You don't get it.
You don’t. It isn’t a game she’s playing. She isn’t manipulating, fishing for compliments, or trying to trap you. Despite what the world has taught you, she has a rare, direct honesty in the way she interacts and a pure heart that most can’t recognize, let alone believe. Her insecurity only surfaces when she is trying to let someone in, don’t you understand? She feels so deeply… it has cost her greatly in her lifetime. It is easier, safer, and much more rational to default to doubt… it hurts less than trust. She won’t allow herself to believe most anything unless it is explicitly said as well as shown… and often repeated. Years of emotional neglect does that to a person. It doesn’t make her broken, but it does make her different. Her doubt isn’t about you. When you pull away, it will almost always be interpreted as rejection. It’s ok if you don’t want the responsibility, believe me, the woman understands completely, and while she doesn’t blame you, she also knows she’s worth it. The little girl though? It simply makes her sad, because she peeks out of hiding so seldom, and shows glimpses of her soul to so few. Like most treasures worth owning, she is obscured from casual sight; she requires being earnestly sought. ~dd
