“and like, she didn’t even tell me!” you exclaimed while doing some hand motions in the air. mark stayed quiet, admiring you and listening to your babbling in which he could do for hours. you furrowed your eyebrows while folding your arms. you heard mark chuckle, you turn your head to look at him and are met with him pinching your cheek. you glare at him and just when you were about to say something, he beat you to it.
“you’re so cute, did you know that?”
mark smiles at you, your gaze at him turned soft as you abruptly stopped in your tracks.
mark raised one eyebrow up, “what’s wrong?” you look at him with widened eyes, silent for a few seconds before muttering, “nothing,” your flustered self was clearly evident as you think about what he said.
you catch up to mark as you both walked together once more, as there was a hint of awkward silence before you started chattering to him again. you were glad to have someone like him, always having someone to listen to your rantings. mark sighed of relief; he didn’t know why he had abruptly said that outloud. he secretly adored you, he couldn’t help but fall in love with you more everyday. his heart thumps at the thought of you being his as his cheeks are tinted with a light shade of pink.
"you shy?" mark asks as he pulls away after kissing you, a soft smile playing on his lips. you feel your cheeks burning. you've been making out on his couch for the past 20 minutes. this wasn't your first but it sure felt like it. your real first kiss can't even compare.
he continues to hold your gaze, the back of his index finger stroking your jaw. you couldn't stare at him any longer so you decided to look around instead. "hey.... look at me," he demands and you oblige. he leans in and kisses you one more time, "don't be. because god, you're driving me crazy," he says, smiling through the kiss. you sigh and he groans, "like really crazy."
you opened your phone to see a notification from beomgyu. sleep wasn't even imaginable for you at this hour. "are u awake?" the text reads, and you frown. beomgyu was never awake so early.. let alone late. why was he awake now?
you reply back "yeah, why?" closing you phone for a minute, you lift your blanket over your face. some fresh air was nice. you feel anoyher buzz. "come downstairs baby i'm outside with food pls let me in" you grin at your phone, silently crawling down the stairs and letting him in. "what's the occasion?" you ask, grabbing the snacks and he'd brought along with him.
synopsis. you had always had daddy issues, for as long as you could remember. so when jay came along with his caring nature, how could you possibly keep your feelings at bay? not to forget, your roses of love have wilted long before you even knew what love meant but jay, he’s here at your doorstep with a watering can. will you be able to refuse?
pairing. park jongseong(jay) x f!reader
genre. fluff, comfort angst, plain angst, age gap (7 years), neighbors to probable lovers, dentist!jay, neighbor!jay and scenes of babysitter!jay, somewhat strangers to lovers?, (happy) open ending :)
word count. 16.5k
warnings. DARK THEMES: if i happened to miss something please let me know. also please read with caution and check the warnings carefully to avoid any kind of triggering | hints of: daddy issues, attachment anxiety, inferiority complex, abandonment issues, depression, childhood emotional neglect, philophobia, insomnia, social anxiety, hints at emotional/psychological abuse, gaslighting, hints at being suicidal, people pleaser syndrome, mommy issues, thantophobia, atelophobia, atychiphobia, pistanthrophobia, avoidant personality disorder, body dysmorphia.
inspired by. the song daddy issues by the neighborhood and my personal life. STRONGLY RECOMMEND LISTENING TO DADDY ISSUES, FUTURE AND LOVE LETTER WHILE READING THE FIC.
#TEASER
[🗒] NOTE. okay this is like my most personal fic with my most personal thoughts. idk, you could say i wrote this as a coping mechanism thing. please reblog and leave feedback it helps me get motivated and write more efficiently!! ^#^ also this is a part of soul symphonies collab by @prettywon make sure to check out the other stories!! the ending feels a bit rushed but i hope you all like it! ONCE AGAIN FEEDBACK IS HIGHLY APPRECIATED!
“i know how much it matters to you.”
watching him from afar, through your bedroom windows or from inside your parents’ car or during an event in your apartment complex where you stood far off mixed in the crowd. that was your limit. it was all okay till you liked him and just looked at him through veiled glances and secret giggling messes. but interacting with him, having to meet him every week, the said man actually initiating conversations with you from his side. this was not okay, this was not within your bubble of limit. and then falling for him as more than just a crush, this is way beyond your limits, it scares you. but you can’t stop now. you don’t want to.
life was so different just a month ago. or maybe it was just the start of a very big change. a change which you so badly needed but did not want. the reason? you’ll probably find it out after you’ve gotten used to your new normal. because that’s what usually happens, that’s what you’re so familiar with that it scares you when it doesn’t happen. like a planned trip you’re excited for getting canceled or crying to sleep on your special day, or getting an awfully dry response for something you thought you’d get praises for. that’s what you were used to, getting disappointment after experiencing a trifling taste of happiness. so used that even the hurt you felt, felt normal.
it was three in the afternoon, a monday of January: the month symbolic of beginnings and change, when it all started. when the door to change opened. when his door opened.
seated in one of the chairs in the corridor, you were waiting for your turn. you were supposed to get your braces of painful four years removed a while ago. but due to unknown reasons, reasons you weren’t told of by your mother, your assigned dentist had moved cities resulting in you changing your appointment to your oh so captivating neighbor you harboured a crush on, park jay; or jay park as it said on the residents plate on the black wall near the entrance of the apartment building.
building 4 - 13th floor, apartment 1309: dr.jay park. two doors away from yours.
all you had known was that he was new to the city, having overheard your parents talking about bumping into him on their way to work one of the days and how much of a polite man he was. and in all honesty the word ‘man’ just seemed to give you an univitingly repulsive feeling. you hadn’t even seen him yet you already hated him. but that was before you had seen him okay?
you clearly remember the beating of your heart the day you entered the elevator to find him inside, pressing on the 'door open’ button for you as you rushed in. panting while you took discrete peeks at his features from the corner of your eyes. and how it fastened even more when you saw him sign his name on the time in and out register at the front desk. the thought- so that’s him, crossing your mind as you took an obscure glimpse of him walking to his car. oddly enough, though you were getting late that day, for some reason you still stood in a corner to watch him drive away. and when the next morning you found yourself waiting a second longer in the elevator for him, you knew you were developing a certain liking for the ’man’; or to be more specific, a crush who would turn your life upside down.
hi im so sorry im ia here school sucks and changed schools its being very difficult lol so yeah so sorry :( im gonna hav a lil hiatus but im coming back soon !!!!!!
𑁍 what do you do when you’ve been secretly in love with your best friend for six years and can’t seem to get over him? you overshare online, duh! what do you do when said best friend reads those posts about him online like it’s the morning newspaper? well, let’s see how this big mess plays out.
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a/n: sorry for the long wait ): y/n sounding like a #brocken record atp
☆.｡.:* as an idol, you have a myriad of responsibilities. among these are maintaining a good image and pleasing the fans, having a stan twt acc? maybe not so much. not that you and sunoo are admitting to anything. then again, you don’t exactly expect to find each other as fan accs undercover and you equally don’t expect to start catching feelings.
note: im sorry for disappearing after that last update LMAOOO but i’m back now !!
☆.｡.:* as an idol, you have a myriad of responsibilities. among these are maintaining a good image and pleasing the fans, having a stan twt acc? maybe not so much. not that you and sunoo are admitting to anything. then again, you don’t exactly expect to find each other as fan accs undercover and you equally don’t expect to start catching feelings.
note: im sorry for disappearing after that last update LMAOOO but i’m back now !!
mc enemiez! ( ✶ ) chapter 30 : busted // don’t forget to read the written and social media chapter below! // word count : 1.3k
⸝⸝ SYNOPSIS 𐪆 despite jungwon being a #humble leader, he was kinda salty about the fact that his almighty title of the “youngest leader in k-pop” has been taken by blackpink’s brand new juniors. the world goes against jungwon’s wishes in staying as far away from her as possible when they both end up being the new mcs for ‘the show’. ₊˚✸ ༘
warning : literally one (1) swear word 😭
sneaking out of his company was never what sunghoon thought his day would turn out to be.
however, here he was responding to silly remarks the old taxi driver had to say after noticing his not so subtle disguise.
more of the story below!
to cut the glitch :')
“you’re not some k-pop idol are you?”
“with that kind of get-up, you can be anything!”
“my daughter loves bts. do you know bts?”
after a lengthy drive with an abnormally talkative taxi driver, sunghoon had finally reached his destination.
the yg building.
jungwon was right, it did look like a robot pooped on it.
speaking of jungwon, he didn’t look so good when sunghoon saw him last.
just the thought of jungwon walking around with swollen eyes and a pale face made sunghoon’s heart hurt.
the boy didn’t look like himself to the point that sunoo told riki that jungwon turned into a zombie and their youngest seemed to have fallen for it.
jungwon really did love y/n, sunghoon was just too dumb to not realize his true feelings sooner.
sunghoon walked into the yg building so casually, even security thought he was one of the artists.
it was all going to plan, jake's plan, of course. jake seemed to always be one step ahead.
step one. apologize to jungwon
step two. enter yg building and explain to yn that jungwon deserves her.
oh shit, he forgot step one.
with that, his entire fake ‘yg aura’ had fizzled out and everyone began to find him suspicious.
he rushed into the nearly closing elevator and pressed a random floor number, hoping it was where arcane was practicing.
it didn’t help that the staff next to him had a stone cold face and was at least 6-feet tall.
“you’re breathing very loudly.” he said to sunghoon while staring straight at the elevators doors.
“i- ahem- i’m sorry!” sunghoon responded with an obvious fake deep voice.
the man glanced at sunghoon before putting down the hood and sunglasses he was wearing as a disguise.
he examined sunghoon one last time, squinting really closely as if he’s trying to see if sunghoon was an idol from his company or not.
“you’re not from here.”
“y-yes i… i know that…”
“what are you doing here? didn’t the security double check?”
“i… i’m park sunghoon! sunghoon from enhypen… i… i’m trying to talk to a friend.”
“this friend is..? anyone from treasure?”
“no! uh.. arcane… y/n? y/n from arcane, yeah!”
ding!
“oh, ding! that must be my floor. haha.. i guess i should get going…”
“this isn’t where arcane’s practice room is. i’ll take you there.” the man said once again before pressing on one of the many elevator buttons.
as the elevator went up, sunghoon couldn’t help but feel embarrassed at his panicked state with the man next to him.
he couldn’t help it though as the man could probably step on him like an ant.
“you dating her? she’s not allowed to date.”
“who?”
the man stared sunghoon as if he was going to suck the poor boy’s soul out of his body.
“ah.. y/n… uh, no. i just needed to tell her something.”
“you couldn’t call or text her?”
“no, it’s sort of important.”
after a silent nod from the man, the awkward 30 seconds of just standing in a silent elevator has begun.
ding!
all the relief sunghoon felt when he heard that ding. it felt as if he just got called into the debut team again.
sunghoon thought that the man would have told him the way and left. unfortunately for him, the man decided to lead him towards a hallway.
the music seemed to be getting louder and louder, indicating that they seemed to be getting closer to arcane’s practice room.
you immediately turned off the music you were playing once you saw the door opening, revealing your manager whose head just peeped inside.
“you have a visitor.”
“oh? i wasn’t expecting anyone today.”
your manager's head went back out, possibly because he was going to talk to your visitor.
“he insists.”
you look around to inspect your somewhat messy practice room before ultimately agreeing to bring the visitor in without thinking much of it.
sunghoon awkwardly walks into the room while your face falls into a somewhat disappointed and upset look.
“sunghoon, i thought i told you i don’t like you that way.”
“yes! it’s not about me… it’s about jungwon, actually.”
just the mention of his name made your stomach drop. you weren’t sure how good or bad this conversation was going to turn out with jungwon as the topic.
“what about him.”
“i just want to get this out of the way now but i don’t like you anymore.”
ouch.
you crossed your arms, nodding while thinking about whatever you might have done wrong that day.
“no! i mean, like like you anymore… i sort of realized that after our fight. well- more like my fight with jungwon but you know what i mean.”
“oh… so how is he?”
“jungwon? he’s been miserable this week.”
“he has?” you asked with a small smile creeping from his face.
you tried your best to wipe that smile off your face without sunghoon noticing but unfortunately for you, he most definitely did.
he let out a soft laugh before walking over to nudge you a little.
“you’re crazy. why are you smiling like that?”
“like what? i’m not smiling!”
“do you enjoy the fact that jungwon has been miserable this week because of you?”
“hm… it sounds kind of nice.”
after some of the laughter and playing around fizzled out, sunghoon began speaking again.
“you know, jungwon likes you a lot. hell, he probably even loves you. i’m just saying, give him a chance. he's crazy for you.”
“i’m not sure…” you say, sitting down in the middle of your practice room with sunghoon following suit.
you rested your arms and chin on your knees as sunghoon began to explain why exactly you should be with jungwon,
“if i were you, i’d be very sure. i watched jungwon suffer for a week and i don’t want to continue watching him live like this anymore. honestly, we all want our old won back and our old won was happiest whenever he was with you. we hate crying zombie looking jungwon… he sleeps in between jay and jakes beds, only gets up for schedules, and only eats when jay does the airplanes so that he could stop.”
“he’s been crying..? because of me?”
you look at him after he pauses for a few seconds to think before ultimately nodding.
“probably crying right now.” he responds to you as if it was something he got used to.
“but he shouldn’t be crying because of me…”
“he misses you a lot. haven’t you been doing the same?”
“i mean i cried after we met last week, especially after we mced together but after that my members sort of tried helping me forget and get over him.”
“wait… so you got over him?”
“i said they tried. how could i get over jungwon in a week
when i probably like him even more than he likes me?”
“that’s impossible. the boy is mad for you, he loves you more than he loves his dog, possibly his mom too!”
“please don’t say that he loves me more than he loves his mom.”
“he probably does…”
“okay, fine! i’ll think about it and talk to my members about it… maybe jungwon doesn’t have to be so miserable tomorrow…”
you and sunghoon talked about jungwon for hours that maybe the boy even sneezed three times during this duration.
sunghoon came home feeling confident and successful after basically sales pitching his group's leader to you.
maybe jungwon really doesn’t have to be miserable tomorrow but now, sunghoon could only hope.
jake’s plan was going smoothly, except for the fact that sunghoon forgot about step one and then got busted by both the yg and hybe staff.
this was all jake’s fault... okay, and maybe a little bit of his too.
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⸝⸝ NOTE 𐪆 sorry for the late update 😭 more 02z and ynhoon for u all today && happy 30th update!
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