Permanently Venting

She/Her Icon by: @pridewishes

[mental-and-exhausted]

Basic info

Call me Catra. No, I don’t kin her, but I relate to her pretty heavily and the name fits better than Jinx or Lapis, though I suppose you can call me those as well, if you really want.

This is a vent blog. It's in the name and the title. If you don't like it, block and carry on.

I am clinically diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety. Sometimes I dissociate and I suspect that I may have borderline personality disorder as well. I also suffer from chronic pain and fatigue.

I don't go to therapy and I don't take medication. Don't tell me to seek out either.

Guidelines

Please be kind. Don't send me anything condescending or rude. I have anon off for a reason.

Don't ask for my main blog. If you somehow know what it is, don't bring it up. I'll just block you.

If I have reblogged something from you and you rather it not be here, say the word and I'll delete it.

If you suggest therapy, I will block you.

[glimpseofsxlace]

Oh to be someone's first choice.

[mental-and-exhausted]

I hate posts that call me out and make me think about how mentally unwell I am. Fuck all the way off.

[mental-and-exhausted]

I told you my greatest fear was being left behind. You told me you'd never leave me. You promised me.

And yet you're gone.

[dispiritedfae]

Nobody apologized for how they treated me they just blamed me for how I reacted

[mental-and-exhausted]

God, I’m such a stupid bitch.

[paper-wounds]

[identitty-dickruption]

surviving child neglect will have you thinking “am I ontologically evil for having needs?” meanwhile the need is. idk. not being yelled at for asking a question. or even. y’know. wanting food to eat

[mental-and-exhausted]

That feeling when you’re pretty much convinced your friends don’t even want to spend time with you and are just doing it to save face.

[mental-and-exhausted]

I hate myself so much. I fuck everything up.

[crow-in-the-stars]

NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN HOW MUCH YOU DAMAGED ME

[sickfrr]

[sickfrr]

[feralkitten420]

"You need to relax"

Best I can do is dissociate

[fladurblegon]

At least once a day I think to myself “I wish I could share this moment with you” and then get sad.

[bleedingandbroken]

[mental-and-exhausted]

YOU LIED. YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME. YOU SAID YOU'D NEVER LEAVE. YOU FUCKING PROMISED ME. YOU PROMISED.