m&ms

[mindofaoldsoul]

My thoughts are over crowding my head it is making me aniexty filled to the brim. I do not know if she knows but I have to stop taking everything so personal. No I do not think anything wrong with me, I hate being two things at once.. what I mean by that is.. that I am in overdrive and I just want to shut it down. Now somehow I am suppose to bring him out to the vehicle.. like what my bra?

I feel like I am drowning in my own thoughts but maybe I am just over reacting but who knows sometimes I get over stimulated. So it could just be a combination of the two..

[mindofaoldsoul]

Why?

Why am I a doormat to you its almost to the point. He has told me to leave multiple times now. But where am I going to go?

[mindofaoldsoul]

Being a potential step mom??

So having a boyfriend with small children is a different type of learning experience. I am trying to be soft but being soft does not cut, especially with these two babies. They are under the ages of ten therefore I am going to have to be more tough, nothing like how I raised my baby sister.. but I am going to try different tactics from here on out. lol

[mindofaoldsoul]

why does she not want to talk to me? why ?

[mindofaoldsoul]

Can music ever be free again?

Yes i do not pay for the apple music, amazon or some stupid google music app. Call me cheapo asf but can we got back to burner CDs for free again or nah?

[mindofaoldsoul]

Options

PARTYNEXTDOOR

[mindofaoldsoul]

She's a MANEATER!

[mindofaoldsoul]

Mondays Suckk!

I would rather start every day of the week on a Tuesday or a different day of the week! Change is good and I cannot stand a Monday being the back to workday.

#mondaysareboring #timeforchange #newmindset #newday #allthatmattersistoday #tuesdaynewfav #scorpio #tuesdaysarebetter #letstravel

[mindofaoldsoul]

Mindful Spirit

Rereading the old posts I have posted to my wall years ago. Its like looking back at my younger self, at the innocence of how naive I was thinking being in love with a side piece. But understanding now what lust, sex and childish ways can crave such surface level relationships and friendships such men who just want you for your body. Through the years of fifteen to nineteen teenage years and to fast forward to being twenty-seven and going through as much dark paths and ending up at doorsteps that "your mother" always warned to never get candy from or always telling you be safe. Yeah, all men tend to always have the natural behavior as men have biology been bred to do since the beginning of time.

#mendonotchange #youcannotchangemen #mensuck #menareyuck #learningmen #womenwoman #womenarebetter #womandeservemore #womenwouldrathermarrywomen #menareturningintowomen #newage #newsight #womanarebettter

[mindofaoldsoul]

I keep asking myself why I wasn’t enough for you.. you broke me into so many a million little pieces that I will never learn how to put back together.. 💔

[mindofaoldsoul]

I want everything with you.

I want to have your babies. I want to love you. I want to travel the world with you. I want to wake up next to you. I want you to need me. I want argue with you. I want to fall asleep with you. I want to dream with you. I want to get drunk with you. I want to cry in your arms. I want to see at end of the aisle. I want kiss you. I want to come home to you. I want to be everything you ever wanted. I want to cheer you on. I want to support you. I want you tell me you had a bad day. I want to rub your back after a long day. I want to slow dance with you. I want look in your eyes and not second guess why I am enough. I want every bad & good day. I want to watch our kids get old. I want to be your home. I want to choose you everyday. I want to die with you. I want to grow old with you. I want summer nights with you. I want to be silly with you. I want to us to be our authentic and raw selves. I want take baths with you. I want you in every way imagineable. I want us. I want to get take out with you. I want to go to the movies with you. I want to love you until my last breathe. I will doing any to make you the happiest man in this earth one day.

I want you baby. ♥️

[mindofaoldsoul]

Role Playing with you.. makes me crave you.. 👄

[not-hard-to-love]

If you’re hurting over someone who refuses To acknowledge that they’ve hurt you Then eventually you have to learn to move on Without ever receiving their remorse

@bemstar

[mindofaoldsoul]

Man that all I want 😪😤🤷🏽‍♀️

[mindofaoldsoul]

Being our messy, imperfect, authentic selves helps create a space where others feel safe to be themselves, too. Your vulnerability can be a gift to others, how badass is that?!

b.oakman

[mindofaoldsoul]

[mindofaoldsoul]

Hey Trenton Lake! 🗣 I know it’s been a while since you have heard from me but, there’s something that needs to be said! I wanted YOU to say sorry for what happened it just hurt me for you not showing me any empathy to what I was telling you back then. It was very hard for me. . . you being around my family so much but it’s grown on me they really love having you around. My mind goes in circles like why can’t me and you ever act like we know each other, we literally got caught up for 4 years on each other. But we can never say one word to each other? Blows my mind.. I don’t hate you at all. Never ever have before. . I never stopped caring about you, sounds stupid but I didn’t even if it looked like I did! I just had a hard time with it, because I was in love with you. Plus last year was a super crazy year for me. I lost a lot of people who I never thought i would live without..even YOU unfortunately... Just means no one is really meant to stay. Anyways to get to the point I’m happy for you an what you are achieving. But life goes on I wish for you nothing but the best for the years to come. I won’t ever forget you and the way you made me feel..