mila

[letsmakeitwritee]

sylvia plath once wrote in her journal 'if i get through this year, no matter how badly, it will be the biggest victory i've ever done' and if that's not a mood for 2020 i don't know what is.

[cerceos-deactivated20160308]

[77ms]

[heartstringsandbrokenthings]

I stopped believing in the idea of soulmates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were. But because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together. —LK

S //

[craved-deactivated20230908]

“No, I’m not ok. But I haven’t been ok since I was 11, maybe 12. I am still here though. I’m still breathing. For me, sometimes, that will have to be enough.”

— Clementine von Radics (via quotemadness)

[sicko-like-me]

My tears slowly turn into rain

And my heart gets soaked

[thepartsyoullneversee]

"I don't wanna die, but this don't feel like living either"

- Sam Tompkins; Follow suit

[justapeiceofshit]

[saahlo-folinaa]

Sitting outside of my psychiatrist’s office, I am practicing what I’m going to say to him. Just like I did the entire drive here. How do I tell him my anxiety has gotten worse without him wanting to try different meds like I’m some sort of guinea pig. Or will he just give up on me entirely? I have tried countless medications and every single one of them have failed me time and time again. I’m so fucking scared all the time. I just want it to stop. I want it all to stop.

[philsbigduck-deactivated2021120]

if you are in these tags, i just wanna say something real quick

i’m so proud of you! you’ve been working so hard for a long time and people aren’t giving you the recognition you deserve.

i’m so sorry you’re in this place. you don’t deserve to be sad. you hold so much worth for just existing.

you’re allowed to be sad! a lot of suffering comes from being upset that we’re sad which makes us sadder. it’s a cycle. just be okay with not being okay.

you aren’t broken. i know it feels like you’re existence is just wrong. like you are a broken person. you are good. you aren’t broken.

relapse is normal. if you’re relapsing right now, it’s normal. in fact, it would be abnormal if you didn’t relapse.

take your time: there’s no race. pushing yourself to do something will just have opposite effect. whether you need to be sad for a week or a year, it’s okay.

just keep sticking around: i won’t say “it gets better” or “just try to be happy” or something like that because i know it doesn’t help. i know things are awful now and things seem to continue like that forever. whether or not you believe things will or won’t get better, just please stick around to see.

i am proud of you!

[saahlo-folinaa]

It’s like I’m carrying around this weight and everyday another pound gets added to it. Eventually, my body become weak and my only option is to lie down until I can find my strength again. But, when I go to pick it up again, it is twice as heavy. Nearly impossible to carry. Yet, I try. I make it a few steps till I’m forced to lay back down. I do this over and over until I can’t do it anymore. So I stay in bed and simply hope one day the weight won’t be as heavy.

explaining my depression and anxiety to my parents

[dprssdbtwlldrssd]

You didn’t believe me when I said I’m sad. You didn’t believe me when I said I’m stressed. When I said I feel alone. Depressed. Suicidal.

You didn’t notice anything for YEARS.

But I broke down infront of a professional. I had a panic attack with a medic. I started shaking and crying and nothing would help.

And suddenly I never told you about anything.

[magicducky420]

I could never tell her...

[exodusx]

[the-suicide-effect]

"I wish I had an answer to why I'm this sad"

- the suicide effect

[marvel-and-depression]

I showed so many signs and never understood why no one saw I was struggling

What I didn’t realize was that no one ever actually cared.

[prone-to-suicidal-tendencies]