[makingofasoul]

i will be using this account to keep a diary and maybe try to make friends in kink.

for now just call me cuilean. i use he/him and it/its. ftm and bisexual(with a preference for women). i am 23. submissive.

i will block minors and ageless blogs.

i really like femdom:-) i am pretty much a strict bottom but i can play with being a top to embarrass me. i like being penetrated with fingers or fists more than dildos, but i do enjoy cumming around something. i like being penetrated in my pussy more than my ass. other things i like -> orgasm denial, overstimulation, praise, bondage, spanking, light cnc… i like to have ‘lifestyle’ rules such as a bedtime. i do NOT like fauxcest so we shouldnt get seriously involved if you enjoy that.

some non-sex/non-kink things i like include mw, black jack, shammy 1000, legend of the blue wolves, gundam (0079 and turn a), legend of the galactic heroes, the cat’s mill, my green crocodile, neither bird nor beast, and the cunning little vixen. i love listening to music:-) ask and i can give you my current driving playlist!

may add more to this post as i see fit.

[ace-trainer-alice]

It's really fun to tease and play with someone who doesn't "know how to sub" because I get to be really predatory and weird about it. Touching you in places you're not entirely comfortable with and briefly pausing to say in an 'out-of-scene' voice that 'this is when you say 'please''. Gently coaxing you into more and more and slowly pushing your boundaries towards deeper and deeper acts of submission. And this is what you wanted, right? To learn, to grow, to change. I mean, I only really know what *I* like, so it's natural you'd end up fitting my tastes so perfectly. Don't worry, I'd like to think I'm a good teacher.

[the-sensitive-sadist]

Actually how about spanking as a delivery method for forced orgasms. Starting out by slowly, gently edging with a big, uncomfortable dildo until you're a needy, pathetic mess. The raw intimacy and power of bringing you to the edge over and over again, painfully and uncomfortably until you're whining and begging to be allowed to cum like a dumb, needy toy. Forcing it inside you until it's so fucking deep that you can barely handle it, your hole painfully stretched while I grab you by the hips and flip you over so you're made to lay face down. Forcefully spanking your ass so hard that your hole involuntarily spasms on it, flexing in pain while I hit you again and again and again and again, holding it inside you until you grind against it so hard that you cum like a stupid fucking painslut.

[makingofasoul]

i need an owner to take care of me and control and possess me. i miss it so badly

[makingofasoul]

genuinely love being restrained and tied up it calms my mind like nothing else. please take care of me well too

[makingofasoul]

do any beautiful girls want to put me in a strait jacket and talk to me in a condescending manner

[bjuglee]

if i’m not a little scared of what you’re gonna do to me you’re doing it wrong

[llorando-estrella]

I love teasing a sub in public. Just getting him all worked up but I tell him to behave, even though the tent in his pants makes it very obvious he just wants to get back home to be able to get fucked by me. Drool for me, cry for me, beg, and even cum if he gets lucky enough.

[kisseism]

i'm not teasing you because i'm mean. i'm teasing you because it's so pathetically easy to make you flustered.

all i did was rub that throbbing leaky spot between your legs and you're already all whiny? poor thing. it's like a toy that all i have to do is press onto the right place to get a reaction. i mean, it makes sense. you are a cute little toy, aren't you sweetheart?

[makingofasoul]

im not really into intox but i think it would be very cute if someone got me super drunk and then had to take care of me. leave me wondering if anything happened once ive sobered up

[conditioned-to-obey]

"Poor thing." (condescending) (flirting)

[makingofasoul]

i need a beautiful woman to fist my pussy😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢 please

[candiid-caniine]

my favorite thing about denial is the opportunities for mindfuckery. gaslighting and emotional manipulation, in particular.

"if you want to cum so bad, why do you get so wet when you're denied?"

"you came just now. yes you did. are you such an edged-out slut that you don't remember what it feels like? i know you came, and i didn't give you permission, so now you're in big trouble."

"but your hole feels so much better when it's denied. don't you want to make me feel good?"

"if you could just stop touching yourself so much, maybe you'd be able to prove you deserve to cum."

"every time i tell you 'no,' you get wetter. i don't care if you don't believe me, i can feel it."

"your orgasms are so special for me, and i don't want them to lose their specialness. don't you want to save them for special occasions? if you just cum all the time, i'll get so bored of it..."

"if you won't give them up for me, you don't really respect me."

"only sluts cum every day. do you want to be a slut? because i have no problems treating you like one."

"when you stop being so pathetic, maybe i'll let you cum."

fuck. when they say shit like this to me,,

[makingofasoul]

i think i might actually be straight for real. transhet…. but if a woman wanted me to do things with a man then i would do it

[makingofasoul]

im thinking i should get back on fetlife and see if i can find any girls my age

[makingofasoul]

i want an owner who loves me and respects me and treats me like i am something special to her. but it feels like that is too much to ask for

[archvngel11]

would love the comfort of sitting at someone’s feet right now,, leaning against their leg while they get on with whatever they’re doing, petting my hair every so often.. just there in case they decide they need me and sitting good n pretty until they finally yank my hair and force my face into their crotch cause good pups should always be helpful <3