My life is so disappointing that I'm starting to wonder if it's all for nothing.Am I on the right path and will I be able to fulfill my dreams?Hardly.
I do not know what to do in the future, although I am only a few years away from TRULY adulthood.I do not know if I will be able to do everything so that I do not remain stupid after graduation, I do not know, I do not understand anything anymore.
I'm so sorry that I started talking less with my friends, again.I've been left so many times because of this reason, even though it wasn't my fault, no one was to blame.
I miss one person very much, but I can't give anything back, otherwise I'll disappoint the others even more, and she'll probably just make fun of me.She said she didn't care about me, my life, she said she was nothing to me, but she was my life, one of those I live for.But she left me too.She left in November, and now it's May.I really want to be stronger and let her go, but I can't.And I hate even more that I can't dare to text her, because I'm afraid that we'll fight even more and that more and more people will be disappointed in me.
I hate my disgusting life.I want to grow up as soon as possible and get as far away from my family as possible.I do not know how I feel about them.I'm afraid of my father and I feel sorry for my mother for getting involved with a man like him.But I still dislike her just as much as I dislike my father.I can't stand my younger brother, who is constantly trying to get on my nerves, and I hate my older sister for trying to control me and make me like her.
I hate this, I hate this whole universe.