In your recent video you list impactful moments in media like Nina's arc from FMA, so I wanted to ask: what are your top choices of media that inspired you? Top shows or movies, top artists? What have you seen that made you want to create and push the boundaries of expression further?
Oh man, this is such a loaded topic for me and can get easily very lengthy⊠so media that inspired me I would not say is necessarily equal to âgoodâ for me, unfortunately, and I say this as someone who WANTS to find good stories to chew on because I am actually starving here.
I CRAVE a good world-building story with deep characters that I can latch onto and be with and they can be with me, but I find it very hard to enjoy things if they arenât helping me feel like I can actualize my own existence here, and nothing really has once I left grade school because my experiences long surpassed where humanityâs seemed to peak.
I long for stories and media that doesnât just exist to be some over-stayed, bland storytelling you need to âdissertateâ to PRETEND it said something no one can even agree on or be sure of without it even ever saying anything (and god am I sick of having to analyze media that isnât saying anything to try to get people to learn why it isnât saying anything so I can TRY to explain how we could be doing more) but exists to bring me and others around me to actualize how we can be living our lives and experiencing an seeing and sensing for anything beyond this societyâs peak existence of justifying dying after you retire from your slavejob.
Even our dark, mature media hardly goes beyond lamenting on how tragic the world is while everyone is deliberately enabling the worst people to keep cutting us down further and even turn us against one another- and weâre supposed to learn, apparently, that a story just existing to be gruesome is this amazing, profound think-piece, but really itâs saying nothing other than pointing out the obvious to remind us of our helplessness to human mediocrity and stopping it there while people pick and choose who to point their pitchforks at if you want to explore meaning beyond just saying that blandly (I would know).
To me, most media feels like it skips over actualizing what I think is really needed to be said in it: creating complete, breathtaking other worlds from a mindâs imagination: a non-tangible part of reality not living to be bound in our physucks that can be here more fully to stay as parts of our lives and that can actually move us to want to meet each other and society more in ways literally can only be dreamt of because we donât do it, even when our imaginations of potential are sitting right there, for some god forsaken reason. This might not make sense but I hope it does. Itâs a hole for me having to over-explain every single idea because people donât really understand what these ideas could be I find more often than not.
In pre-existing stories, I can find components or ideas or feelings that start to produce the start of these connections for me, but Iâve never in my life felt a story fold all I think it has to fold into it to really be making us see our lives beyond this shit. This is why Iâm so heartbroken when I try to meet my own stories.. Iâve been forced out of my own chance to show what I really think any story needs to be for a deeper communication to a world that otherwise canât idea or start these themes by not even being given the full stability to make it happen, nor can I get anyone to even play along with interest that art like this could exist to want to even learn what I want to make if I spoke about it.
Fun fact, a lot of physicists are directly inspired by sci-fi and fantasy media moreso than the logistics of our science (because humans refuse to believe in the fuckery that is quantum mechanics proving reality is a fucking broken logic) and it is where they carry ideas that motivates them to think of what we could have pushed for more of. Like when you think of interstellar space travel or portal guns and ride that high from a mindâs imagination, a mindâs fiction, not what is tangibly around it, then our minds try to tinker with those concepts to invent things that do come to life.
Oh, humans donât have wings? Donât worry we have imagination so someone found time to be a lunatic about us flying and now we have shitty metal planes and spaceships. So clearly it wasnât a waste of existence to put bizarre concepts in a story because thatâs where it begins to change our physical world because you canât surpass limitations if you donât think or invent outside of them even if reality here tries to be a pieceofshir and claim itâs going to cap you with âclassical lawsâ or some shit- hey quantum mechanics whatinthefuckshit- anyways,
Thatâs why great story canât be understated. It is literally that window that grants us imaginations to start building more here and breaking our own ideas of what is story-possible. It will leech a mindâs imagination into a form that can visualize, entertain, actualize something so much greater than just what is stopping us all around us. And thatâs why I care so much.
Now with all of that said,
South Park. I love South Park.
