u survive literally every single event in your life & still every time a new event happens you feel like this is the event that will kill you and that you will never move on from but actually you will continue to survive like you always have bc u have a 100% win rate of surviving events. btw
This is related to how I've learned to live with severe, chronic suicidal ideation and depression:
The urge to kms is always there and it is possible I might at some point act on it—>
I will always have the urge again soon, so I can always act next time I have it—>
I can have the urge and not act on it now —>
It's not an emergency to have the urge—>
I can feel suicidal and live.
It taught me generally that it is possible to stay alive while feeling bad, which sounds a little silly typed out, but it's a lesson is taken a quarter of a century of ideation and anguish to learn

















