Mai's Space

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Awake and Writing

It's too late for today

And too early for the morrow

But my head's throbbing

With what my heart is writing

My pen won't stop pondering

Scribbling every thought that comes across

And my words don't make sense

But it has to be written

This unspoken yearning

This stupid waiting

And loving

And wanting

I got to write in this silence

The feelings that would never reach you

The tears that would never drench you

I got to write, to write and to write

Until I get the courage to let go

Until I find the strength to think of love without you

I got to scrawl

I got to sit and stay awake

Until I have written my hopes to let go

To someday live without your thoughts

To not want you as much as I do

I got to stay awake and write 

while I'm thinking of you.

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The Good And The Bad

I want to see the smile on your lips

That smirk on your face

The furrow between your brows

I want to see your chocolate brown eyes

I want to hear the sound of your breath

The click of your tongue

And your strong convictions

I want to hear you say my name

I want to feel the touch of your hands

And the way it would interlace with mine

I want to feel your deepest sorrow

And share your warmest hug like there's no tomorrow

I want the taste of your sweetest words

And your acrid letters

I want the taste of your mouth

And the string of words with it

I want to see your soul

I want to touch your heart

I want the taste of your love

I want all that you are

The good and the bad

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I'm Sorry

I'm sorry

I'm a coward

I'm a sorry

I run off

I'm sorry 

I let you go

Sorry I didn't took the chance

Sorry I didn't held your hand

I was an idiot

I don't deserve you

I wasn't thinking

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

I was afraid

I was a moron

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

But here I am now

Begging you to hear my story

I'm not asking for you to take me

Just lend me your ear

And hear my sorry

I'm sorry I let you go

I'm sorry I've been afraid

I'm sorry I'm sorry

And I loved you so

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Wrong Fruit

I know you did liked me

I know even for a fleeting moment, you did

I'm sure you've seen me with your heart

I know you had felt my love for you

You knew how much I care for you

But the time is not ours

So you called me with that name

Oh, you're so lame

Knowing that I loved you

That? why did you had to do

Said " I miss you too!"

Ha! Funny things you say

Cause I saw you with her

Heard Everything about her

Yo love her, so she does

Swore forever to that lass

But now ain't it funny, 

you can't look at me

Now, do you feel sorry for hurting me?

I cried rivers, just so you know

I thought they said, "You reap what you sow."

But why for all the love I've son for you

Emptiness and scars are all that ever grew.

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I love you

I love you, I love you

Isn't that enough?

I love you

I love you, I love you

Is it too much?

I like you

I like you, I like you

Do you want me to cry?

I like you

I like you, I JUST like you!

Do you prefer that I lie?

I like you

I love you

I want you

Whatever you want to hear!

I admire you

I adore you

I need you

Isn't it still clear?

I love you

I love you, I love you

Oh, would you please listen to me

I love you!

I love you. I love you!!

But why won't you look at me?!

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When you’re missing a piece of yourself, aching, gut wrenching emptiness begins to take over. Until you find the link that completes your very soul, the feeling will never go away. Most people find a way to fill this void, material possessions, a string of relationships, affairs, food…I bear my soul, with words, for all to see.

Jennifer Salaiz (via hqlines)

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Stolen Past

I didn't let go of the past

I kept it here, treasured in my hands

And like a sharp blade

I use it to cut my scars

To open the wounds of yesterday

And bleed like the ocean would need more water

I ripped the bandages off

And cut the stitches

So I bleed more

And more, and more,..

Again and again.

But I didn't let go

Like a child caught stealing

I closed my hand

I clasped it behind my back

Holding on to the blade severing my hand.

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Second Chance

I don't see you anymore

But I wish I do

I let you go before

But I'd be looking for you

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The more you keep it

The more it grows

The more you hide it

The more it shows

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Here's My Gift

It's in a box

Wrapped in paper

Tied with a ribbon

A bow on it's center

I'll give it to you

On your birthday

I looked at the calendar

See, it's on a Thursday

Though it's not worth

a hundred numbers

But I've put all my thoughts

in all it's corners

It's not big

Nor is it grand

But it's something

I've carefully written by hand

Written with your name

On a scented paper

Three words and eight letters

And everything that I could offer.

[ To that guy celebrating his birthday today - or tonight :3 *shrug*

Happy Birthday ^  ^.

You're twenty now, huh? *smiles* I wish you all the best and just that, 'the best'. ... Anyway, just take care of yourself ^  ^ Keep safe ]

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Looking Back

I lied to myself

but the world see through

I closed my eyes

yet all I see was you

I tried not to hear

but then you shouted

So I held my tongue

But still, my heart replied

Harder I bit my tongue

and swallowed the words down

Once more I denied myself

And let the feelings drown

Yet there you are again

Smiling, Laughing and Joking

You teased, and you taunted

You said you'd be leaving

Before I could stop myself

I felt myself turn

And suddenly and unmistakably

Looking at what my heart yearn

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For You "Bae"!

 If I ever went your way

Will you make me stay

Let me say it my way

With you I don't want to play

Hold your hand everyday

Go out every Saturday

Tuck you in everynight and pray

Thank God on a Sunday

Cause you call me "Bae"

In my lap I'll let you lay

We'll walk barefoot on a bay

Maybe I'll let you meet my parents on May

So what do you say

No, don't freak out and send me away

I just really like you, won't you let me stay

What about starting today?

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There's so much left undone

There's a lot left untold

So now I'd be bold

"You mean everything in my world."

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Would it be a bother

If I loved you

and not another?

Would you step a little farther

If I tried and loved you

a bit more further

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Not You

I'll look for a guy

who's taller

who's a lot cuter

A guy who's way smarter

Someone ten times cooler

I'll search far and below

I will look to and fro

Just to find someone someone I could love

better than you

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Turn It Off

They say life goes on

That people move on

That the hurt pass

That cheeks dry, where the tear was

So I think, "They did't know."

That I'm feeling so little, so low

That inside I'm crumbling fast

That this breathe could be my last

Oh yes they have misunderstood

So I lift my eyes and say what I should

"Yes, You're probably right."

"Things will get better right?"

That's how they say it

So I will smile through it

And then I'll shrug it off

And cry, only, when the light's off.

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It took me a while to realize

By far, everything you've said

were just pretty lies

And it took me a second and another

To realize that none of them matter