i'm blue (da ba dee)

still here, still queer, only a little haunted by existential fear | they/them; would love to understand why I'm almost 30 and still on tumblr

[paper-wounds]

[havingapoemwithyou]

Advice from a caterpillar by Amy Gerstler

[signedthemoon]

— isa b. this survival hasn't been soft

[indigosfindings]

"i look forward to hearing back" implies a beautiful world that runs on sense-direction combinations. i smell sideways to tasting up. i palpate inwards to listening diagonal, so that i can hunger clockwise

[costanzian]

Undulates anguilliformly at you to confuse and threaten you with my highly maneuverable body

[costanzian]

[targetedknowledge]

[achillesinhighheels]

[nekoning]

the use of AI lately has made me feel so hopeless, i translated pages of an unfinished fanzine of mine so i can remember why i love art...i hope it can resonate with anyone feeling the same way

[caydencrypted]

the wisdom ive learnt is that becoming part of a friend group 1) takes a long time and 2) involves a lot of feeling awkward and left out at first. there’s nothing terrible about this but if you grew up chronically lonely or have any kind of trauma relating to social isolation this likely feels Really Wrong and activates danger signals. but both fortunately and unfortunately it’s just how becoming close to new people works most of the time

[caydencrypted]

another thing that was not intuitive to me as someone who grew up an autistic loner: basically everyone on the planet is starved for connection all the time and almost everything people do is an attempt to reach out to another. most seemingly illogical interactions and behaviours can be explained by this. you have to take as many of these invitations as you can. even if you're wrong you still attempted to bring more warmth into the world

[pnglove]

© kitagar

[everythingfox]

Really enjoying the scritches

[icarus-suraki]

[itisiives]

[ilovedirt]

[catcrumb]

[amanaci]

everybody look at my cat being scuncht about it

[chilewithcarnage]

no amount of budgeting will make up for the fact that we simply do not make enough money

[raddagher]

no amount of therapy will make up for the fact that we simply do not make enough money

[moss-wizard]

no amount of working will make up for the fact that we simply do not make enough money

[goldensunset]

advice i think we should tell children is that when adults say stuff like ‘now that i’m an adult i get really excited about stuff like coffee tables and bathrooms and rugs etc’ they don’t mean ‘and now i don’t care about blorbo and squimbus from my childhood tv shows anymore’ bc your average adult still loves all the same pop culture stuff they always did; they just have a greater appreciation for the mundane as well. growing up just means you can enjoy life twice as much now. you can get really excited about a new stuffed animal AND about a new kitchen sponge. peace and love

[concerningwolves]

You get bigger so you can store even MORE love and appreciation for the world inside of you

[monsieurenjlolras]

It means you'll be at the antique mall looking at a coffee table and thinking "blorbo and Squimbus would LOVE this coffee table"

[soracities]

when e.e. cummings said “i’ll live my life if it kills me”

[softspringsolace]

when andrea gibson said “i suppose i love this life, in spite of my clenched fist.” & when ellen bass said “to love life, to love it even when you have no stomach for it”

[typewriter-worries]

when james baldwin said, “this is why one must say yes to life and embrace it wherever it is found-and it is found in terrible places; nevertheless, there it is;”

[queerpontmercy]

when Mary Oliver said “it is a serious thing / just to be alive / on this fresh morning / in this broken world”

[wizardarchetypes]

i love poison control. one time i was eating soup and i found glass in it (??? we to this day have no idea how) and i called them like "i might've swallowed a lot of glass" and they were like "without noticing?" and i was like "the pieces were small and i wasn't chewing because it was soup" and they said "oh what kind of soup?" and i said "butternut squash. i made it!" and they said, "did you...put the glass in there?"

[wizardarchetypes]

the melee hotline number was busy