Have you ever had one of those days when you feel really sad and then really happy later on?
Well I had one of those episodes today.
It all started at breakfast, and my family was there. My dad was saying that we love our new school and I honestly said, "I don't know."
Then he scoffed at me and asked or something about missing my friends and in my head I was like yeah. Then he told me I was getting emotional.
I don't know why, but I walked back to my room, locked the door, and started crying.
I can't adapt to new places that well and it takes time. But what the hell was my father trying to do?! Make me feel bad?! Of course I'm emotional: I'm a girl dammit! That's what I hate about him; he always plays with my emotions and gets mad because he said he was teasing me.
WELL FUCK HIM. HE TREATS MY EMOTIONS LIKE IT'S THE LAST THING WORTH PAYING ATTENTION TO IN THE FAMILY.
God, I hate him so much sometimes! He just frustrates me and shit! sjg;dskag
But all day, I bottled up my emotions. Today there were sign-ups at the club and I felt happy because I joined a lot that looked fun, good on colleges, and were interesting.
And I was in a good mood for the rest of the day.
I don't know where I'm going with this but I wanted to write it out. I just hate the fact that my father treats my emotions like shit sometimes. Well excuse me for being damn sensitive.
He can't get it in his damn head that I made the best friends EVER at that school. I don't and will never replace them! He knows the shit I've been through, so why the hell is he making my life at my new school harder for me?!
To be honest, every time he says "I love my daughter" and kisses me on the head, I just wanna smack him away from me. I know I shouldn't be saying things like this because I know I will regret it one day, but I'm pissed at him right now. I don't care about him right now and I'm doing my best to let things get better for me.