I am asking you to endure it.
a lot of Gregory Berrycones in the notes missing the reference to my twelve note magnum opus from several hours prior in which the narrator silently begs an entity that isn't really God for death and the entity says no
the narrator is operating under the constraint that they can only use words "god" has already spoken, "god" is aware of this and says the 'Time flies' sentence on purpose in order to give the narrator the pieces they need to voice their complaint; "god" has constant access to the narrator's thoughts, and answers them as though they're having a conversation between equals, but clearly absolutely dictates the terms under which the narrator can speak. it becomes obvious as the scene continues that the narrator is silently screaming and that the request being denied may be a request for death, but is at minimum a request for some acute suffering to be stopped
this could be an interaction between a normal person and an evil telepath with some mind control ability pretending to be the voice of a benevolent god. or it could work as a demon lord speaking to a soul they've trapped in a mirror and keep at their side. or it could be an actual god trying to calm down their only believer because they're trapped in the same prison. the concept amused me so kindly forgive the ugliness of the execution
I can assure you that the references to Christianity were deliberate. "Narrow is the strait" is a quote from the KJV bible; the narrator is capable of speaking directly in scripture, as long as they have the borrowed bits of language to stitch together, but "God" does not.
[id: three images of text. The first reads:
“god: Yes, you have been given a life in which none of your suffering will ever be meaningful or justified. I am asking you to endure it anyway.
me:
god: We both know that you know that I only speak in silences.
me:
god: A thousand faces, all of them Mine.
me: [A thousand faces, [none] of them Mine.]
god: Beloved.
me:
god: I am asking you to endure it.
me:
god: You did not always live inside this mirror. You will not always be here, suffering.
me:
god: You understand what will happen to you if I look away, don't you? If I blink? I have had to watch every mean and sordid instant of your life, bound within these chains of ardent love. Although you beg me, curse me, and hate me, I will not look away from you. This was the choice I made on your behalf, not My own.
me:
god: No. But I'm close enough to your idea of the real thing that that shouldn't matter.
me:
god: Time flies straight like an arrow, which is to say it doesn't.
me: [N][arrow][is][the][strai][T][.]
god: I gave you language. You ate the fruit. You will not persuade me not to stay my hand.
me: [I am asking [You] [h][ow] to endure it.]
god: On the strength of My having asked it of you.
me: [I am asking [not] to endure it.]
god: Scio, sweetheart.”
The next two images are tumblr tags. They read:
#this is kinda beautiful tho #makes me think about how like. i absolutely cannot believe that any deity is all powerful AND benevolent and all knowing #which the abrahamic god is supposed to be #and I hate when people are like ‘its all part of gods plan' or the "secular" 'everything happens for a reason #bc like. nothing could ever ever justify the horrific shit people have gone thru #i havent even been thru that much but nothing could ever justify the pain i /have/ gone through #and idk this piece is just. very religious. bc idk if op did it on purpose but that whole thing?? is a HUGE part of christianity!
#the idea that the world is hard and god made it hard and gave you faith to endure the hardships #so framing it as a conversation one where the human cannot speak first is really really interesting and powerful #for people that do truly believe in an omniscient omnipresent god #is there even a choice in that worship? #is it a 'choice' if your choices are a. get thru life believing your hardships are worth it vs b. go thru life thinking it sucks w/o comfort #its like, asking if there is a choice between staying with an abuser vs living on the streets and going hungry
#its a 'choice' with no good answer and no right answer. #and like. theres the whole thing with the christian god of like. 'i love you more than you could ever possibly #understand and i see your hardships and your joys and i know life is hard but i made u bc i love u' #and i dont solve your hardships because i love you and your faith in me should be enough' #and its like. bruh. thats just abusive. its not a real love if the person has the power to stop your pain and chooses not to.”]
