Trans man. Gay. Dandy. Author of fantasy, romance, and erotica with a big focus on queer and disabled characters. He/him/his. This blog is 18+. www.JohannesTEvans.co.uk
Hello, I'm Johannes T. Evans, and I am a gay, disabled, trans man who writes a bunch!
There are hundreds of pieces available for free on my website as well as subscription-only content - here's a selection of free works for you to check out:
FREE ESSAYS:
How Much I, A Queer Self-Published Indie Author, Made In AĀ Year (2025)
Gregory House, Disabled Bastard, in House MD Season 1
I Am Bad Representation
Ringing The Devilās Doorbell: A Light-Hearted, Practical Guide to Vaginal & Vulvar Stimulation
Whatās In A Uniform?: Imperial Attitudes Reflected in Starfleetās Uniforms
FREE ROMANCE FICTION:
Dirk and the Weaver ā 12k, rated M, MB. A shopkeeper slowly comes to fall for a weaver when he comes to town. Slow romance and fantasy short between a shopkeeper in an isolated Scottish village, and a weaver that comes up from somewhere way down south.
Sweet On ā 7k, rated M, M/M. A chocolatier falls head over heels for one of his most austere customers. A very exuberant chocolatier crushes on desperately on the deadpan professor who begins coming into his shop for coffee. Autism for autism and lots of flirting and teasing.
Deep Breath ā 7k, M/M, rated M. A painter is utterly obsessed with the butcher across the road, and the butcher is a little obsessed back. Lots of mental illness in this one, lots of reference ā implicit and explicit ā to suicidality, drug use, alcoholism, sexual assault and rape, ableism, consent issues, including past child sexual abuse, all in the context of a victim in recovery whilst also being in active addiction.
FREE FANTASY FICTION:
The Lord of the Woodās Spring Bride ā 10k, rated M. MB. A trans dressmaker is embroiled in the strange schemes of a local deity, and he lets himself be carried away with the tide.
Gellertās New Job ā 21k, rated M. MB. Gellert Osgodby has worked as a business manager for the King family for nearly a decade when an error in judgement brings his employment to an abrupt end. Lucien Pike, a rival kingpin, employs his services instead.
A Strangerās Visit ā 3.6k, rated T. MB. A priest of Freyr receives a strange visitation. A little bit of Norse godliness versus Norse priestliness.
FREE EROTIC FICTION:
Academic Incentive ā Rated E, M/M, 3.6k. A magical professor spreads one of his studentās holes for the education of the rest of the class ahead of a special incentive program ā where the lowest scoring examination participant is used as sexual relief by the rest of his peers. Featuring voyeurism, public sex, fingering, anal play, anal sex, size kink, begging, a bit of overstim and tears, public use.
Caught ā Cis M/trans M/cis M, 3.2k. MB. A thief is caught in the treasury and his punishment is delivered by the guards on duty. Unadulterated porn without plot ā dubious consent, anal, vaginal, and oral sex, spitroasting, size difference, rough sex, fingering, messy sex with a bit of squirting and also messy oral, double penetration (vaginal/oral and vaginal/anal), crying, mindbreak, pussy spanking, spanking, some nipple play. Unsafe sex, no prophylactics or contraceptives are used or mentioned.
Archival Management ā 10k, M/M, MB. An archivist with a messy life finds himself intensively managed by his sexy, older boss. Magical archivists in Camelot with the most mundane of delicious emotional and sexual issues. Featuring age difference, orgasm denial, oral, desperation, crying, a bit of mild humour and nastiness, delicious emotional manipulation, and a heavy dose of mind-reading.
A Gift for the Wolfmen ā 6.4k, rated E. Two trans men, both being gangbanged by four cis wolfmen with huge cocks. Fantasy universe with adventurers and so forth. Featuring stuck-through-wall and grope boxes, body writing, vaginal, oral, and anal play, huge come inflation, size difference, knotting, power dynamics, virginity kink, objectification and dehumanisation, degradation, humiliation, breeding kink, body modification, mentions of lactation and pregnancy, and enthusiastic consent throughout.
FREE HORROR FICTION:
Ambitious Men ā Rated M. MB. 11.6k. Archie had idolised Casper Hugo almost his entire life. Deeply fucked up fantasy-horror, wherein a man finds that his dream of taking over his heroās restaurant is not to proceed as smoothly as he hoped.
Wild Country ā 3k, Gen, rated T. A young woman walks home on a foggy night.
The Widowerās Garden ā 12.5k, Rated M, MB. After a man is widowed, his husband begins to appear at the foot of his garden every night. Content warnings for horror, violence, trauma, infidelity, nasty guys being nasty.
Is it possible that something is holy to the celebrated agnostic?
Yes. The individual human mind. In a child's power to master the multiplication table, there is more sanctity than in all your shouted "amens" and "holy holies" and "hosannas." An idea is a greater monument than a cathedral. And the advance of man's knowledge is a greater miracle than all the sticks turned to snakes or the parting of the waters.
I bring a real 'actually people who are pregnant do deserve some special consideration because they are effectively at least temporarily disabled if not permanently after some complications' vibe to the party that a lot of people don't seem to like
Also once again thinking about Bucky being a sci-fi/fantasy guy. It's so important to me that he's a little bit of a nerd. Furthermore I need Steve, freshly thawed, on his pop culture history catchup with Sam, being showed star trek tos & being like "ohh my friend Bucky would have loved this haha. :) ...... :("
Naturally he gets lowkey into spirk. He's sitting there like "they're just like us for real" and it's like palpably homoerotic. Oh captain my captain
This is not to say I personally believe Bucky to be especially Spock coded. But that Steve sees him as the more level headed one, at least pre winter soldier. And he's autistic. I digress. Bucky WOULD have loved star trek he needs to show Bucky star trek after the whole, yknow, everything
Prewar Bucky would have also thought he's Kirk btw. They both think they're Kirk. The dynamic changes due to the Everything of course but there was a brief moment in time when they both would have thought the other is Spock
This could be an ongoing debate honestly. "Cause you're skinny and you don't like girls" "I don't- I'm not anymore. And I'm the captain.." "yeah, but-"
stretching the definition of animated project here but my friend just released his game on steam and i think people should check it out! it's a little point and click mystery with a lot of caribbean folklore elements
Help Tashia unravel the case of a heinous murder and find her cell phone in this point & click, mystery adventure based on Caribbean fol
One time when I was a kid a group of girls and I had to treat another student for hypothermia by ourselves because she had so many invisible health issues that the adults we asked for help didn't believe us. The student in question was actively hallucinating. When I finally ran for help the people I grabbed were slow as shit to respond, casually joking about how "dramatic" the person in question was.
The kid was picked up by an ambulance 30 minutes later.
Now as an adult working in security I get SO MANY folks- upper-middle aged mostly- coming to me to 'rat out' people they think are faking it.
I was once sent into a bathroom because a client demanded that the "fucker won't get out, so go drag them out"- I was NEVER going to do that, so I did a wellness check instead. You know who it was? A person recently released from the hospital after a car accident. They had a hole in their skull and major hearing loss. They couldn't answer the owner because they couldn't HEAR the owner.
Another time about a homeless man who got around town by kicking the ground from his wheelchair. "You know he doesn't actually need that thing, his legs work fine, it's just for pity points"- Oh, so he's not paralyzed, his wheelchair is performative? Funny story Dale, I actually know that guy, he was backed over by a truck and has chronic pain from his shattered pelvis. But sure, let's make him stand up and walk everywhere so nobody feels too bad for him and tries to help him or something.
"She doesn't need that scooter, I've seen her get out of it."
"Look how fat he is, because he just rides around and refuses to get up."
"She doesn't really need that cane- she comes here without it all the time"
Sincerely, truly, from the bottom of my heart- as someone who isn't physically disabled but hears this shit all the time- fuck off
i am well aware of the absolutely fucked up things eating disorders do to peopleās brains, and i am sympathetic, but I still think acknowledging publicly that these celebrities are promoting looking emaciated on deathās door is important. Can you imagine being 13 and seeing this shit? Every celebrity event looks like a thinspo board, itās awful.
People talk about women's bodies far too much; this is true. But that doesn't mean we shouldn't be addressing the elephant in the room of insane weight loss and eds. it isnt fucking normal or healthy
dreamt that itch.io released their own special adaptable accessible super thin flexible silicon game controller called the Butterfly you could also fuck (they packaged each one with lube and toy cleaner) but there was no specific obvious way you were supposed to fuck it they encouraged everyone to find their own special unique way to fuck it. and they ran these ads for it that were different people from all walks of life saying what they do with it . sunburned rural dad who folds it hotdog style and jacks off into it. biracial masc lesbian with undercut who tribs with the joystick. young amputee in wheelchair who lets it vibrate on his lap while he works on his novel. etc. beautiful supermodel woman whos like "and me? i just game. hard." it ended with them all triumphantly saying into the camera "and thats how *I* fuck #MyButterfly"
What is it with diabetes that makes people think they know more about it than the people who have the disorder. People hear the word diabetes and flock to compete with who can be the most ableist.
Found a video of a girl showing off Diet Soda detector strips (if there's any diabaddies that see this and want it I can link them, they're super helpful), and half of the comments were "you're diabetic you should just be drinking water..." First of all, not only are you just wrong, but you seriously expect diabetics to just never enjoy themselves? Ever?.
Saw another comment under a video about type 1 saying "you did this to yourselves. you ate too much sugar and you got yourself into this situation." And it's just so funny because they're Wrongā¢ļø. Type one diabetes is autoimmune and fully hereditary, and not at all effected by diet.
I mean, I know the answer. It's diet culture. People on their fancy diets think they're a superior human being because other people are "unhealthier" than them, and they hear diabetes and think "big fat and lazy with a bad diet" and think they're allowed to walk all over them since they're so superior. Despite the fact that it's a completely false stereotype that doesn't apply to most diabetics.
And btw please do not come under this post saying "but other disorders have that too" this is a vent post about diabetes. Do not derail.
The other thing about diabetes type 2 is that what the evidence actually suggests is that there's an underlying metabolic disorder that causes weight gain and sugar craving before actual diabetes develops.
A lot of type 2's start out as hypoglycemic -- their pancreas is over-producing insulin, causing blood sugar crashes. Insulin stuffs sugar into fat cells, causing people to get fat, if there's too much of it. The overproduction of insulin is a response to slow-growing insulin resistance. Because sugar is a vital part of human energy, people who cannot easily process sugar due to insulin resistance and insulin over-response may crave sugar in order to have enough energy to function.
So you didn't get diabetes because you got fat. You got fat because you were on track to get diabetes. and nobody is addressing the metabolic disorder. Hypoglycemics can be quite skinny -- I was for years. But if you're skinny, nobody is concerned about the fact that you are passing out when you haven't had enough to eat. Because only being fat is ever a medical problem. People who are "normal" weight obviously have nothing wrong with their metabolism whatsoever. :-(
To add somewhat to the above, type 2 is genetic. You canāt get it solely from diet alone. As a specialist nurse crudely but not entirely incorrectly once said to me āif it was just diet then every fat/unhealthy person would have diabetesā.
And now going back to the top point, I know exactly what video op is referring to and she made a different video a few weeks prior specifically about harmful comments to t1dās and instead of getting the point, heaps of comments were basically to the effect of ābut we can bully t2ds bc they brought this on themselves, they deserve to be mockedā. HUH. DO YOU HEAR YOURSELVES.
I have many chronic conditions. T1D is absolutely the worst by the landslide itās not even close. I would not wish this on anyone. If you ever think youād like to make a comment on someone elseās diabetes, of any type, do not do it. If you are a diabetic I trust you to be sensible, otherwise, keep your mouth shut.
