Hi oli!! It's e anon here. I hope things are okay with you 👉🏼👈🏼🥺
E anon!!!! HELLO!!! Okay so I haven’t been here in quite a while because a lot of insane stuff has been happening in my life jkgjksl but things are finally settling down and becoming a bit more normal so I should be able to catch up on everything I’ve missed while I was gone!!
I kinda wanna talk about what’s happened SO LONG STORY HERE BUT basically up until recently I lived with my mum and things just weren’t pleasant at all - every two seconds she’d be making spiteful comments towards me so I’d always be on edge waiting for the next nasty comment and I’d literally recoil every time I heard her approaching because she just never had anything nice to say to me. And things just got worse for some reason over the past few months. She’s a recovered alcoholic and she started drinking again this year and obviously when she’d been drinking she’d be even more hostile towards me, and for years she’s had this “habit” of taking my bank card and using it without me knowing and then when I mention it to her she just gets defensive and insists that because she pays the rent (which I also pay towards) she has no money left so she HAS to spend mine. She was just really good at making me guilty all the time even though when I think back I’d never actually even done anything wrong, you know?
I’d been planning to move out next year to go to uni but she’d just been getting worse and worse and I reached a point where I just couldn’t take it anymore, even just for one more year. Ryan’s mum had said several times that she doesn’t like me having to put up with that kind of behaviour all the time and that she’d happily take me in so I took her up on the offer and started making plans to move in. My grandma found out that I was planning on leaving though and for some reason straight-up told my mum even though she knew that she’d have an explosive reaction about it. My mum found out while I was staying at Ryan’s for a few days and she was furious - she called me and was awful to me over the phone and basically told me not to come home ever again and that she’ll never talk to me again. And then over the next few days I kept getting horrible drunk messages from her, she just kept saying that I was “ditching” my family for my boyfriend and things like that, when really she should have been reflecting about the fact that someone else’s family home is a million times comfier than my own. And then I made sure I knew she’d be working so I could go and collect my stuff from the house. When I got there all my belongings had been thrown outside, jsut sitting there in the street. It had been raining a bunch so everything was soaked (like legit I picked up my xbox and water just POURED out of it) and not only had everything been thrown out but she’d also spitefully smashed it all up too? Like my albums and videogames she’d taken them out of the boxes and snapped them into pieces, she’d ripped up my kpop albums and my books and there were just pages of stuff everywhere. The only thing I managed to salvage was some clothes, everything else was beyond repair. I plan on never speaking to her again, even if someday she attempts to reach out to me - I don’t want someone so spiteful in my life.
Honestly all of this just reassured me that I’d done the right thing by getting out of there, I’m so relieved to be out of such a toxic environment. And now I’m living with Sunshine!! It’s so lovely and every day is happy, every night before bedtime I get a cuddle from his mum, I eat properly, sleep properly and I just have so much support that I’m not used to having. I’m not alone anymore and it’s just so relieving.
