The more I read about ADHD the more I feel like one of those birds that got imprinted on a human and grew up having no fucking idea it is a duck. Like not even about things I SUCK at, but fucking everything I thought was only a part of my personality. Like imagine being like
"Oh man I hate taking walks next to bodies of water, I always want to jump in and it's really hard to resist the urge and either I jump into the water and people get weirded out, or I have to spend the entire time resisting the urge to go into the water, so I'm distracted from the conversation, and people get annoyed with me."
"That's because you're a duck."
"The what."
"You want to be in the water because you're a duck. People don't get an urge to go into any random body of water every time they see one. That's a duck urge. You have it because you're a duck."
"Wait other people aren't just better at resisting the urge, they literally don't even have it in the first place."
"Yes."
"Oh."
i forgot this was a metaphor halfway through and just started nodding and thinking about how I, too, struggle not to jump into random bodies of water
