Min is fighting her anxiety.
Anxiety anxiety anxiety.
Mental disorders.
Iām gonna overcome all of it.
Itās true Iāve been dragging this for 4 years, but I will not let it dictate my life nor ruin it. Iām going to fight it till the end. It will surely take time, but iām getting way better. The only problem I have is my fast heartbeat ><, but I know itās just a way for my brain to tell me that somethingāsĀ āwrongā. But soon, there wonāt be anything wrong. Soon, all of this will be part of my past.
I love myself. I love myself so fucking much. I have so much pride. I will never let myself lose to...well, myself.Ā
Itās only normal for me to be in my current situation. Iāve spent my whole life stressing out because of school. Iāve had such an unhealthy way of life. Since high school, Iāve spent nearly every day drowning in self-hatred, locked up in my room. I was raised to be an introvert. But I will no longer be. Iām gonna overcome all of this. And I will face every single obstacle in my life.Ā
My heart is beating fast? well, itās because of my brain. Itās all in my head.Ā
Itās true that this runs in my genes. All of dadās family suffers from anxiety and mental disorders in general. BUT SHIT. IM NOT GONNA LET THEM DO THIS TO ME.Ā
I have every single fucking right on Earth to love myself lol. Iām so pretty tbarkllah. Iām cute, Iām so smart, Iām nice, Iām creative, I have soooooo many skills when it comes to dealing with people actually lmao. Itās soooo ironic for someone whoās been dealing with social anxiety for so long.
But guess what??? I participate in class, I discuss things with people and with my teachers. Iām not that afraid of meeting people anymore. And iāll keep exposing myself until it will become a pleasure for me to give talks etc etc.
I deserve better. People who mistreat me will see and will regret it. I will not let you look down on me. Have you seen what I went through???? do you know how it feels to lose control over your own body, call your mom and tell herĀ āif i donāt leave this place i will throw myself out of a window, i canāt control my body, helpā. Have you experienced not sleeping nor eating for almost three days in a row??? If you knew all the things I achieved in 6 months...Iām a fucking warrior lmao.
Now I play karatĆ© (and aaaa i love my senpais so much), I still study engineering lhamdullah, I have friends like ????omg????? friendsssssss????, I have soooo many boys trying to have their ways with me lmao, Iām super religious, I have my family, I have money, like god i have everything.
I will get over this. I will never give up. No matter how hard it is. I will never ever give up.
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