Love me if you dare

L is the name and this is where my thoughts, adventures, and experiences that are left unsaid and unheard laid out. 1994 | NSFW

[man-in-gray]

Weekend Wonder

It was a weekend that is not like any other

Possibly because of months being physically apart

but whatever the reason is, it was unforgettable

From our playful moments of tickles, cuddles, and kisses

to instense satisfaction of our body and soul

We connected like there's no tomorrow

You might say it's cheesy for me to say

that I won't take my heart away

but it's truly yours for an infinite lifetime

To you, I surrender myself

With you, I can be anything

Together, we can conquer the world

[man-in-gray]

"If I wait, I don't think you'll come but if I go closer, you may hate me. Even so, I can't give up on you because...

I love you so much"

[man-in-gray]

before Mar 8

my Mom started coughing more than usual

Mar 8 to 14

I started having

fatigues

headaches

sore throat

difficulty in breathing

shortness of breaths even just by going up and the downstairs which is unusual for me as I was in a Circuit Training before the COVID-19 worsened

Partner has cough, not sure if it's caused by allergies

Mar 15 to 21

same symptoms persist but no more fatigues

i feel hot but I don't know if it's the summer heat or a fever coz I don't feel sick or tired

usual coughs, Mom

Mar 22 to 28

same symptoms persist

Mar 29 to Apr 4

same symptoms persist but had a harder time breathing

Apr 5 to 11

less headaches and no more sore throat

difficulty in breathing and shortness of breath still persists

developed dry cough

body aches

cold sweats

Apr 12 to 18

same symptoms persist

clogged nose

cough discharged phlegm with color

cold sweats

i feel hot but I don't know if it's the summer heat or a fever coz I don't feel sick or tired

someone confirmed positive in the street beside our house

Apr 19 to 25

same symptoms persist

clogged nose no more

cough discharged clear mucus, worst either after waking up or at night around 20:00-23:00

cold sweats

another confirmed positive in the street in front of our house

Apr 26 to May 2

same symptoms persist even the cold sweats

cough discharged clear mucus, worsened, deep coughs

developed Runny nose, Apr 29

[anxietyproblem]

[man-in-gray]

When all of this is over You can come on over We should've known better Should've known Should've known

Even when you're miles away I grow deeper each day I love you no less than yesterday You should know You should know, yeah

[man-in-gray]

[man-in-gray]

Can’t Tell

You now that feeling after meeting someone and developed feelings? May it be a crush, an infatuation, or even more. This song is about that. First song I’ve ever written.

It was summer in October

When we first met each other

You took my breath

But you’re gon far away

How can I make you stay?

Can’t you really tell?

Make it even feel like hell

Make me feel confuse

What else do I have to lose?

Cos I feel it

And you show it

But still I need to know

I know it seems like forever

But it’s gonna be now or never

Hoping this won’t be over

Can’t you really tell?

Make it even feel like hell

Make me feel confuse

What else do I have to lose?

Cos I feel it

And you show it

Now, I’m letting you know 

I should stop caving anyhow

You should’ve known by now

But if you can’t really tell

Now I can say I’m in hell

And it’ll be so long

I’ll be moving on

Or now you know where you belong

That’s with me all along

Can’t you really tell

Make it even feel like hell

Make me feel confused

What else do I have to lose

Cause I feel it

And you show it

Now you know

Now you know

[man-in-gray]

R e s t

We’ve always agreed that communication is the key. I mean, that’s how it all started with us, right? We were miles away from each other. I was travelling whilst you were back home for the holidays. Internet doing its thing, we connected.

From time to time, I ask why does it seem that even after almost 14 months of being together you still don’t open up. I have cancelled every plan of working abroad at the moment because I don’t want to leave you behind and deep inside I knew it wouldn’t work.

This COVID-19 somehow tests that thought. We’re at different cities in the Metro but can’t really go out to see each other. I’ve kept suggesting ways on how we can virtually spend time together but I guess I was demanding too much of your time. I’ve always hated going online and barely kept the communication with my friends (which I’m really grateful for having, low maintenance friendships are the best).

Maybe LDR would work, maybe it will. I’ve made it clear that I like autonomy but communication or the lack thereof seems too much for you. And right now, I’m consciously making ways not to make you feel neglected, watching series/movies together but the irony of you not noticing the efforts I’ve been doing is just pissing me off.

I'll take some rest. I'll be back my Moon.

[man-in-gray]

See u as soon as this fcked up situation gets better 🥰🥰🥰

[man-in-gray]

They say familiarity can be confusing

[man-in-gray]

Sometimes you make me feel like I'm worthless.

[ohddaniellee-blog]

Reblog this if you are literally suprised when people find you attractive.

[man-in-gray]

Not even

Desperate to see you again, I’ve set my notifs on so that i’ll know where you’re gonna be (gosh, I hope I’m this doesn’t sound creepy). But your posts! weren’t I expected. Now I know your political views, and your opinions. Those were all I received.

I searched again. Found you on YouTube, then Instagram. Damn boy, you’re pretty big. A writer, a vocalist of some local indie band, host, basically an artist.

You were not there in every gig I went to. But I did went to one of your gigs :)

[man-in-gray]

It only takes a moment

January 2016 was when I first saw you.

A night where I’d only wanted to listen to She’s Only Sixteen and some awesome Filipino indie artists to unwind. Relax myself from what deemed to be a shitty week. I know good was far from what I was with feeling that time.

That is what I needed. A dose of live music. So there I was sitting alone, wearing my black crown patterned windbreaker.

I vaguely remember if the music was too loud to hear what you hear saying or I was just down. It took more than once for me to understand that you were asking if someone’s with me or is it okay to seat in front of me.

Concentrated with the music it took awhile for me to really notice. In that moment, I see in my peripheral view how cute you were and wished I could’ve smiled when you asked for the seat. I am captivated.

The night was over without me knowing your name. I did know you like SoS too. I used my “Data mining” skills to dig Twitter just to find your profile and name. And there you were...

[man-in-gray]

I’ve had the chance to talk to some of my few followers back when I was really active I hoped I could actually meet them in person 💁🏼‍♂️

[man-in-gray]

what to do? what to do?

[natsmilan]

sana hindi ka nalang napagod sakin, sana binigay mo nalang atensyon mo sakin at sana hindi nalang tayo natapos.