I go back on my social media and see how I’ve changed. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally too. There’s a lot of differences in my life in the span of just 4 years. Some in just 1 year. Changes that I never thought would happen weather good or bad.
I used to not know what my style is, now I do.
I used to not have the best work ethic, now I rarely call off and bust my ass.
I don’t rent where I live anymore, I own it. Me, myself, and I.
I used to be on my phone constantly, now I’m barely on any electronics at all.
I used to not keep my place all that tidy, now I’m a huge OCD clean freak. I get stressed out if my place is a mess (not so much my car), probably because where I live now is my own.
I used to go out and party a lot, now I’d rather stay at home and enjoy my own at home paradise with a drink in my hand. (I prefer games nights or house parties anymore).
I used to have relationships that wouldn’t only last 3-5 months, but only because no one would put up with how needy and emotionally immature I was. Not to mention I was too naive to realize I was being played when a girl would tell me “ You’re just too good for me, I need to work on myself to be good enough for someone like you.”
I used to not confront anyone on their bullshit, now I’m a lot more blunt and I don’t beat around the bush like I used to.
I used to walk around with a smile on my face and everyone would say hi to me, now I’m told I have a resting bitch face and I’m intimidating to talk to because I look pissed… what can I say, life’s a bitch.
I worked in customer service since I was 18, but almost 4 years ago now I’ve worked in the highest paying and nicest distribution center in my area. I got employee of the month with my own parking spot and a bonus check.
I’ve learned that it’s not how many friends you have, but the quality of friends you have.
I went from loving to be around of people, to not wanting to be around people hardly at all. (Maybe it’s from depression 😂).
I went from taking shit from my dad, to calling him out when he talks to me in a disrespectful way.
I have been in a relationship for 2 years instead of 2 months, and have taken on a parenting role to a 6 year old (which is why I probably found a gray hair).
Im thankful every day for all the people who have been in my life weather it be people who have broken my heart, or lifted me up. Without all the heartache and heartbreak.. without all the things that have happened to me, I wouldn’t be who I am today. There are still people I think about who have brought my heart pain and brought my heart love. The only thing that I’m not thankful for.. is how cold my heart has become.. even to those closest to me. I hope one day my heart will warm up to feel the good things that have been brought to my life. But until them, I’ll just try to continue to succeed at life.
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