Let Go

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Found this in the doodle book of Alleycat Tea House.

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Apparently, life is full of shit and it is very fucking hard to get rid and ignore all those loop holes that keeps pulling you down. It makes you feel like you're forever trapped with these problems and that there's no way out.  Cos life is fucking hard and challenging like that. All you have to do is deal with it and hope that it all just fucking blows up one day and everything will be better. 

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na-drain na akong life energy tungod sa mga minor na feeling major. yawa

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I just realized how much this semester changed me.

I was really laid back last year, but now, I'm busy as fuck. I have to lead our class for  several english presentations, have to go to meetings as class president, have deadlines to finish etc.

But now... Everything's chaotic. I've changed. I'm more jumpy, easily-irritated and stressed. It's not that I've regretted taking up the positions. (EXCEPT FOR ENGLISH. I SERIOUSLY REGRET THAT DECISION) but I don't know. I guess everything just surprised me. I seriously need a break. I want to cry, I want to break something, I want to shout but I can't and it is frustrating me...

I can't handle it.

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LANGYANG 'LOVE LIFE' NAMAN TO OH. PANIS!

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Will I wait for someone who's gone, or go for someone who'll be right by my side?

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i want to fucking remove my uterus every time i encounter shark week. it just brings to many mood swings ugh

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If it weren't for my friends (both here and overseas) who are in FB, I'd be loooooong gone from facebook. Uhhhh. Puno kaayo ug nonsense ug kagaguhan, ug katangahan ang facebook. I should delete friends. hmph.

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magyawyaw sako...

actually gi-kapoy jud ko sa school work sa tinuod lang. gi-kapoy ko sa calculus ug sa physics. nya i-dungag pa ning english na pain in the ass kaayo kay expectant kaayo ang teacher. unsa ba iyang gustong mahimo. na bongga ang among presentation? scuse me, dile mi mga theater ug drama students. comsci ug archi students mi. kabalo ko na kani nga presentation ang mag-determine sa among midterm grade pero ngano ipakita man jud nimo na murag walay mahitabo sa among presentation? nasuya jud ko sa imo sa tinuod lang.

leche

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Lately, I keep sighing deeply. And it's not because of positive reasons. I'm feeling down and I hate it. I fucking hate it. It's too much. I knew, long before, that considering a possibly that something good might have happened, will result to me being like this... I knew that wishful thinking will lead me to nowhere but I still went on. And just like a snap, I'm lost and feeling low. I think I've allowed myself too much when I thought and assumed stuff. I keep saying I'm a realist but now, I just feel a total hypocrite. I keep making fun of idealists but it turned out that I was just making fun of my reflection. A reflection I refused to accept that is present in me. 

But now, I'll just stop before I can even start. Screw those books I read. Things found in there are non-existent. You can call me the kill-joy, bitter person that I am, but I won't give a fuck. I've been carrying too much load already it's hard to continue without over-analyzing stuff. It's like I know what Atlas feels with him carrying the world behind his back and all. But don't get me wrong, I know others have it harder than me but hey, we're all different persons. It's just that, life's pretty rough on me lately. I might as well turn into a stone a ignore everything, physical and emotional wise.

Ah screw this. I know writing/typing/spilling this will not make a difference, but it did made the load lighter.

그럴 겁니다... 잊을 겁니다...

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Well, fuck...

I knew I shouldn't have logged in on facebook today. What I saw was just ... UGH.

fuck fuck fuck

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Kung tapos na, tapos na talaga. Ba't pipilitin pa eh wala ka naman ng mapapala kasi tapos na nga diba?

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Akong tshirt run humot. Humot like downy.

Muhawa nako kay magdownload pako ug Breakfast at Tiffany's unya magtanaw nalang ko ug Down with Love kay human na ug download.

Nya matulog ko after kay mag-hang out pako with cousins ugma. hehehe