Currently burning in rarepair hell

A hot disaster (nsfw) multishipping fanfic writer

[middleofnowhere92]

*logs back into ao3 to read smut

*inbox has over 100 comments asking when I'm going to finish writing my own smut

[middleofnowhere92]

I have been off on very questionable side quests instead of working on my fics.

*This post contains adult content*

I went to a sex dungeon for the first time ever in my life. WHAT A RIDE YOU GUYS. I had a panic attack the whole drive there and just kept telling myself I could use it in a fic, so I guess I have to write about it now?

I live in the southern US and this dungeon is out in the middle of nowhere. Like the only other things around it were dollar stores, gas stations, a bait and tackle shop and a catfish restaurant.

So this increased my panicking, because I'm a brown queer person that doesn't want to die in a sex dungeon in the middle of fucking nowhere and I pull up to the place and there's people in line and it's all older white people and the panic is just increasing.

It should be noted I was there for a demo and because I made a friend and they talked me into going. So I knew in advance nothing too sexual would be happening, but still.

My friend overslept and showed up a half hour late, but I still went in on time, because I hate being late. And slowly but surely more brown people and younger people arrived, thank god.

A dom approached me and wanted to interact with me, but I said no, because I was already nervous out of my skin and didn't need any added pressure.

Once my friend showed up, it was a lot more fun and I relaxed. It was educational and a good learning experience for me.

My friend wants to go back for another event, but I just don't think I'm interested. Am I into kink? Yes. Do I want to see others engaged in kink in a dinky sex dungeon? No....

Will I eventually throw this into a fic? I hope so. Until then, I'll be doing more side quests.

[middleofnowhere92]

Me, a brown queer kid, moved to rural, backwoods Louisiana when I finished school, because I was offered a job that paid well. I was the first person in my family to ever move away, let alone move across the country. It was terrifying, but I grew up poor and I wanted that God damn paycheck. I thought the people would treat me like shit and some of them did. But I was surprised when most of my older coworkers just decided I was like family to them.

One of my coworkers, Miss Wanda, was close to retiring when I started. She'd come by my office every day to shoot the shit. My office had big front windows and we'd stand there and oogle hot fire fighters when they walked by.

I helped her with her retirement paperwork even though I wasn't supposed to. I was supposed to tell her to call the 800 number, but that paperwork is confusing as shit so I helped her anyway.

On her last day she brought me a lunchbag with my name embroidered on it. I have a weird name and have never had anything with my name on it and she embroidered it by hand for me.

We kept in touch after she retired just sending random messages.

I checked Facebook this morning to see that she had passed away.

I didn't expect to be emotionally fucking gutted today. God.

[middleofnowhere92]

Friends, for *research purposes* I need book/fic/ship recommendations where it's the popular/bitchy girl that falls for the quiet/shy/awkward metalhead/emo kid/punk/goth/nerd.

Booktok just recommends hockey player/ceos/muscled villains, like no baby give me the sidekick that's funny and awkward as hell.

[middleofnowhere92]

glad to know you would ship shadamy then (shadow and amy rose from sonic) lol

I just googled the ship took a look at the first few results and-

[middleofnowhere92]

I will always ship the morally grey character with the pink character 💗 (usually with a bit of an age gap 😬)

[kitausuret]

Write fanfic for yourself.

Publish fanfic for the rotation of 3-6 people who are devoted readers and will either go feral or leave you very nice words and yell with you about it.

[redheadspark]

Thank you to those specific mutuals who do this with my work. you don't know how much it means to me :)

[bluberry-spicehead-deactivated2]

do you think friendships can last more than one fandom 

[godlessondheimite]

[thatoneguy56fanfic]

Me: “I love this character so much!”

Also me: *is very mean to that same character in my writing*

[scorpihobitch]

I think Billy and Tina would be cute and fun. The girl whose party he went to and she dressed like Madonna from Like A Virgin cheering for him after Keg King? She was also the first character to say something about him when he first appeared.

Anon your MIND!!! Is ELITE. It is PERFECTION. Billy and Tina smoking behind the English block at school? Hanging out to exchange cassette tapes? Shooting shit at the quarry together, crashing everyone’s parties? I think I love you, anon.

[middleofnowhere92]

My hand slipped and I ended up writing Tina x Eddie with Billy as her very bitchy best friend and I just couldn't help it.

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

[middleofnowhere92]

I think I'm too old and curmudgeonly to write high school or college AUs. I have no idea what's going on with the kids these days and I'm too old to care to figure it out.

[middleofnowhere92]

atla right back atcha~

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most) It's always been Zuko for me.

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped). Ty Lee is just so *CUTE*

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave) HARU!

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week) Jet my beloved

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave) I wish I had a better answer than Zhao, but here we are

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason) I thought Sokka was this for everyone. I torment him only because I love him.

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell) The old man that fucked up Haru, like bruh

[shieldofiron]

And a bonus…

[shieldofiron]

Jason’s upset and turned on all at once.

[middleofnowhere92]

I float from fandom to fandom, ship to ship and I just floated back to ATLA and I'm like traumatized by the lack of Top Zuko/Dom Zuko content, so I'm like ah, I need to retraumatize this fandom by adding to this sadly lacking area. At first I was thinking I have to write sokka/zuko, because there's like 234 top Sokka fics for every 1 top Zuko fic and it just drives me fucking bananas, but I couldn't think of a prompt, so then I'm trying to match Zuko up with someone and my brain is flipping through ships trying to find the right pairing and I've finally settled on Zuko x Yue, but I can't quite think of how they start or how they meet. Like modern AU? And then my brain just really fumbles from there, but I will avenge Top/Dom Zuko and no one can stop me.

[inktheblot]

Send me a fandom and I’ll tell you my:

blorbo (favorite character, character I think about the most)

scrunkly (my “baby”, character that gives me cuteness aggression, character that is So Shaped)

scrimblo bimblo (underrated/underappreciated fave)

glup shitto (obscure fave, character that can appear in the background for 0.2 seconds and I won’t shut up about it for a week)

poor little meow meow (“problematic”/unpopular/controversial/otherwise pathetic fave)

horse plinko (character I would torment for fun, for whatever reason)

eeby deeby (character I would send to superhell)