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āHey, easy! He is with me.ā - breaking my silence to say happy Valentine
A story that began a long time ago and still keeps on giving and growing
Thank you for bringing light into my still bleeding heart for these two š
Anakin: "Ben, my grandson."
Ben: "My grandfather? What happened?"
Anakin: "You managed to save her."
Ben: "I don't remember."
Anakin: "Trust me, you saved her."
Ben: "Rey!"
Anakin: "So, you do remember... that's good."
Ben: "Why?"
Anakin: "It means you still have a chance."
Ben: "Chance?"
Anakin: "To live."
Ben: "Tell me what's going on."
Anakin: "I'm here to finish your training."
Ben: "It's a little late for that."
Anakin: "One is never too old to learn, my grandson."
Ben: "Alright, what's the lesson?"
Anakin: "Live or die."
Ben: "I won't fight you."
Anakin: "I've heard that before."
Ben: "What if I want stop fighting?"
Anakin: "Then you'll die."
Anakin: "You lack conviction. I gave you a choice: live or die."
Ben: "I choose to live."
Anakin: "There's hope for you yet."
*ugly sobbing* PLEEEEAAAASEEEE!!
Did they even have "desks" in 1200's Japan? At best it was probably a low squat table.
*sighs and opens another research tab*
GRRM's newest blog post
Solo's place on the Millennium Falcon
I cannot tell you how much this hits, in my still bleeding heart.
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A scene I wish I had seen: Ben Solo and Rey, during a press conference spread throughout Holonet, where they told about the definitive end of Palpatine.
I LOVE THIS!!!!
Part 17 of Scene VI āPoeā Have a nice weekend, dear Reylos!
Still hoping for that āmind-transfer-showingā with
Suffering mental and physical abuse
The betrayal of the āresistanceās last hopeā (Luke)
And how terrible HORRIFIC he felt when killing his father etcā.
Like a psychologist said āHe is in āsurvival spaceā doing anything to survive because he is scared, donāt have ANYONE to help and just want out but donāt have an outā.
So still hoping š *crossing fingers and standing dancing on my tippy toes (and hope I donāt overstep in my enthusiasm)
All my love to you dear author. This is beautiful and gripping and how I wish you had written the last movie instead because āØbeautifulāØ
Here we go - part 16 of Scene VI āPoeā. I had very intense last weeks, from now on Iām hopefully back to my routine of one update per week. Iām already working on part 17 so stay tuned :)
Oh oh OH!!!
What if Ben just rises up, walks slowly over to Poe, places two fingers on his temple (despite Poe frailing his arms, going āhey, HEY?!ā) and then he sees and feels EVERYTHING!!! š±
Oooooh that would be so cool!!
Ben showing his inner most hurts, the betrayal of his family (namely his uncle and his new Jedi family not believing him) and of Snoke gaslighting him, his fear and how Ben fought the dark for years and still wanted to be good despite the horrible situation he couldnāt escape (source: Comic Rise Of Kylo Ren)
When Ben is finally done with show-and-tell of stuff he probably didnāt want to divulge to ANYONE, let alone a smug ass pilot who was his mommyās favorite, Poe just staggers, tears rolling down his cheeks and then he rushes in to hug Ben to ease his pain just a little..
Perhaps the hug is too much to wish for but I would so so so much hope we get to see Poe really see and feel EVERYTHING. That would be so amazing š
Either way, if anyone hasnāt read this comic, you are lucky to have so much of the story already to read.
This comic is AN ABSOLUTE
āØšāØ GEMāØšāØ
is this not what happened?
Lol (just discovered this old gem)
The Silenced Victims Meta
Similar to both Severus Snape and Ben Solo, Billy got the same narrativeĀ treatment of an abuse victim who didnātĀ ācope properlyā being punished by no one giving a shit except that oneĀ āspecial personā bullshit and I hate it.
Because what a backhanded ass concept.Ā
Harry for Severus: Harry is literally the only person alive who knows or cares about everything Severus did in the background for years to stop Voldemort. The only one who gave a shit about his own fatherās bullying of Severus and showed to be disgusted with it.
Rey for Ben Solo: Again, the only person left alive who knows about Benās abuse by Snoke and him sacrificing his life for her. Hell, itās not even known if Ray told anyone about it. Sheās the only one who mourned his death (thanks novels) and saw him as a human and not a monster.
Max for Billy: Once again, only person that gives a shit that heās dead (yeah know besides his abuser) only person that seems to care about his sacrifice. Oh, and letās not forget the kick in the face line of āYour braver than youāre brother.ā You know your brother who tried to fight off an interdimensional mind controlling monster for weeks alone. The one who sacrificed his life to stop it from, who knows taking over the world. But who cares about that, the writers clearly donāt.
So, have you guys noticed a fucked up pattern here?
Abuse victim who did not cope properly must sacrifice their life for some great or good, and even than what they did will never fully be recognized.
Even in death the narrative is still actively punishing them, by either lack of acknowledgement or their sacrifice being reduced. Similar to the very abuse they faced.
Notice something else these three all have in common? No support system. No one to turn to, no one to acknowledge their abuse, no one to help them. And yet this itself isnāt even acknowledged or even brought to attention in the story.
Now in the end am I saying all these writers planned this narrative? No
But am I pointing out how strangely common this formula is? Yes
Because it gives a message. Those who react badly to their abuse via anger or bad coping mechanisms deserve the bare minimum in storytelling.
They donāt get redemption arcs. You donāt get to see them heal, see them progress. Because theyāre sacrifice was all they were in the end and even that wonāt be acknowledged. Even in death theyāre silenced once again.
THIS!!!
Iāve raged and cried my eyes out after reading the Rise of Kylo Ren. To see the mental and physical abuse Ben Solo went through, with his own fāing family never trusting him, never believing him⦠sounds familiar for so many ppl (myself included) š
But all WE apparently are worth in a movie is just getting killed off because they donāt know what to do with the victims of abuse. Like, what the hell!?!
I raged over this (albeit less eloquently as above) so Iām glad to see I wasnāt alone in this.
The same thing has now happened to āthe freakā Munson and I have boycotted the show until I see a change. That I see they didnāt just kill off the outsider, the weirdo, the freak. That they didnāt just kill him because they didnāt know what to do with him.
Sigh. Iām just so ⦠done with all of their shite, you know.
i think that at this point. at THIS point of Things. you can pretty safely assume that almost no one is Doing Well, so instead of being a real shitlord about tiny problems, maybe instead go out of your way to be kinder and more patient to everyone around you.
or at least fucking fake it.
or at least just be quiet.
these are the guiding principles of 2022
assume no one is OK
use that as fuel for kindness and bridge-building, not pettiness
if you can't be kind, be quiet
Man I hate when these purity kids try to take down ao3 because ao3 is about sharing and choices. You get to CHOOSE what you are comfortable with! A true safe place is about informed choices, not guidance designed to keep you ignorant.
I am very much against any philosophy whose reasoning isĀ āsometimes people make bad choicesā and the solution isĀ āso we should take their choices away.ā
Iām out of the loop on most things (I forget easily but mostly itās to protect myself) but this is just plain ridiculous!
They would have to go all Karen on Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram (because you bet there is bound to be some thirst pics there too, encouraging for ādirty stuffā) not to mention the WHOLE FREAKING INTERNET!! There will ALWAYS be dirt because thatās how people are wired. āTo be temptedā to speak their language, but billions are not following the pure ways and just as you cannot force people to do what YOU want to do (really now, you are not the king/queen of this world) you just have to accept that with supply and demand, there will always be such things. Succeed in taking a few sites down = more pop up before you can blink š¤·āāļø supply and demand!
This insistent āyOu HaVE tO d0 WhAt I sAY!!!ā Is just baffling to me. Are we all just gonna accept it when people go berserk like this because we are the sensible ones (despite what they think). This behavior is seen in Kindergarten. Sheesh SMH
Hellfire Jeff/Trey Best, welcome to Team Hellcheerā¢ļø
YEEES *cheering* we want Eddie back šš„²
Who says he wasnāt nr 10 from the facility? Who said heād even remember that shit (ppl with amnesia is a trope for a reason).
He is alive in the upside down or have already found his way back (abd THATS why the gang was all cheerful at the ending)
If Jesus-Eleven can bring ppl back from the dead, then his innate powers can SURELY have saved him from the brink of death!
Plus we never saw other than a little niblet on his body (seriously if he was dying from wounds, where was all the blood - is what Iām asking). It HAS to mean he is 010 and alive. EVERYTHING points to it ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
On a different note: still havenāt watched the whole last episode on my Netflix. When I saw it with another (on their streaming) I bawled my eyes out before connecting the dots later on. I cannot make myself watch it before I know for sure he will come back. THATS how much he meant to people. So yeah, he is 1000% correct. We want Eddie back (and poor Chrissy deserved the world š)
āTears streamed down her face. He had sacrificed everything for her [ā¦]
ā¦It felt like half of her was missing, and she supposed it was.āĀ
- The Rise of Skywalker (novelization)
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This is so raw and beautiful.
I remember seeing this and remember I was like YES! Why the F couldnāt we even get a single tear in the movie, let alone the gut-wrenching, agonizing, Pull-my-heartstrings WAIL that was deserved from her. She fāing lost her other half! The part that made her whole ⦠but in the movie sheās all āla-de-da all happy together againā - despite being more in tune with Ben than her friend-zone-stop-taking-my-hand Finn and the screaming matches she had with Poe. But nah, itās the end of the movie, so we are all happy fell good and hugging everyone (and good lord, donāt even get me started on the Palpatine storyline š¤¦āāļø)
Thank you for listing to my rant š I still have ISSUES with that stinker of a movie! š
STRANGER THINGS HOPEFULLY FUTURE SPOILERS
Hereās my hopes/thoughts on season FIVE, where in the end of season 4 Eddie made a Jon Snow (and thatās why the others arenāt so devastated)
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Since he grew up with his uncle, he doesnāt remember much from his childhood. Other than the kids bullied him with his buzz cut hair and the weird 010 tattoo on his wrist, he began growing out his hair and always wore a watch from then on out.
Come High School, his drug use makes his brain muddled and his ācurseā dampen. It freaked him out to begin with, made him think he was loosing his mind. His cassette tapes beginning to float on its own. Perhaps a demon really had possessed him, or at least latched on to him to scare the living piss out of him.
It of course wasnāt all bad. Playing D&D he could make the dice turn the way he wanted. Creating a way more tense and exciting game for the others. Their fright and courage and then in the end an almost lost game turned to victory. It was glorious to see them cheer. That was what he loved the most.
Now, even if he lay dying as Henderson hobbles away to get to safety (good, hurry and get out of here before the monsters regain consciousness). The kid - closest thing to a brother heād ever had - thinks heās dead. His eyes are closed and his body so very tired, but in the end, he doesnāt regret a single thing⦠well, perhaps having the courage to ask Chrissy for a kiss, but other than that, heās golden.
His chest hurt where they took bites out of him. Perhaps he shouldnāt have stayed clean for this mission to Mordor. Mordor sucks⦠and hurts. Perhaps with a few pills it would have hurt less. The demonās back too, the magic all over him. A faint collection of childhood memories that couldnāt have been his begins to bubble up inside his mind. Kids all dressed in weird hospital clothes.
What is this? He tries to make the magic help him, tries to tap into it like the doctor tells him. āUse your powers, number 10. USE THEM!ā He clinches his eyes tighter and tries to concentrate on these āpowersā instead of the pain. Something flows inside of him freely now, he feels how itās knitting his skin together. His screams fill the red haze, his body reconstruction itself and he feels everything.
He still expects to die. There must still be monsters out there, but as he lays on the dirty asphalt, panting with exhaustion, the ground growls and trembles beneath him. Pillars of red bursts up from his uncles trailer and out far away, the skies burning red, frightening him to the core⦠and yet, he knows he needs to warn the others. Know he needs to get out of Mordor before the beasts come crawling.
On wobbly legs, he slowly drags his body over to the giant void now created. He hopes he can simply lets him self fall in, letting him return to the right side of the streets⦠The side where he is hunted for being a murderer⦠looking around, he hobbles back to his weapon and shield and begins the journey through Mordor.
Hunger and thirst has set in but there is nothing here he would dare try to eat. Surprisingly he didnāt encounter a single monster over his days of walking. Something or someone must have stopped it. Perhaps the girl they kids talked about. He allows himself a relieved smile. Good to know they all are safe now. Glancing at the giant ominous scar across the lands he shutters. Perhaps not that safe.
When he arrives at the old farmhouse fields, he is pretty sure he isnāt going to get captured by angry townies or the government as most wanted or something. He slips into the scar of red, birthed anew on the other side. Greeted with his fellowship conking running down the hill with a war cry, brandishing with wooden sticks and closed fists as weapons. A few short steps away they still the screaming, tossed the made up on the spot weapons and rushes to his side. A chuckle bubbles up from his dry throat. They probably thought he was one of the monsters but boy was he glad itās was them who greeted him.
He smiles so much his cheeks hurt, looking up at their happy faces. āAnyone got a beer?ā
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Guys, stop being crap to creators. You arenāt hurting Amazon. Youāre stealing from writers.
EDIT:
Okay, to all the people blaming Amazon and TikTok, you are wildly missing the point or misdirecting blame.
TikTok is an app. It is not sentient. It is not doing this.
Amazon is also an app, and it is WHERE this is happening.
The problem is the people who are choosing to do this.
In order to āsave moneyāā please read that as āstealāā they are buying a book fully intending to read and then return it so they get something without truly paying for it.
Nevermind, libraries let you borrow books for free, including ebooks.
Nevermind that writers canāt keep food on the table or a roof over their heads (so they can also keep writing, btw) if they arenāt getting paid.
No, no, what matters is YOU. You wanted it, felt entitled to it, made excuses to yourself and others to justify it, and then helped yourself to someoneās hardwork without intending to pay for it. AKA ātheft.ā
This isnāt some vigilante, anti-corporations BS. You donāt hurt corporations by doing this. You hurt authors. You hurt the author your stealing from. You hurt every author who gives up getting published because of this behavior. You hurt other authors who sees this happening, knowing you donāt give a ratās ass about them only want to selfishly benefit from their labor. These are people who work hard, arenāt paid a living wage, and are practically begging just to be fairly compensated, yet people continue to exploit them and take their hardwork for themselves. (Slavery is coming to mind, is it doing that for anyone else? Make someone else do all the work while you reap the benefits and do absolutely nothing to earn it, including not paying them so they can pay bills and eat?).
You hurt people. You hurt the people you are stealing from. You are choosing to do that.
Stop blaming TikTok and Amazon. Itās PEOPLE who are choosing to do this to other people.
Meanwhile, you could have gone to the library or used their electronic resources. Yāall are some fucked up, selfish assholes. Treat others how youād want to be treated. If a toddler can understand kindness and caring, so the fuck can you.
This is the first Iāve heard of it but what the hell?!?
People take YEARS writing a book! Exhaust themselves, sacrifice time away from family and friends. Sometimes donāt even have an income to focus on bringing their brain child into the world and living off scraps and people really think this is okay behavior?!?
How can they live with themselves doing stuff like this?!?