"I don't even know how I'm still alive anymore..."

Matt Donovan • Human • Resistance Member • Closed Blog for The Dark Future RPG.

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ofwitchlightcrs:

“What kind of person would I be if I didn’t pay for your drink?” There’s a genuine smile that breaks from his face for the first time in a while. He figures that while he’s explaining his family’s legacy there was some stuff that went over Matt’s head, but he stood by his belief that it is important for him to know. He’s been around so much supernatural stuff that it can only help him later on, even if he isn’t quite one himself. “Well not just anyone, my sister would have to join us too. But like I said, it’s not really certain if it would work. Still have to leave no stone unturned.”

“I don’t know, normal?” He teased him lightly. “Most people don’t buy other people’s drinks on a whim.” He smirked some before shaking his head slowly. “I’ve been thinking.. since I can’t make potions or anything as a human; is there anyway to turn the potions into bullets for my gun? I could be more useful to people... fight more dangerous enemies...” He explained.

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ofvvitches:

mcttdonovan:

   Admitting that she got feelings sometimes probably made her sound crazier than she felt about it, even with witches and other supernatural creatures being known of. “I think you have, you just made a mistake.” Kira told him in a soft voice, her eyes leaving him to look at something elsewhere. She had gone and made it weird. “It’s okay. I killed the demon. It was just my way of making a point.” Demon attacks were increasing. They weren’t just attacking in public anymore. “I’m Kira… I thought I knew who I was but I was wrong. I’m weird but I’m not gonna hurt you, if that’s what’s bugging you.”

Matt listened some as she spoke, but didn’t really explain much before she gave her name. He gave a small frown before speaking. “I’m Matt; and I’m just not comfortable with people knowing so much about me when I don’t know anything about them.” He explained simply. “What do you mean you thought you knew who you were?” He asked, wondering if there was more to it than some teenager-identity-crisis thing.

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ofdesolations:

mcttdonovan:

 She didn’t really have anything else to offer to him. Truth be told, she wasn’t even sure if she actually liked the first pair. “Anything you get will work, I’m sure.” When he pointed out that he wasn’t sure he knew her, she internally felt herself cringe. “I don’t really know me either.” she admitted before sighing, “But Chris says I’m Piper, Piper Halliwell.”

Matt felt the woman wasn’t really concerned with his glasses and was going to take his leave when she answered who she was--until she gave her name. “Piper?” He asked. “I’m friends with Chris. We... work together.” He said, trying to think of the best way to explain it. “What else has Chris told you?” He asked. He didn’t know much, but he knew the name ‘Piper’ was the same as Chris and Wyatt’ s mother.

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tam-bambam:

tam shrugged again. she wasn’t normally one to even acknowledge any feelings past fun. “yeah well i guess things are just a little screwed up,” she replied softly. “including the box i shove most of what i’m feeling,” she muttered. 

“Everything is a lot screwed up; but that’s why you just have to find something to take your mind off of it for however long we can manage.” He said quietly. “And no one can keep their feelings bottled up forever.” He said.

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celestecstll:

“Really now? Got to say I am tempted to drag you into a class now and watch your body twist in ways you didn’t deem possible.” who knows he may surprise himself and if not then Celeste was in for a show either way. “Glad to know we see eye to eye on that. Hopefully it will be one of many.” though considering the two are on separate sides of this war it may not be as many as she hopes.

“No, no that’s perfectly okay---no need to drag me anywhere.” He shook his head quickly before chuckling to himself. He knew he shouldn’t be so familiar with the woman--she was clear where she stood with Cade’s arrival in town now. They were enemies, but when he talked to her there was never any hostility between them. It made it hard to remember to stay guarded. He needed to find out how much she knew from his thoughts anyway--at least, Chris wanted him to.

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curedsalvatore:

“You know as well as I do that she can be incredibly stubborn,” Damon sighed. “Trust me if it were up to me, she wouldn’t be anywhere near this. Even if her support means a whole lot to me, her safety means even more.”  But he knew that Elena had to do this - not just for him, but for herself as well, because it was true that she’d probably fair no better sitting alone at home, worried sick over him. “I’m going to ask her to powder herself with it too,” he added regarding the wolfsbane. “You should probably do the same as well, seems probably more effective than wearing a wolfsbane necklace, and it’s a bit late to make wolfsbane tea,” he remarked wryly although it might be something to try for future full moons. Quite frankly he wondered why no one had thought of it beforehand. It was a lot harder to poison a werewolf than it was a vampire, precisely because werewolves could detect the wolfsbane in food and drink, the very scent was repulsive. “Thanks again Matt… I really mean it.”

“She is stubborn. Everyone in our circle of friends is more stubborn than anyone should ever be.” He remarked before sighing to himself. “Never thought I’d be dusting myself in wolfsbane.” He murmured but powdered up his fingers to apply it around his neck. When Damon thanked him, the blonde let out a quiet breath. “Yeah.” He responded simply at first; not sure what tone he wanted to use in the conversation. He corrected himself shortly after. “I can’t just let you go through this alone right now.” He said, shifting his words some.

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staincdsoul:

Moira took in a deep breath. Thats a very complex question. She wanted to say. Instead, she spoke. “I’m good. How are you?”

“Uh, good. Yeah, haven’t had to shoot anybody since that night so I think it’s safe to say that’s a good thing.” He remarked with a small smile.

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wistfullwicca:

“It is.” She nodded her head. “This is barely the brink of it.” She admitted, especially when you considered he wielded Excalibur. 

Matt chewed the inside of his cheek. That was the last bit of news he really needed to hear--that Wyatt wasn’t just scary strong on his own, but had the strongest spellbook he’d ever heard of as well. “Makes you wonder why anyone fights him....” He muttered aloud.

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ofvvitches:

mcttdonovan:

   “I mean…” How could she possibly explain what she meant? It might’ve been odd to him that she’d ask such a thing but for her it was normal. “So much has happened in the last ten years. Wyatt, the resistance, Cade… A demon attacked my neighbor in her place a few days ago.” Which meant that she didn’t just give up her parents but she lost her home too. It was once safe but demons were attacking wherever they pleased now. “There’s so much cruelty and pain, but I get the sense that you’re good. You’ve always been good. The world didn’t destroy that.”

Matt shook his head some. “I don’t... know how you know all of that about me by just meeting me, but I haven’t always been good.” He said quietly. “I’ve done things I’m not proud of... hurt people I once called my friends..” He trailed off before shaking his head slowly. “I’m sorry about your neighbor. If I could do anything, I would; but with Cade being in the picture now...” He simply shook his head again as he trailed off. “Who are you?” He asked quietly. 

[untamedhcrts]

i don't know about you but i love the vibes from Matt's interactions with Celeste and Chris.

Matt social game is on point. I dare you to find me someone that dislike Matt.Oh can’t do it? I’m asking for the impossible?! All he needs is to find someone on Wyatt side and he is golden from all sides and I see him living quite the long and full life.

@mcttdonovan, @celestecstll, @ofwitchlightcrs

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ofvvitches:

mcttdonovan:

  That was good to know. It also fueled her next question. “How did you manage to stay so kind?” Kira felt that he was genuine and that was so something she liked. Sure, you could fake it but it didn’t seem that he was faking anything. Nor could someone fake it that well. 

The woman’s question caught him off guard for a moment. He furrowed his brow slightly as he thought of how to reply. “What do you mean?” He asked first, but shook his head slightly. “Being kind has just always been a part of who I am. I’m not going to let something take that away from me too.” He answered.

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tam-bambam:

“i mean i guess eventually. but i’m pretty sure you have a few years to worry about that,” she replied playfully. her smile fell a fraction when he mentioned death but she didn’t address it. tam shrugged, avoiding eye contact. “fine i guess,” she replied. lie.

Matt chuckled and listened as she spoke. He frowned slightly, narrowing his gaze as he looked her over. “You guess? That doesn’t sound like a very confident reply.” He pried lightly.

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criginalwitch:

❝Hmmm.❞ Esther started to wander around, taking a good look at the choices that the store had to offer. ❝You should try these…❞ She mused as she placed some in front of him. ❝Oh and these. Definitely!❞ A light smirk showed up on her features as she tilted her head to the side. ❝Go ahead. Trust me, they will look much better.❞

Matt continued to smile as the woman wandered around and gathered a couple of pairs to lay before him. His smile returned the smirk on her features before he began trying the pairs on. “Oh.” He muttered. “Yeah, these would look a lot better.” He agreed with a soft chuckle.

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ofdesolations:

  Her eyes squint trying to find a reasoning in the man’s reasoning but it just doesn’t come to her. “I kind of like the first better. Do you? It won’t matter what I think if you don’t like them.”

Matt hummed. “I don’t know. Maybe I’ll keep looking around some more later.” He shrugged. “I’ll keep the first pair in mind though.” He chuckled softly.”I don’t think I know you.” He brought up as he looked her over. “I’m Matt.”

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whitedcvefeathers:

❝Nothing, I’m fine.❞ The words were out before the doppelgänger realized that it was not likely that Matt would believe her and she let out a sigh while she shook her head at him. ❝It’s nothing, really. What about you?❞ She questioned as she gulped. ❝Eyesight getting worse? Looks like we are growing old.❞

Matt sighed as Elena brushed the topic off not once, but twice. He shook his head lightly. “No, my eyesight is doing just fine; just thought I’d be a little prepared.” he said with a light chuckle before sighing. “Elena, you know you can talk to me. About anything.” He urged her gently.

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ofvvitches:

mcttdonovan:

 She wasn’t how the conversation had taken such a turn but she was genuinely happy for it. It had distracted her just enough for long enough that she had forgotten the world was such shit at the moment. “Nice, nice.” He took things in stride which was nice to see. “Depends on who you ask, honestly, but thanks. Can I ask you another question that you totally don’t have to answer if you don’t want to?”

Matt grinned. “Well, you’re not bothering me then.”, he said before reining the grin in to simply smile and nod. “Yeah, go ahead. If it’s something too personal or anything, I’ll just decline.” He shrugged. What was the harm in it, after all?

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ofwitchlightcrs:

There’s a chuckle that escapes past the witch’s lips when he hears the mention of the war driving Matt to drink more, since the same could be said about Chris. Nowadays it’s become his go to solution for coping with the insane amount of stress he has on any given day. Not quite the healthiest way to deal with it, but it does work for the time being. “Cute, I’m not an active whitelighter, at least not anymore,” he says to the man before the waiter comes over. While he’s around he asks the waiter to bring him another round of beer and to put whatever Matt orders on his tab. “Well it was prophesied by an ancestor of mine, Melinda Warren, that our line will grow stronger with each generation in preparation of the Charmed ones, my mom and aunts. They are considered to be the strongest paradigm of good and with it comes the collective power known as the Power of Three,” the witch takes a brief pause to make sure that Matt is able to fully understand this. While the man might be a mortal, he does believe that the information might be useful for him for some reason. “Well my siblings and I, as well as our cousins, are direct descendants of that powerful witches, so we should theoretically be able to tap into the power since my mom and aunts are dea—gone. They’re gone.”

Matt cracked a smirking smile at the other as he listened to his conversation with the bartender. When the man walked off, he sighed and turned to Chris. “Hey, you didn’t have to charge my drinks. I could’ve got them myself.” He said lightly. He shifted in his seat some as the man began explaining about the Power of Three. While it was a little confusing for the human to understand, he was confident he got the gist of the matter. “So, if you can get Wyatt and someone else to join you, you can use this Power of Three to try to stop Cade?” He asked for clarification.