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Just Clearing My Mind

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Utter

In my future poems

I write about love

I write about all the great things i'm doing

I write my heart out

Without writing at all

Because

I don't need to write at all 

It's all finally in my head

No need to write when you're happy

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In another world these demons don’t follow me

sadly i believe they’ll always be a step behind me wherever i go

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This physical pain I put myself through could never heal the spiritual pain I feel everyday, healing has never come my way. Always turning away from me 

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Amor

Mi corazon

Mi amor

Mi felicidad ya no existe para mi 

Y para ti 

Todavía lo sientes todo 

“sigh”

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oh how I yearn peace for myself

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Emotions from the Streets

 Right from wrong, you could wonder

     Carry a gun or carry your life on your hand

     Feel your heart race

     Piercing through your skin

     Itching away at it

     Your mind floating

     You're scared

     I'm scared

     Its okay kid 

     For I Am 

     You 

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A reason maybe

 I don't write these poems for you but for myself

       I write these poems for the words i never got to tell you

       For the wishes i could of said when i was with you

       For the prayers god never answered 

       Because who could say he's here now

       For im alone without you so why should i say he's here

       Countless prayers where you would only show in my dreams

       “Oh god please bring her back” 

       So i believed he would answer

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Maybe i'll tell the world about you       Not us but just you

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Where has my mind gone, sitting here without a thought yet still wondering so much. Scared of what's next, where will my mind go when this is all over. Just what are you doing, are you sad? Are you happy? Just Think.

Myself

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WHY

Why should i give attention to those who are against me. Why shall i bring down my own feelings for a laugh. Who have i become, seeking attention or a talk through a screen which has no personal value to me. Knowing i would only bring myself down eventually, then i could only ask why. Why do i have no confidence in myself, why god, why cant you simply make my wish come true. Yet only seeking help from you only when it benefits me. My words may not make sense at times but will make you wonder whats going on in my head. Use my words to your own imagination and feel the power of words through your soul as i grieve for my own.

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Social Anxiety

simply lost between my own world     I speak no words    Proving no worth   Yet its only hiding fear   Fear of words   Fear of people   Fear of the world   Head below water who simply wont come up   Honor   Courage  Commitment instilled in me   Face the enemy head on   Protect what you love at all cost with no fear   Yet i have nothing to love   Nothing to fear   Fear   ....Fear of words   ....Fear of people    ....Fear of the world   One simply wont put his head above water to breathe   To live   To Survive.