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tumblr was designed in a lab to be a personal purgatory for ppl with moral ocd i think
some moral ocd haver with 4 followers: hmmm.... i dont know... saying puppies dont deserved to be kicked seems kind of risky. what if im not as well-spoken as i think and people misunderstand me and think im actually pro puppies getting kicked? maybe this can just stay in the drafts. i dont want to come off as an deplorable force of evil
My drafts have drafts
What's the point in showering,
when I have never felt clean enough?
I was baptized,
and I felt nothing.
Some disabled people kindly make big posts explaining their disability and what qualifies for someone to identify as having that disability. I especially see this for physical disability where someone wonders if their differences qualify as a disability. Then the disabled person ends their post with 'DO NOT ask if your situation counts."
That's ableist. I get that you just put a ton of effort into spelling it out and you can't imagine what could possibly be unclear, so if someone is asking it's probably because they don't qualify but they're trying to make their minor issue into a reason to be part of your community. I get it. But.
But people with an intellectual disability may need more clarification even when you have spelled it out. Autistic people may get caught up in some technical detail and may be unable to recognize that the detail doesn't matter and that they're missing the point. People with moral/scrupulosity OCD may need the ease of being told outright whether they qualify instead of having to make that decision themselves and having to decide whether they are making the right decision.
Maybe tell them that you don't have the energy to take those sorts of questions but if they post on your community's tags someone else will? IDK. I don't expect anyone to give more than they can give but it's very hurtful to be told that questions aren't allowed.
Just to clarify, it's completely reasonable to say that you can't diagnose or that only a doctor can be sure or anything like that. This is only about telling people that they aren't allowed to ask questions about their situation. And again, if you don't have the energy please ask them to ask someone else in your community instead of you.
Good point! Thank you for adding this! I didn't think of this and I wish I did. I edited my original post to reflect it.
ocd is so ??? like yeah i’m really stressed and it’s ruining my ability to function. what am i stressed about? oh i can’t tell you because that’ll make it ten times worse
Life-changing OCD hack is learning that you can literally call poison control to check if you fucked up and took medications wrong in a way that could kill you instead of having a panic attack while reading reddit and quora threads for an hour. They won't even be mad at you. Like obviously don't do it every day or something but genuinely you can do this if you need to
Some disabled people kindly make big posts explaining their disability and what qualifies for someone to identify as having that disability. I especially see this for physical disability where someone wonders if their differences qualify as a disability. Then the disabled person ends their post with 'DO NOT ask if your situation counts."
That's ableist. I get that you just put a ton of effort into spelling it out and you can't imagine what could possibly be unclear, so if someone is asking it's probably because they don't qualify but they're trying to make their minor issue into a reason to be part of your community. I get it. But.
But people with an intellectual disability may need more clarification even when you have spelled it out. Autistic people may get caught up in some technical detail and may be unable to recognize that the detail doesn't matter and that they're missing the point. People with moral/scrupulosity OCD may need the ease of being told outright whether they qualify instead of having to make that decision themselves and having to decide whether they are making the right decision.
Maybe tell them that you don't have the energy to take those sorts of questions but if they post on your community's tags someone else will? IDK. I don't expect anyone to give more than they can give but it's very hurtful to be told that questions aren't allowed.
Just to clarify, it's completely reasonable to say that you can't diagnose or that only a doctor can be sure or anything like that. This is only about telling people that they aren't allowed to ask questions about their situation. And again, if you don't have the energy please ask them to ask someone else in your community instead of you.
There is a comfort in consuming sad gut wrenching media when you're at your lowest , it's like sadness was meant for me
what abled ppl think is a massive problem for disabled folks: 13 year old on the internet faking something
what is actually a massive problem for disabled folks: "well you don't LOOK disabled, are you sure you're not faking? I'm not giving you accommodations until you PROVE you're not faking. Please give me, a stranger, your medical info and explain your condition to me in detail so I know you're not faking and only then will I respect or take you seriously"
Absolutely real. When I was 12, I started noticing that I had ALL THE SYMPTOMS OF SEVERE OCD. I told a friend in my middle school about it, and all they said was, "You should really stop looking at that stuff." I stopped talking about it, since I figured it wasn't worth mentioning again.
I let my symptoms worsen to the point where all I could do were my compulsions- literally. I couldn't sleep, eat, do homework, anything. And my sleep deprivation only made my mind worse. I started developing symptoms of psychosis along with OCD.
My mom, realizing something was really wrong with me, took me to a therapist. The therapist IMMEDIATELY clocked that I had OCD. I wasn't surprised, it was relieving really, but I was definitely upset at everyone who shut me down and denied denied denied.
If someone self diagnoses, it's likely because they don't have the means to get a proper diagnosis. Coming from someone who's now in college studying psychology, please treat people who self diagnose or say they have a specific disorder seriously. Even if they end up not actually having the disorder, they're likely to end up having another disorder.
If you persistently deny someone treatment, their lives will be at risk. This goes for both physical and mental disabilities. Do better.
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This comic is a little different than what I usually do but I worked real hard on it—Maybe I'll make more infographic stuff in the future this ended up being fun. Hope you learned something new :)
If you are still curious and want to learn more about OCD, you can visit the International OCD Foundation's website. I also recommend this amazing TED ED video "Starving The Monster", which was my first introduction to the disorder and this video by John Green about his own experience with OCD.
The IOCDF's website can also help you find support groups, therapy, and has lots of online guides and resources as well if you or a loved one is struggling with the disorder. It is very comprehensive!
Reblog to teach your followers about OCD
(But also not reblogging doesn't make you evil, silly goose)
I don’t know if this is going to make any sense but it’s really surreal and difficult to go through treatment for moral OCD and then logging onto Tumblr.com and seeing 5 posts in a row that call you terrible and selfish for doing things that you’re told you need to do to get better or/and encouraging your worst compulsions as righteous behavior that you should keep doing at all costs.
I’m not saying those posts are bad: they have nothing to do with me and logically I know this. But it’s really weird to be trying to “get better” and have your brain twist everything you see to argue that “getting better means you will be worse.”
moral ocd is like "why haven't you solved world hunger and brought about world peace completely by yourself without a single person helping you and without acknowledgement for anything that you did or the fact that you did it because if you did you'd be a bad person? and if you ignore the shame you are even worse? also if you talk about this to anyone you're attention seeking!! okie byeeeee!!! now go do your allotted activity to make you not bad™ anymore."
not everything is your fault. anything you have no control over can never, logically, be your fault. you shouldn’t feel guilty over something that was out of your hands.
some things are your fault. sometimes you screw up. that’s okay, we’re all human. most mistakes just need an apology, and a promise not to repeat that action.
learn to let go of the things you weren’t to blame for, and to forgive yourself for the things that you are to blame for. living your life in shame doesn’t benefit anyone, least of all the people you want to do good for.
Look, this is what moral OCD is like for me:
I walk past a piece of paper. I don’t pick it up because I had a long day at work and it’s very cold outside. This then becomes my internal monologue:
I didn’t pick up that piece of paper, I should have. Don’t I care about the environment? It’s not my trash, I shouldn’t have to pick it up. But also that’s how these things happen right? We place the blame on others as our environment degrades. It was just a piece of paper, it’s not like it can do that much damage. But also how do I know: I’m not an environmental expert. Maybe stray paper scraps are killing the frogs. You’re literally killing the frogs. You should look up how many frogs die a year so you know how shitty you are-No stop it.
I care about the environment, and I recycle and I joined green activism movements but is that enough? I could be doing more. I should be doing more. I should donate my entire check to charity. But isn’t it self serving to think that my one check could help that much? Do I really think I’m that important, how self entitled and-no stop it, reset! You are obsessing and if you fall for it, you will not eat dinner. Let it go.
Okay it’s just a piece of paper. It’s okay you skipped it this once: it could have had something dangerous on it. Yeah that makes sense. But also, that means I’m putting my own safety over trying to help the environment, which is very selfish of me. I’m just one shitty person: god how could I be so self absorbed. I should have picked up the piece of paper. I’m so selfish, and shitty and-no, no, stop it! This is not helpful. It’s fine.
It’s been a long day and I’m cold, that’s not a crime- no that’s being selfish again, you’re making excuses. You’re just a lazy piece of shit who doesn’t care about others, and selfish and God the fact you’re thinking this much about one piece of paper shows how selfish you are, you care more about if you’re a good person than anything else, you’re a piece of shit, you’re a piece of shit, YOU’RE A PIECE OF SHIT.
I get home and open up Tumblr. The first post I see says “if you don’t reblog this post about the environment you’re as complicit as an oil billionaire.” I close my computer and resign myself to looking up the state frog populations until I go to bed.
I don’t eat dinner.
The amount of frogs that die a year is somewhere from 200 million to over 1 billion.
this struck me right in the heart. I know that feeling intimately. Every single day, I feel it. I don't think people understand the depths of OCD and Rumination. It's not just a little anxiety or discomfort. Your entire mind is lost to it. It's all you think of. This put it into words better than most things I've seen.
Thanks, OP
"it's all in your head" correct! unfortunately I am also in there
Mental illness is all in your head in the same way that prostate cancer is all in your ass.
this person wins everybody else go home