an entire rap about consuming bones*

Voldemort - “Feeling cute, just murdered someone.”

Arthur Weasley - “It’s October, it’s socially acceptable to talk about witchcraft”

If ya wanna suggest a character for other parts, go ahead, I can’t remember all of them.

[magicspiritmoon]

God life really fucking sucks. I mean I know I’m not of legal age, and I don’t like the taste of alcohol anyway (accidentally drank a bit once), but man I wish I was drunk right now.

[magicspiritmoon]

Hello Tumblr, here’s my heartbreak

Poem entitled ; “Broken”

Broken is a six letter word. And yet there’s more between those six letters then most can imagine. They say things can break, and be put back together again. Though not the same as they were before. I think, there’s only so many times something can be shattered. Before it disappears completely. Only so many times something can be torn apart, beyond repair. No one picks the broken things right? They’re just a temporary placement until you can find something shiny and new. And then they’re just lost to time, forgotten. Most people don’t handle broken ones well. They always end up a bit more cracked in the end.

Being broken, that’s always fun. It’s like trying to scream underwater and silently drowning instead. Like being stuck in a dark room for so long that once you get a taste of the sun, you let your defenses down. But that’s when the darkness gets you again, just when you can touch the light. One would think it gets easier, that the shadows fade away, but they don’t. They just surround you until you’re gasping for breath and out of tears. So why not just join them.

When all you’ve known get ripped away over and over and over again and it’s like the screaming won’t stop. When everything around you is covered in a negative view because you can’t get too hopeful, and that way you’re either right or pleasantly surprised. And with each passing year your world gets smaller and colder, and the backs are all turned towards you. No one will say a word, because there’s no one left to speak. Not that they would listen if there were.

When your cries are silenced and your tears are shamed, what’s left to do but keep quiet.As other watch unaware of the flooding dam waiting to burst. There’s a eerie quiet to be broken, like you’re just a shell moving aimlessly. It’s as if there’s almost nothing left. Some people are too damaged to be fixed anytime soon. Some can be repaired with a bit of time. But some, some are just fragments of themselves, smashed and cracked so much, that’s there’s nothing left to fix. Nothing left to save. Beyond redemption. It’s important to take care of your fellow broken ones, don’t be the reasons they crack. Don’t be another chip on their shoulder. But by now, your void is inescapable. You can look in the mirror and see the hope dead and gone from your eyes. They no longer hold light. Maybe things were better in the silence. And so, perhaps the best thing for you to do, broken one, is to do what broken things do best. Lock up your heart, and throw away the key. At least then, you can’t break anymore, which is important, when you’re a chip away from vanishing.

[magicspiritmoon]

Lost another best friend of five years. Seems to be a regular occurrence. You think you find someone who will stay and then they don’t even wanna fix the issues with the relationship. One would think I’d be used to it. But even after all this time, I feel as broken as ever.

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Me: So how many OC’s do you have?

Friend: Oh a ton, hang on lemme check.... 9. Wow it’s a lot to keep track of with their backgrounds and everything.

Me with almost 100 OC’s each mapped out almost entirely: *sweating* Yeah....