Lover of the Moon

azzy, they/them, tme black, 20

[savee-baby]

If my page suddenly stops posting one day, know that my baby Qais has died. I will never forget the people who saw my child bleeding, suffering, and begging for help, yet chose silence and continued scrolling.

[savee-baby]

I feel completely broken and deeply ashamed begging strangers for help every day, because this suffering has turned me into a mother forced to sacrifice even her dignity just to keep her child alive.

[savee-baby]

I want nothing from this world except seeing my baby Qais walk and laugh again. Please donate so I can buy medicine and bandages instead of expired drugs and torn clothes cleaning his wound.

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[savee-baby]

I’m saying this with a heart that can’t take more pain. If you read this and scroll away, I won’t forgive you. My baby is slipping away. Please donate now, please share—save Qais.

[savee-baby]

Unfortunately, my baby Qais’s condition became worse tonight, and his tiny body could no longer handle the pain, weakness, and constant bleeding. Please, I beg you, don’t leave us alone—donate now and help me save him.

[savee-baby]

Today I used torn clothes on my baby Qais’s wound instead of bandages because I cannot afford them. I feel helpless watching this. Please donate now and help me save him.

[mousidy]

If you've ever gained something from my writing, or you enjoy my games, I've set up a ko-fi!

it helps me pay for:

- bottom surgery

- laser hair removal

- college

it also gives me more time to devote to:

- my writing

- Transfem Voices Project

- development of my game, Enter the Wyrm, which is playable now for free in open alpha!

thank you 🫶

[boccher]

while people are discussing how misogyny shapes girl's bodies from childhood, we should especially consider how transmisogyny shapes transfems' bodies, all the dehumanisation we're subjected to on top of misogynistic standards. It's not just a coincidence that transfems are so often chronically ill and disabled from a young age.

From as soon as we learn to talk we're told our wants and opinions don't matter. When our self-expression is deemed off-limits, it's natural that food choices, experiences of pain & sickness, passions and aspirations cannot be our own either. Basic medical care is held over us in exchange for compliance. We're told our sicknesses aren't real. Exercise and fitness are used as a cudgel to coerce us into proving our masculinity. School sports and extracurricular sports are basically used as sexgendered hazing rituals, sexual & physical & medical abuse enforced by teachers, parents and same-age peers alike. Our relationship to domestic labour is that we're taught that domestic labour is how women prove they are women, so we take up that role aggressively as the only means of feminine expression we're permitted, but without ever being rewarded with recognition as women. And everyone else around us gleefully accepts the way we overwork ourselves to the bone. Medical transition is completely out of the question for most of us, so you'll very commonly hear how we tried to completely starve ourselves during puberty to prevent our body from growing, the only bodily autonomy we can afford. And what little choice we do have for medical transition is basically doctors subjecting us to years of puberty blocker monotherapy, widely known to cause lifelong chronic health issues, just to prove that we're really actually trans. Then once we pass that trial they continue underdosing us anyway.

And through that whole process we're horribly aware of the way that society talks about us, how the entire landscape of entertainment treats us as a punchline, how the news playing everywhere calls for our erasure, how laws shift to delay your medical transition another year every year, how grown adults will write fantasies about hunting down and dismembering us, and will actually coordinate harassment and assault circles to target us, how the police & parents & teachers & any authorities won't do anything to protect us against that, instead preferring to enthusiastically call you by your deadname over your grave. They all want us dead. And so we play the part. We hide, we shrink ourselves, recluse into the corners of society to find solace. Dissociate from our already neglected bodies. Hope that a safety net will divine itself upon us by chance when we have no control over the forces dictating our lives. And kill ourselves if it never comes.

That's only really covering the socially acceptable ways that we're physically transmisogynised. All the things that parents and society can pull while still calling themselves "inclusive", "supporting", "good parents". All the ways that are entirely protected by law. But we're not protected by the law anyways, we're seen as acceptable targets. If we're unlucky enough to be birthed by bigots, then we might be forcibly starved, shaved and bleached and lacerated, have our bones beaten and broken and reshaped, murdered, disowned and dumped on the side of the highway, kidnapped into evangelical torture camps or military service... The list of horrific things I've heard done to my sisters are truly endless

[naderalanqar2007]

SADLY, MY FATHER, AHMED, HAS PASSED AWAY. THESE MAY BE THE FIRST WORDS YOU READ FROM ME TOMORROW.

Tonight, he was admitted to intensive care after losing his ability to resist, and he is now alive thanks to machines. I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word and ignores me.

[naderalanqar2007]

The doctors told me his condition has become extremely critical, and without immediate treatment, he may not survive another night, so so I ask, can you help me get treatment for my father Ahmed??

[naderalanqar2007]

As a young man suffering in Gaza, I appeal to you. I see my father in agony before my eyes, and I am powerless to stop his pain or help him. Donate now and help me save his life before it's too late.

[naderalanqar2007]

I am standing outside the ICU, waiting for any sign that he is still fighting, but every second feels like a goodbye I am not ready for. Please donate now and help me save my father Ahmed

[socalgal]

Please help Nader's father in any way you can. The last donation was 7 days ago. They desperately need your support and donations at this time.

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[maidslime]

"tumblr trans women are obsessed with the gender binary!" say the people who insist trans men can never be men, solely define trans women by their rape organ genitals, erase that trans women can have vaginas/belittle neovaginas, erase the existence of tma nonbinary people, erase the existence of intersex trans women, refuse to stop calling transfems "dude," "guy," and "man," insist men are actually oppressed for being men, and constantly insist trans women (both no-hrt and with hrt) can never experience misogyny like they, the "real females," do.

[mousidy]

you absolutely have to stop operating on a "fuck around and find out" basis when flirting with trans women whose bottom dysphoria status is unknown to you

trans women with dysphoria should not have to deal with unwanted advances regarding our genitalia that make us shudder to our very core, followed by having to speak up and ask not to be talked about like that, with every goddamn person we flirt with

get fucking serious. you know what dysphoria is and you know it's a common aspect of the trans experience. if a trans woman ghosts you after you pull some shit like that it's your own damn fault

[mousidy]

not to mention she MIGHT HAVE A VAGINA!!! you literally don't know!!! I cannot wait to have bottom surgery but I am not looking forward to the fact that people are STILL fucking going to assume what parts I have afterward, and it's going to be WRONG

when that shit is GONE you better believe I may well have even LESS patience for fucking shitasses who just assume what I have down there. I'm not going through all this shit just for you fucking assholes to construct an imaginary penis on your mental model of me. fuck off and die I actually hate you

[mousidy]

do not even refer to a trans woman's genitalia in conversation unless you know she will be comfortable with it + the terminology you use

this shit is extremely extremely basic trans 101 that you could figure out for yourself with base level, cursory knowledge of the existence of dysphoria, but apparently it has to be spoonfed to people because far too many people who have flirted with me have not gotten the memo lmao. I am tired

[certainlystormy]

we've gone from assuming she hates her dick and every transgender person is dysphoric to assuming she's in love with gooning her girlstick and transgender people shouldn't transition to erase beauty standards or whatever and yet somehow we have passed directly through humanizing and considering her as an individual

like this is still objectification and maybe arguably more fetishization of the transgender experience and is not better in the slightest,

[certainlystormy]

this trend hits me pretty hard as well because i've been subject to a lot of it personally

while i get bottom dysphoria (and especially around the idea of penetrative sex) i'm mostly okay with having a dick otherwise because it doesn't ruin the image of myself that i hold. i most definitely want bottom surgery in the future but i'll take what i've got right now at least. when people approach me sexually though it kind of drives me insane how many ppl expect me to top because i have a dick and how often people offer to give me head. like no i'm not automatically okay with it because i'm not extremely socially dysphoric fuck offfffffff 😭 pmo when i already mention i'm a bottom anyways

kinda rambley but i just want to say i feel so stuck in the middle when treated sexually and it is ALWAYS objectification . every time

[strawberry-crocodile]

like fundamentally the concept of the femboy is what a transmisogynistic society wants out of transfems- for us to be skinny, white, and young, for us to put the maximum effort into passing but to still maintain and affirm the sexgender binary by identifying with our agab. and, of course, to be sexually available. they want us to do that or die.

[strawberry-crocodile]

the idea of a young transfem finding this as her only option, her shaving meticulously and spending an hour a day doing makeup and voice training and cutting her weight, and after all that to not even ask to be respected as anything but a submissive sex object thats still Biologically Male... harrowing. surely some people are happy that way but...

[apolladay]

What category is your last name?

Son of some guy ("Johnson", "O'Brien", etc)

Job ("Smith", "Miller", etc)

Place/town ("Hill", "del Valle", etc)

Nickname/attribute ("Short", "Goodman", etc)

Hyphenated/multiple of the above

Other (describe in the tags!)

Unsure/results

Voting ended onJul 6

[spitblaze]

its all 'be gay do crime' until a black person starts making allusions to drugs or sex or god forbid VIOLENCE and then it turns out nobody can handle anything more hardcore than downloading illegal torrents of hamilton

[spitblaze]

This post is about racism. This post is about racism and antiblackness. This post is not about how cool YOU are for doing crimes or about how much you hate 'antis' or how bad tesla sucks. This post is about how ostensibly progressive white people will clutch pearls and moralize about not listening to rap or engaging with black art or culture because it seemingly condones drugs, or violence, or is overly sexual, while having no issue with those topics in other, non-black contexts. There are conversations to be had about the topics surrounding this but in the meantime the original post is One Sentence and I'm not convinced most of the commenters in the past few days even read it.

[cate-r]

people are like "just because the artist depicts it doesn't mean they condone it" until its black people and hip hop

[savee-baby]

SADLY, TODAY MAY BE THE DAY I LOSE MY BABY QAIS AFTER EVERYTHING HE HAS ENDURED.

Tonight, he was admitted to intensive care after losing his ability to breathe, now surviving through machines, and I will not forgive anyone who sees this post and does not support me with a single word and ignores me.

[savee-baby]

The doctors told me his condition has become extremely critical, and without immediate treatment, he may not survive another night, so so I ask, can you help me get treatment for my baby Qais??

[savee-baby]

I am begging you as a persecuted mother in Gaza, watching my baby bleed in front of me, unable to stop it. Please donate now and help me save his life before it’s too late.

Please donate now Gofundme

[savee-baby]

I am standing outside the ICU, waiting for any sign that he is still fighting, but every second feels like a goodbye I am not ready for. Please donate now and help me save my baby Qais.

[savee-baby]

Unfortunately, Qais has run out of medicine, and I cannot afford more. To everyone who helped before, I beg you again today. Your kindness kept him alive, and he still desperately needs support.

[plutesboots]

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[stephexmachina]

real talk tho ive seen ppl talk abt how long hair on men isn't intrinsically feminine & assuming so is racist can we get the same convo going for Black women w short hair can we start talking abt how short hair isn't intrinsically masculine or is that a step too far

[stephexmachina]

idw hear any more white people's opinions on this topic bc it's so clear they do not get it but they're soooo confident they do...... "well nothing is intrinsically masculine or feminine" yesss it's almost as though every culture has its own constructed gender norms which is why these values r culturally relative & why it's racist to impose eurocentric gender expectations on racialized bodies. all well & good to say femininity & masculinity should be completely abolished but what are you going to do for the Black women who are being labelled masc or gender non-conforming right now for not aligning with white gender norms that exclude them by design. "gender norms are social constructs do whatever you want forever" isn't enough we need to be saying "Black women are assumed to be deviating from gender norms just by existing even when they are purposefully expressing femininity bc western gender structures are built upon whiteness" like you've got to start by dismantling the racism & white supremacy inherent in these structures or you will leave racialized women behind

[aggot]

everyone wants masc carpenter trade until his rough calloused handjob sands your thing down small and smooth as a river stone

[fishprincessfeferi]

You have to love every trans woman you meet. You have to love them AT LEAST as much as you could ever hate transmisogynists. Otherwise what is the point. You can yell and scream that you hate transmisogyny all day but if you're not a friend to trans women then you're not going to get anything done. Trans women are consistently some of the loneliest people on this planet due to social murder, lack of structural support, and social stigma. If you have "Fuck TERFs" in your pinned post but do not foster a safe place for trans women to exist in your circle then you are not a transfeminist. Loving trans women is praxis.

[sheherlockholmes]

HAATEEEE hate actually. that overweight is considered a more pc nice term than fat. like i need the word fat to become destigmatized right now because im tired of people talking circles around trying to say chubby or big or plus size as catchalls because fat is a fine word. its fine. i know its been deemed derogatory by our culture but thats because being fat is deemed bad anyways but i think its a better word than calling people overweight like over what weight hm? what weight are you saying they are over. normal?? fuck you

[bramblesqrl]

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[boobcareer]

you're "subbing" to watch a girl "stream" and "twitch"? ive heard enough