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Uncovering Mythologies

[memri-blog]

I have a hard time dealing with the world because of the people in it. Simultaneously, I desire their presence and would crumble without them.

I have a pretty easy job, but somehow being in customer service drives my to do stupid things to compensate for the anxiety produced simply by interacting with others.

I sell pastries at work: so I was eating way too many pastries. I was always tired, unfit despite working out constantly, feeling randomly de/o/re-pressed.

So I figure...give up the fucking pastries. Deal with it. This is day 10 of healthy eating. Coincidentally, since stopping anxiety eating, I have also had an emotional reawakening, and mostly dropped Tumblr as a part of my life all together.

But I saw this thing, and it scared me. My body/brain craved those pastries; I would get stressed, and immediately desire to eat stupid tasteless things. Likewise, I would get lonely, and immediately desire to reblog stupid tasteless things.

You see? Tumblr is like binge-eating pastries to deal with anxiety. I lean on faceless others like I lean on calorie-laden shit food: to cope because I am lazy and weak.

It is so easy to be lazy and weak, even when you are strong. There are 2 simple steps.

Step 1: Think that you are strong

Step 2: Mentally proceed from this presupposition at all times.

Boom. Lazy weakness. Strength is real-time, ongoing. If it is always-already, it is not. This is the limitation of Heidegger, fundamentally, that I see after all my enjoyment and study of him, and perhaps even how he himself 'fell' into Anti-Semitism: he presupposed his strength.

From there it was an easy step down from real strength into modes thereof; not quite the real thing. He didn't follow his own program, because in it there was a way out: despite all the safeguards against presupposition it lurked therein nonetheless.

This is the condition of desire and addiction today as well: all that is required is presupposition.

I am strong. I have my life together. I know what I am doing. I know who I am. I have what I want. I like these books, this area of study, this kind of food, this kind of man or woman.

Today I feel relaxed and clear. I have not been reading philosophy, or anything actually. I've been watching a few movies, spending a lot of time being silly and laughing and walking and talking with my girlfriend. When she is not around I play a computer game or practice chess openings/defenses.

I think I am wasting my time doing some of these things, but I am not worried. I feel healthy, fit, able, awake. I am not happy, but it is not far off nor hard to grasp happiness.

If I wake up tomorrow and feel poorly, I will think about it and do nothing else. No reading, no games, no Tumblr. Just me and me. It will be okay then, and I'll start doing whatever comes next.

[simenge-deactivated20160805]

If you want to attach “post-” to something and describe a paradigm shift in culture, which is fun sometimes, let’s say this: we live in a post-copyright era. This is a statement of fact, not of ideology or wishful thinking.

The public is hopelessly out of phase with copyright law. Not only does…

[immunitass]

“Constant reminding ourselves that we not see with our eyes but with our synergetic eye-brain system working as a whole will produce constant astonishment as we notice, more and more often, how much of our perceptions emerge from our preconceptions.”

Robert Anton Wilson (via perceptuss)

[shantrising-deactivated20200105]

[captoring]

this is from a store in los angeles called The Echo Park Time Travel Mart, and it’s pretty much the coolest place

[belacqui-pro-quo]

@sachasayan

Whois on any .fr domain name right now displays “Je suis Charlie” in asciitext.

I hope the owners of domain names consented to answer “Je suis Charlie" to everyone’s "whois" requests, else it seems the whois server admins would be putting words in people’s mouths.

[firstrainofmay]

john cage’s 4’33” is fucking silence

someone put a copyright on the absence of sound

and then disabled the audio of a video

of the absence of sound

what a time to be alive

[jimtheviking]

#john cage would have been so happy #it’s so meta #he would have pissed his pants

[liliesofpur-i-ty]

My mother forbad us to walk backwards. That is how the dead walk, she would say. Where did she get this idea? Perhaps from a bad translation. The dead, after all, do not walk backwards but they do walk behind us. They have no lungs and cannot call out but would love for us to turn around. They are victims of love, many of them.

Anne Carson — “On Walking Backwards” from Short Talks (via liliesofpur-i-ty)

[guy]

rare photo of a cock on a pussy on a bitch on an ass

[coral]

A democratic civilization will save itself only if it makes the language of the image into a stimulus for critical reflection — not an invitation for hypnosis.

Umberto Eco  (via feellng)

[belacqui-pro-quo]

Jean-Baptiste-Camille Corot, General View of the Town of Saint Lo (c.1833)

[notkatniss]

this is the most important video in existence 

[fartstitution]

agreed

[ill-show-you-later-deactivated2]

david and gillian. 1997 golden globes.

[ill-show-you-later-deactivated2]

We just have to reblog

[rangordnung]

There’s an odd feeling you get when someone on the sidewalk moves slightly to avoid walking into you. It proves you exist. Your mere existence caused them to alter their path. It’s a nice feeling. After you die, no one has to get out of your way anymore.

George Carlin, Braindroppings (via crematedadolescent)

I miss that man.

[sigmafoxx-deactivated20201122]

Hiding Fail - By Sigma Foxx

[artsnquotes]

The Gray Tree, 1911

Piet Mondrian

[caucasianmkultramassshooter]

[victoriousvocabulary]

ALOGISM

[noun]

unreasonableness; absurdity; a statement that is nonsensical or illogical.

Etymology: from Late Latin alogia, ”unreasonableness”, from Greek a-, prefix for “not” + -logy, from logikós, ”of speech or reason”.

[Naoto Hattori]

[majortomstincan-deactivated2015]

eight tits is decidedly unreasonable, good choice