#abandonment issues

[mszzpaint]

Me when I realise my edgy fantasy of being in a hateful loving relationship where we will never leave eachother and can be shitty to eachother is not cool and rad but instead a reaction to obsessively monitoring and repressing myself and fear of being abandoned.

[drowningin-reverie]

Bro is not 😂😂😂 prepared for the horrors 😂😂😂 the dread is there for a reason 😂😂😂 they're gonna leave you 😂😂😂 and you'll deserve it 😂😂😂

[ame-riiiii]

I lowkey learned to use my autism to mask my abandonment issues lol

I was honest in therapy once and they didn’t believe me. So now i just use my autism symptoms as an excuse for most of my meltdowns, even though they are triggered by fear of my partner leaving or rejecting me, and not sensory overload.

[littleteapotghost]

I am beginning to realize

That

Not everybody

Was trying to navigate life

With the forgone conclusion

That nobody would

No,

Nobody Could

Ever

Ever

Ever want them

[whobloidlostingublerland]

i feel vulnerable & gross.

I want my love to baby me & hold me but he ghosted me months ago & I don't know if he is alive.

why do the ones I fall the hardest for always leave me & I remain loyal to their ghosts.

Fuck, I hate being this disgustingly emotionally sensitive.

I hate having emotions

Sometimes I really hate being human & being alive to feel.

[its-all-down-hill]

[lotzofteeth]

if everyone leaves me when they find out I'm messed up why should I let anyone know how messed up I am? I should pretend that being messed up doesn't EXIST I don't EXIST blue HEART emoji

[lotzofteeth]

hey girl do you fw my intense abandonment issues that will make me hate you for hours on end and have to isolate myself and tell myself over and over that im just imagining that you hate me just to get rid of the feeling? no? okay fml.