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Original material from diary entries circa 2002-2006. Starring Suzy, teen goth-turned-music journalist. Read from the Beginning Music Video Vault Follow Me on Twitter

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ok . but like maddie from freaky friday is so cute 

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This movie should have been about her

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An old friend sent me these yearbook photos from 2003…

I look like I lost a fight with a pair of tweezers

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7/4/2005: I wish Independence Day applied to me as well.

I realized that for every time my extended family compliments my appearance, the amount of respect they have for every word I say declines by 10%. This terrifies me.

Today it hit rock bottom. I love being weight-policed by the lovely people I call sister and my dad– who even grabbed my ass outside the Target and said I’d regret being so fat by the time I was 25. Once we got home I decided to sit my bloated, fat ass on the couch and carry on with my summer reading list. So far I’ve finished The Awakening, by Kate Chopin. Now I’ve moved on to Lies My Teacher Told Me: Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong. Dad saw the title and flipped out, and now he’s scanning each page throughly for any trace of Anti-American propaganda.

Echoes of Pit Bull keep seeping through the walls of this shabby apartment. Groan. I hate being here so much.

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Hot take: “Lies My Teacher Told Me” was the Turnstile to Howard Zinn’s 311

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Hello from 2025, it sucks

Our government dialing it back to 2003 on steroids got me so nostalgic that I revived this blog

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Journal circa 2002. No shame.

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Annnnd this was my original diary from 2002! She walked in Demonia boots so I could run in sensible platform creepers.

Read from the beginning here.

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white oleander (2002)

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7/25/2005: People of the Caucasian, PacSun Bourgeoisie are totally fucking gross.

Listening to : Radiohead, “Fake Plastic Trees”

We went to the Avenues today. I told my sister if she didn’t stop kissing my mom’s ass, she’d be crapping out lip gloss. 

People of the Caucasian, PacSun Bourgeoisie are totally fucking gross. I also had to purchase a Proactiv skincare kit, seeing as my skin has taken a turn for the worse this week, conveniently before junior orientation. BLAH. My new name around the house is Craterface. Fuck you!

But I bought The Bends, in order to complete my Radiohead collection, and I also found a Le Tigre shirt on clearance. :)

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First Kiss at the Forbidden Mall

As read on January 19th, 2016, at the Vol. 1 Brooklyn Reading Series in NYC.

In 2003 I was 13 years old, I lived in Jacksonville Florida, and I had just started dating my second boyfriend, “Adam.” (My so-called first boyfriend was some self-professed “goth infantile”, who I mostly talked to on AIM. The few times I saw him IRL were at Sunset Place in Miami, where he would narc on shoplifters at the local Hot Topic. He would be compensated in some real shitty band stickers.)

Anyway, Adam and I met in the school cafeteria, where we bonded over our shared love for Tool. We were also friends with “Hannah,” a bisexual goth girl who was often making out with other goth girls in the school courtyard. I was invited to join their communal makeout once, but I declined. Still, Adam and I were both strangely fascinated by her. Sometimes we stayed up late on the phone with her and candidly discussed music and sexy things. (He only knows what an orgasm is because Hannah and I gave him our half-baked 13-year-old knowledge, probably scavenged from gURL.com.) Most importantly, Hannah and her mother were my cover up for my first date with Adam, which happened at the Forbidden Mall. The Forbidden Mall was forbidden because 1) people got shot there and 2) Jacksonville is a Navy town and sailors were often found in the food court trying to pick up teen girls. Still, that Hot Topic was the best one in town. I told my mom us girls were going shopping at the nice mall… And met Adam at the Forbidden Mall, where romance ensued. This is the original account from my diary, written in March 2003.

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Jesus H. Christ Tumblr staff, thanks for randomly deleting my original post and the image source! I guess when stuff like this takes off as much as it does, it no longer belongs to me…

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Bringing it back around for World Goth Day – you still can’t sit with us

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Save a football

Kick a jock.

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American Gothic: Scenes from the Dark Side of Miami | Vogue

Growing Up In Style is series about the connection between fashion and local life in America, past and present.

Hello fiends.

After a long hiatus, I’m back to share some exciting news: I wrote a short story about growing up goth in South Florida for the February 2021 issue of Vogue. 

Miami natives (and longtime readers of my zines!) may recognize some choice scenes from this little slice of my life in the 2000s. You can read it — or listen to me read it aloud in Cuban Daria voice! 

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Journal circa 2002. No shame.

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Annnnd this was my original diary from 2002! She walked in Demonia boots so I could run in sensible platform creepers.

Read from the beginning here.

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Journal, Spring/Summer 2003.

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Love to the baby goths reblogging my original diary from 2003 in 2021 :’)

Read from the beginning here.

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some bizarre screenshots of home movies I made with my friends

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Flashback Friday Friendship Photo from 2003!

The Liv Tyler doppelganger (aka Megan) had ombre hair before it was cool. Also check out my shoelaces.

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–my ex-boyfriend Adam, 9/1/2003

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Are you sick of it all? Are you ready to throw down about it? And by “throw down” I mean, throw down 20 bucks on a band you only sort of like at your nearest Hot Topic? THIS MIX IS FOR YOU!

Deftones - Back To School (Mini Maggit) 

Disturbed - Voices

Slipknot - My Plague

Korn - Falling Away from Me

System Of A Down - Toxicity

Linkin Park - Papercut    

P.O.D. - Alive (HD)    

Fuel - Hemorrhage (In My Hands)    

Staind - It’s Been Awhile (Video)    

Puddle Of Mudd - Blurry    

Incubus - Drive    

A Perfect Circle - 3 Libras    

Godsmack - Awake    

Kittie - Spit [LIVE @ Ozzfest]    

Marilyn Manson - Lunchbox    

Alice In Chains - Them Bones    

Nirvana - School (live at MTV Studios 1992)    

Queens Of The Stone Age - No One Knows    

Tool - Parabola    

Otep - Buried Alive    

Killswitch Engage - My Last Serenade 

Hatebreed - I Will Be Heard    

Mindless Self Indulgence - Shut Me Up

Nine Inch Nails - The Hand That Feeds    

Deadsy - Brand New Love    

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MALLGOTH MEGA MIXXX: A Video Playlist

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heres a spotify playlist!!

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thank you bb  ^_____^