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[milkyt4n]

Disclaimer: Nothing I post is for shock value and I do not condone any kind of harm. If it's gore, it's because I'm interested in medicine, anatomy and vulture culture. If it's sexual, it's from legal kink between consenting adults.

𝖆𝖇𝖔𝖚𝖙 𝖒𝖊

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25+ • Dutch I'm pro-recovery, just not in it myself. I may talk openly about my mental health here so tw for subjects like sh and sui. I'm not going to moderate who can and can't follow me but this blog isn't appropriate for minors, please keep that in mind.

self harm info posts • my thoughts • things I made • sh archive (tw graphic)

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I am not a medical professional, each body is different and it's always best to ask your doctor.

[milkyt4n]

Some toxic sh thoughts

This is not okay to think and I hate that my brain is nagging about it but you ever come across somebody saying they cut to a certain depth/through some certain structure and then they include pics and it's a cut to dermis that doesn't gape at all but you know would do so if their claim is true and you just sit there like nuh uh.

Ik I shouldn't give thoughts like that the time and bruh it's not your body you can't tell, those cuts are gonna look different on everybody. It's a really stupid take.

I do wonder if other people are like this too or I am just a bad egg. Do more people feel these shitty gatekeepy thoughts? So much stuff in my head goes directly against my own morals and view of the world. Wish I could shut it up. I don't want to be a bad person.

Reminded of an interaction I had back on shtwt. Where I commented on a moot about how they wouldn't be talking this way if they had truly experienced the full scope of consequences of this and some kid swore that they already had and they were still pro-sh... Sorry but you don't know what I'm on about. In my shoes I can guarantee everybody they would see just how stupid that pro-sh bullshit is. You can't romanticise away the edema, sagged wrinkles and disgusting wound goop. You can't romanticise away the fluid issue it gave me and the impact this has on everything. You can't romanticise away that all of it just really doesn't matter. The only reason you romanticise that shit is because you haven't experienced the full extent of this bullshit yet as much as you want to share up and down you have. Especially not when you haven't experienced yet what this is like as an independent adult and all stressors of daily life combined with this bullshit.

[pup-purgatory]

via

[milkyt4n]

By jssutt

Skulls from those slain at one of the killing fields in Cambodia

[milkyt4n]

ffffffffhhhhhuuuuuuuccckkkkk I would like to not be invisible

Or if I must be at least make it a superpower so I can rob banks

[pup-purgatory]

[s1ck-pup]

[milkyt4n]

Just so you know, the tool doesn't matter.

Not saying that to be pro-sh or gatekeeping or whatever, but it's all in your head. Don't waste your money on a certain tool, it will not make your sh worse because what is stopping you from getting worse is mostly healthy self preservation that's hardwired into us as a living organism in this world. The sharpest blade won't enable you to get to bone in a swipe. Save your money for something fun instead. People who tell you a certain tool will make you go deeper are full of it.

[milkyt4n]

[morxwar]

[rebelculture]

[pmamtraveller]

Sadan Vague - 'Twisted Trinity'

[1o9]

[milkyt4n]

Sometimes I wish I wasn't this fat so I could get to things easier. I feel if all this fat wasn't in the way I would've gotten to my abdominal wall already. I just need to see it.

I always felt my sh wasn't as bad as others because it looks more dramatic because of the thick fat layer I have everywhere. It makes the gape look more dramatic. I guess if I had to be reasonable I'd say that I still hit certain layers anyway and that makes it as bad as less fat people hitting those layers but my brain just says no and I'm automatically silly and exaggerating because I'm so fat so my sh isn't as "significant" as that of others.

Granted if it wasn't the fat I'd have some other stupid reason why it isn't the same but whatever.

[redsel]

i have a lot of wrong ideas in my head

[7pleiades7]

Saint Gaspar del Bufalo Interceding for the Souls in Purgatory, (Detail), (2016), by Giovanni Gasparro (Italian, born 1983), oil on canvas, 200 x 104 cm, Chiesa di Santa Maria in Trivio, Rome

[knebellindemann]

Man of Sorrows (c. 1460) by Simon Marmion