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(Oh weirdly close and intimate scientific curiosity, you have my whole heart)
Dr. Ryland Grace - Statues
just saw a 'comments' tab on someones blog you know where the following and likes tabs would be if enabled and it was just showing all the replies theyve made on peoples posts. this is fascinating when did this feature come out
EMERGENCY - ITS AUTO ENABLED!
if you've made replies on posts there is now a tab on your blog showing every post youve replied to and your reply.
if this is not what you want, either go to your blog and click comments and disable it from there or just go to your individual blogs setting pages. just change it from blue to grey if you dont want everyone to see your replies AND the post you're replying to
PLEASE BE ADVISED that it is set to disabled for blogs that have not made any replies but it will turn ON if you reply with that blog in the future.! i just tested it with my main, which was greyed out but it turned on the moment i left a test reply
figured i'd get the word out bc i have not seen a single mention of this and i'm sure there are plenty of people who maybe comment on things they don't want on display for everyone to see on their blog lol. you can still look at your replies with it toggled off just no one else can, like locking the following and likes list
so for some reason this feature was actually announced on the tumblr engineering blog. interesting choice not to reblog it to the staff or tumblr blog, esp considering they asked for user input on how to implement it, but i suppose considering the response to the last update maybe the replies would be too overwhelming...
so couple of clarifications. comments are disabled as default for primary blogs that have their likes disabled. they are seemingly enabled for all other blogs that have replied to posts
posts you comment on may show on your followers 'for you' page if you leave your replies publically available. they may, in the future, show in on your followers dashboard if your follower goes to their dash settings and enables this. apparently, if your likes are enabled, your followers can already see those on the dash if they've gone into preferences and selected to do so, which I was unaware of, and that seems to be disabled at default, but it's possible i disabled it previously and forgot about it ig
Rocky watch crew many days. Crew not wake up.
Something something i was bored and drew a Rocky vision of Grace
Freaky leaky guy and his weak inner carapace and top part fuzz
MORE CARL MORE CARL NOWWWW
Maybe an unpopular opinion, but I actually think I like the film Betrayal Scene better.
Like don't get me wrong, the book one is good (the idea of Grace having to spend multiple days locked up stewing about how he's gonna die before they even knock him out is deliciously angsty, as is Stratt's last attempt to beg him to understand why she has to do this) but fuck.
He like literally starts climbing the walls.
Like he came in there relatively composed. He had a rationalisation for what he was going to do, he probably rehearsed his little speech. He's putting the walls up because he knows he's not doing The Right Thing, but he doesn't want to let on that he knows that. He's probably pretending to himself as much as Stratt. He's doing it For The Kids.
And then the switch to just pure, animal terror when the doctor comes in. Like there's a degree of comedy to it. Grace is always slightly goofy, slightly immature (probably why his students like him so much) and now he's climbing and running like a kid playing tag. Except its not a game and it's not working.
Eva's tone when she tells him to “sit down, we'll do it different”. Like I know I'm murdering you, I know that you're not capable of seeing this any other way, but please at least see sense and spare yourself the trauma of having to be literally dragged kicking and screaming. Please.
The resignation when she says “he's running.” Like, she doesn't have to say who's running, or why. She knew this was a possibility. She knew this was a likely possibility but why couldn't he just fucking be the guy she needs him to be? Doesn't he know how hard this is??
The realisation that, if Carl is by the fence, then it's probably because they were concerned that Grace might actually outrun the guards and would need to be ambushed. The possibility that Carl specifically is there because, in that scenario, Grace would be more easy to catch if he trusted his pursuer.
Like I think one reason I'm attached to Ryland Grace is that I honestly couldn't tell you that I wouldn't behave like that in that scenario. Like sure, we all like to say we'd bravely sacrifice ourselves for humanity, but like it's not like I'm currently chaining myself to rainforest trees or throwing soup at paintings in museums or kidnapping oil execs or whatever it is I'm supposed to do. I don't even really attend protests.
There are significantly more things that I could be doing right now to make the world a better place that I don't do because they would involve upending my life and putting myself at more personal risk than I am comfortable with. I have no room to judge Ryland Grace.
I mean, just look at how scared he is.
I always break down when that scene comes up, like ugly crying type of breakdown
He's terrified and doesn't have a plan. He's being forced into something he doesn't want to do that will kill him and the worst part is that we know he fails
We see him try so so hard and we know it doesn't work because it's just a memory. We know he doesn't escape alive. Instead, he's captured, terrified and kicking and begging and screaming and pleading to be allowed to live
But what would Eridian humansonas look like. I mean the ones they’d make, the way us Earthlings are going ham on like geodes and malachite and etc and making pretty-rock-inspired fan-Eridians. Eridian shitty-humans with, what, twice as many bones? Just Slenderman again? Really wrinkly ones. REALLY smooth ones
I have strong opinions on the Eridian clothing they’d try to stuff Grace in and my opinions are all that it would look stupid as hell, and attempt to visually radially symmetrize him, and he’d be expected to be on hands and knees to wear it right (NOT in a weird way).
The real question is whether he’s actually vain enough to attend a social function that way if Rocky dismissively/disinterestedly/disappointedly tells him he looks normal in the outfit + all the people on the biodome team are like varying degrees of actually impressed by how well he cleans up.
They come up with at least one attempt that treats his head-mouth as his pole of radial symmetry, but everyone agrees this is WAY too tall and long for anybody to be. Bellybutton as pole of radial symmetry it is.
sorry the mental image of them trying to put grace into radially symmetrical clothing was Killing me. turtleneck onesie. look at him he's so disconcerted
YESSSSSSSSSSS OMGOMG TY TY
so sorry. I think im being possessed by like. some eridian fashion designer
THROWING MYSELF INTO THE WALLS
project hail mary time travel fic but it's stratt. and she has to do it again.
project hail mary fic but it's stratt in a time loop and no matter what she does she always has to send him.
project hail mary fic where what we saw was the 20th attempt and nothing else was working so she tried sending him.
project hail mary fic where the first few times she wasn't even in charge and she had to fight her way there before she could even start changing things.
project hail mary fic where the time loop is short, each day over and over until she finally gets it right and they next day starts. the lab explosion happened and she thought surely she'd get to do that day again but no, somehow that was the right thing to make the loop move on. she no longer trusts the loop itself. it might not even be possible to get this done. she tries everything on launch day. kidnapping grace and sending him was a crazy Hail Mary attempt to get the dang loop to move on since nothing else had worked. she expected the loop to reset and he'd be back with her, trusting her to find someone to send. but no, the loop moved on and she sentenced her only friend to death in space and it's permanent and she just has to live with it now.
that was the right choice, the loop says. The only choice. Does that make it any easier?
project hail mary fic where the time loop isn't short. it isn't short at all. It starts when the petrova line is discovered and it restarts when stratt dies and it ends when the sun comes back. whoever she sends into space, she has to wait twenty-six years to see if they succeeded, knowing she'll have to do these thirty years again if they failed.
the loop is so long that she always forgets the details of what happened last time, so long that her changes spiral out of control and she spends twenty-six years wondering which ones were wrong and which were right.
the beetles don't come back and she dies of old age and the loop restarts and she changes anything she can think of and they don't come back and she dies and tries again and they don't come back. how is she supposed to know what happened, what went wrong? how is she supposed to fix it. how.
she can't figure it out without being there. she needs to be on that ship. the loop resets when she dies. she can die over and over again on the spaceship and get the information she needs.
she doesn't have the coma gene.
she puts herself awake on the ship with the unconscious crew. she needs to survive thirteen years of complete isolation without going crazy in order for this to work.
yao and ilyukhina and dubois die in their comas within months. she considers going on and trying to collect the data herself but she is not the expert she needs for this and she desperately does not want to spend another twelve years alone for maybe no results. she figures out why they died and she uses yao's nitrogen to restart the time loop.
it's such a blessed relief this time, to be able to start over after only a few years, to not have to wait out the whole interminable time. they fix the coma issue and she sends herself again with the sleeping crew.
she makes it almost a year before she feels the isolation starting to unravel her mind. she uses ilyukhina's heroin to restart the time loop. she researches sanity and isolation and learns every way to try to keep a mind intact. she makes it two years before her memory starts to come apart and she uses dubois's gun to restart the time loop. she can't go alone.
she doesn't have the coma gene.
she takes a crew with her awake. yao dies in his coma after two years and they figure out why and write it down and she doesn't restart the loop, she can still get the information she needs this loop. they make it three years before they hate each other and four years before someone snaps. she bleeds out listening to gunshots and screaming. the time loop restarts. they fix the coma problem and hope there won't be more.
she can't go alone. she can't go with people. is the coma gene really as important as they say? she tells them to put her under. she feels ice creeping through her veins. she doesn't have the coma gene. the loop restarts.
she can't go. she can't wait here not knowing what's going on and guessing at what went wrong. she can't go, she doesn't have the coma gene.
she puts cameras all over the hail mary and names probes after every drummer and producer and sound editor and publicist the beatles ever had. she waits on earth and gets new footage every few months. she waits for years and watches them sleep and every day drags on interminably and every day is a victory because they're still alive and they make it halfway and then some stupid coincidence in the engine system breaks the ship. she watches the footage a month later and wants to give up but there's no giving up, when she dies she'll always wake up with the news of the petrova line discovery on her morning tv. she gives in the despair for a while until the panic on every face and the news of wars and starvation are too much again. the nitrogen was the best way. she heads down to the empty lab and restarts the time loop.
the petrova line is discovered again. she fights her way to international power again. she recruits dubois and yao and ilyukhina again. she starts them building the hail mary again.
this time she tells the research team to look into every last unlikely way the engines could break. both her scientists die in the explosion because some idiot sent the wrong amount of astrophage. should she restart again or can she learn anything from this loop before she has to try again? no, this loop is still worth something, she needs to know if the comas are safe yet, and she's so tired of fighting her way to power, bribing the french president and convincing. british prime minister and blackmailing the american senators to get out of her way. who else can she send this time? it doesn't really matter, she'll make sure the scientists survive the next loop. but no, it does matter, because they might make it this time. she does need to send the right people in case they do make it, otherwise she's wasting more interminable years.
she turns to grace. last loop she told him everything, hoping it might pull him into the loop with her. it would be so nice to not have to remember it all herself. but no, it's only her. he didn't remember any of it when the loop restarted. it's only her and she has to send someone who actually has a chance, otherwise she'll have to do this again. (she'll probably have to do this again anyway). she's so tired of doing this again.
she turns to grace. he has the coma gene.
he refuses to go. he doesn't want to die. she knows death, now. it's not as bad as he thinks. he won't remember any of this in the next loop. she doesn't have time for his cowardice. she has all the time in the world.
she sends him. she waits for years. she misses him, but she'll see him again as soon as this attempt fails and she restarts the loop. she'll send dubois again next time and he'll be here waiting with her. they make it halfway and the coincidence doesn't happen and they continue. yao dies in his coma again (there is nothing new under the sun) and she doesn't know why. she's not there. she doesn't have the coma gene.
there's no one awake on board to find out why, to ask the computer, to do an autopsy. she doesn't have the information she needs. how is she supposed to fix this when she doesn't know what went wrong. she has to keep going with this loop until she gets enough information to fix things.
they make it three-quarters of the way. she feels the arthritis starting again and celebrates. it's been a long time since she made it this far. (she has all the time in the world). ilyukhina dies in her coma (there is nothing new under the sun). she doesn't know why. she's not there to find out. she doesn't have the coma gene.
how is she supposed to get past this point. if they die and there's no one awake to tell her what happened, she can't fix it. she doesn't want to watch him die. she'll be here forever, a ten-year cycle of sending astronauts and watching them die in space. (she has all the time in the world).
ryland grace wakes up.
she watches it all in amazement. there is something new under the sun. she watches him find himself and she watches him find an alien and she watches them make a plan to collect taumoeba and she watches it all go wrong. she watches the hail mary's momentum crush him against the wall of screens and she doesn't want to watch him die. how is she supposed to fix this?
she watches the room fill with smoke as the alien saves his life. she watches him wake up and she watches the alien wake up and she sees them try to figure out how to breed the taumoeba that will save the sun. she runs out of footage from that probe and she waits. the next probe saves the sun.
she sits and she grows old again and she waits for him to come back.
she has all the time in the world.
SOMA (2015) ↳ Catherine Chun
Ryland Grace doodle page
When You Look at Dr. Grace
part 1/2 (part 2)
When You Look at Dr. Grace
(part 1) part 2/2
just roomate (crewmate?) things
comforting head bonk to make up for my feeble human lifespan
More studies of Dr. Ryland Grace from Project Hail Mary, ft Rocky, aka the two bestest of friends ever from the best movie and also book ever oh my god
One of my fave moments is when Grace draws PPE onto Rocky's dome, so he can be included in big science time D:
